I've had a diagnosis of depression since I was 16. Now, 12 years later, I've been re-diagnosed as having bipolar, anxiety, and borderline personality disorder. I just got my meds today (am also going to therapy) and I'm terrified they are going to make me gain weight. I've been put on Depakote (divalproex) 250mg three times daily and 1 mg Atavan (lorazepam) as needed up to 3 times daily. I'm not too worried about the atavan, I've been on it before and since it's an "as needed" I won't have a constant level of it in my bloodstream. But the depakote is scaring me half to death. Everything I've read is people gain copious amounts of weight in short times while on this medication. I told the doctor I was terrified of weight gain and that it could potentially make me not want to take a med, but he assured me it was only a possible side effect and would most likely not happen to me. Part of the reason I'm so scared is because I'm just coming off a "binge" of sorts where I've gained back 30lbs of the 50 I lost. I don't think gaining any more back would be helpful to my mental health. So I guess I'm asking for personal experiences, advice, or ways people have avoided weight gain on depakote. I'm also very scared of the constant feeling of hunger people say they have on this med, I already have trouble with the difference between emotional hunger and physical hunger, typically giving in to the physical hunger so I can better control the emotional hunger (if that even makes sense). So being in a constant state of actual physical hunger is not a pleasant prospect.
Sorry for the rambling. I guess I'm just nervous and anxious and scared. If you've gotten this far, thanks for reading.