I got so upset this morning with my husband. We were suppose to go to a house warming party for his cousin and I tried a bunch of clothes on and I would ask him what looked alright to wear he would say shirt is not long enough then need to wear longer sleeves (it's summer no one sell's shirts that do not have short sleeves that can cover up your arms they are all really short!) and the jeans did not fit me right They are not tight!
I should not of asked him to be so honest but I did and I got so upset I did not go. He has a very active social life and I feel he is embaraesd by the way I look all the other wife's of his friends are skinny little blonds how do I compete?? I'm letting my life pass me by because I do not want to go out in fear of embarrassing him or myself! I sit at home and read books and watch tv I do not want to go anywhere or see anyone that often. I have been on track lost 13 pds but have a long way to go. I know I need to just pick myself up and go on with life but sometimes it is harder then others. I'm going to lose this weight NO MATTER WHAT. I want to feel good about myself and I WANT MY LIFE BACK!

