Hey,
I am new to this forum. But thought this may be the best place to post how I feel/my cry for help?
I am 29 yrs old and am 6'0 and weigh my guess is around 450-500 lbs. I have always been a big girl, but I am at the heaviest I have ever been. I suffer from severe anxiety and depression. I only leave my apartment to go to my psychiatrist. I am so ashamed with how I look and scared that people will make fun of me so it has become my life to just sit on the couch or lay in bed and cry. I never thought in a million years that I would ever get to this point, I always as I have said been a big girl but was active. I used to go to Curves, I would walk. Now everything I do is a chore, I can't stand for more than a couple minutes and I cannot walk any distance. I got into a car accident years ago and now have disc degeneration in my back which makes everything go numb when I walk any distance. My weight of course does not help this fact. I just can't seem to get motivated enough to lose weight or stick to any sort of exercise program because I am in so much pain. My depression has been the worst it has been in years and I think a lot about killing myself so I won't be a burden on those who I love anymore. I also have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) which I have been told can be a factor in weight gain and also make it harder to lose weight. I just am tired, depressed and at my wits end. It is tiring every day waking up in pain, and going to bed in pain. I want to be able to do the things I used to do without any pain. I just have no idea where to start because when I think about all the weight I have to lose I just become overwhelmed.