How do I know my meds are working?
I've been on two types of medication to treat my depression and anxiety since May 2011. I take Propanolol to control the physical symptoms of panic attacks and I know this definitely works because it starts to kick in about fifteen minutes after I take it. I also take Citalopram (Celexa/Cipramil). I used to be on 20mg but I didn't feel like anything was happening after a few months, so my doctor upped it to 40mg a couple of months ago, but I still don't know if it's working. I still have days when my thoughts and worries are eating me up and I can't find the strength, the will or the energy to do simple tasks like tidy up or even cook dinner, and all I want to do is hide in my room because I don't feel like I can cope. Just last week I felt like I was spiralling, and at the moment I sort of feel ok. During that bad week I ended up crying in public when my boyfriend and I went for coffee, and I can't even begin to describe how embarrassed and ashamed I felt. I hate crying in front of people and there I was with tears running down my face! My question is: how are antidepressants supposed to make me feel? Because mine make me feel like I'm on a seesaw! Is this normal? I've read the information booklet several times over and it hasn't really answered this question so I'm not sure where I stand.
I'd appreciate any feedback from other Citalopram users, although all experiences are, of course, very welcome!
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