September Chat!
 

Thought I might get this started ^^

After feeling depressed at fat at the end of last month, I feel I've been going good in September! I've lost 2.8kgs so far (yeah yeah water weight i know, let me have my victories dammit :P), and joined a fitness site (fitocracy) which has really gotten me motivated to actually exercise, which is uber important for me - i need exercise for happy endorphins and proper sleepage!

Marie~ I hope your re-plastering went ok ^^

Aunty Jam ~ Sorry, but i lolled your finger splint! "Oh, I'm not giving you the finger, really, the doctor just splint it that way!!" :D :D :D

Summershine - thanks for starting the Sept. chat! and belated Happy Birthday ...and I lol'd at your fist pump..double fist pump..un-fist pump :D

marie - so sorry you are going to be plaster-bound for so long! :hug:

Aunty Jam - you go ahead and use that splint when it is needed :D

Hello to everyone else!

I'm still good...because it's still the 6 months of the year that I can function well. Trying not to dread November - April.

Oh jeez..I got stopped for speeding AGAIN the other day. But was given a warning!! :faint: I am scared straight ladies, no more speeding for me.

I have off today, and I already vacuumed about 5 pounds of dog hair last night, so that was a good start. Laundry, clean the kitchen, any other indoor chores because it is a drippy rainy day (as if Vermont needs any more rain!)

Hope everyone is relatively good. I read in another thread that our Chubbykins went to the hospital for not feeling right but everything checked out ok.

hey everyone hows it going?

i had my plaster taken of today... yay.... its going back on next week though...booo! iv spent all day at the fracture clinic having xrays and CT scans iv really messed it up this time :( hey ho it will mend i guess

I had the worst pain attack last night the first one in ages it was awful all the stress of my daughter starting high school and the worry that brings just took its toll on me and by 10pm i was in a right state. my daughter on the other hand was great she loves the new school. parenting is sooo stress full!

anyway hope everyone is ok
xxx

Hey all...

Marie - Deep breaths, deep breaths... sorry, I know what you mean. My step daughter graduated last year and is doing her up grading now before college and I'm left wondering what happened to the 5 year old I met all those years ago.

Summer - Thanks for starting a new thread.. and in my humble opinion a victory is a victory, take them where you can get them!

Vermont - Now that you've gotten the dog hair out of your house want to come do mine? We must have at least that. Turned on a floor fan last night and it was like the tumbleweeds in an old western movie. Oh... and quit speeding you! How fast were you going?

I hope Chubby is ok :(

I still have my splint on... :( Doctor says now that it was likely dislocated or hyper extended since there are no breaks and most of the pain is in the joints. Still hurts quite a bit if I try to move the joints sideways at all. I don't plan on wearing this much longer.

My moods are the same... up and down, and up and down... bleh! My husband came in yesterday and said "Why am I so depressed? I don't even want to work on my truck!". Unfortunately I didn't have any answers for him since I was feeling the same way. I think though it's likely because of the dog situation... our puppy got kennel cough and we were faced with the prospect of having to wait until friday to take him to the vet. I was on the phone with him telling him the boy has to go to a vet and soon! And he said "What do you want me to do about it?" and maybe I shouldn't have but I said "You know what I want you to do..." He said "Goodbye" and hung up (we don't hang up on each other). I found out later that he went out and tried to pawn his much loved golf clubs but they wouldn't take them (wrong season). Anyway... our neighbors offered to foot the bill for the vet until friday... they're an older couple in their 70's that have known my family since before I was born. Our boy gave their border collie puppy kennel cough (shared fence, they often sniff each other through the gaps) and they had her to the vet the same day so when she asked when our appointment for our boy was hubby told her he had to wait and the Mrs wouldn't hear of it. I am very very greatful to them, my boy was back to demanding we throw a ball for him just hours after his first antibiotics.

**SIGH** Sorry! I really didn't mean to rant about this but I don't feel like deleting it after getting it all typed out.

sounds like everyones been in the waars :(

Im not feeling to good atm iv had really bad pain with endimitriosis stuff and im not feeling good mentally everything seems to be getting to me latley and im sick of friends taking the p1 ss out of me i do so much for people and they throw it bk in my face by treating me bad :(

Hope your all ok sorry for the rant :(

Sorry to hear of others having difficulties this month. I have a new resolve this month so I'm feeling happy. Well, happy is a relative term. I'm not totally depressed. I'm a visual learner so I'm trying to picture myself looking a certain way everytime I try to eat too much and remember that's the goal. It's been pretty good at making me put away that second helping (or third, whichever the case may be). Here's to everyone struggling and hoping things will be better tomorrow!

marie - so sorry about the plaster having to be back on..and for your stress about daughter's school. But as you said she is good with it, so I hope that relieves you some!

Aunty Jam - shame about the pup's kennel cough! that was really nice of the neighbor's to help out, very nice folks. And sorry about the argument with DH. I'd be happy to vacuum your place, at least it would be a change of scenery :D and diff dog hair, lol. I know about tumbleweeds!! Oh..about the speeding, I am ashamed to say that I was going 44 in a 25 zone. As I said I am scared straight!!! Haven't gone more than 5 over the limit since then. Hopefully that's acceptable!

ems - honey, since we 'met' here, that was the FIRST time I've seen that you've had ever had anything but positive messages to us...I noticed that about you right from the start! so don't apologize for not feeling well, kiddo! So very sorry that you're in pain from the endometriosis, that sounds terrible. And poo to the 'friends' who are not treating you well !!! if it helps do you want to tell us about that?

Hi ThinkinTHin, we posted just a minute apart :)

cheers girls :D i feel abit better today i had abit of a breakdown yesterday i went crazy and shouting and screaming at my bf and the poor sod must of thought i was nuts lol I then burst out crying :( iv just been stressed with exams and family stuff and then friends messing me about im good to them and they treat me bad for instance my oldest friend recently had a baby i bought the baby loads and iv seen her a few times since she had him and everythings been fine. THEN WHEN IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY IN JULY she text me on my birthday wishign me happy birthday and never said she werent coming to my party, well she never turned up and she never mesaged or rang to say so and since then i have not heard a htings from her i think she feels bad i gave it 3 weeks and i text her saying i hope your ok i havent heard from u since my birthday and that wa son the 18th aug i still have not heard a thing and it has really upset me i have been good to her and she is treating me like this :( i know she is ok cus her brother is on my friends on another site and he has mentioed her and the baby so i dont know whats going on but its upset me that she can do this to me. XXX

Just had started up therapy again. Have moved, thus new therapist. My first impression was good.

IsabellaOlivia, glad you had a good first impression of the new therapist :)

ems, I am sorry your friend let you down like that! something lke that is hard to get over, I know.

Hello to everyone else :cool: I'm still doing good. :carrot:

Hi Ladies...

Ems - I'm sorry to hear about your friend :( Maybe she's going through post-partum (sp?) depression? Just a thought.

Vermont - You were really moving! That probably would have been one heck of a ticket, I'm glad you were scared straight.

My husband actually vacuumed the upstairs! I complained about the floors a few days ago so he went out and fixed the vacuum then came in and gave it to me. I almost decked him! I didn't vacuum then a day or two later I made another comment and he actually went and did it on his own! Plus he says he's going to have a talk with his daughter about her helping out more and not taking things like food and a roof over her head for granted. I know it's what parents do (even step parents), but she complains so much about helping out... poor her had to put 3 loads of dishes through the dishwasher (we were really behind) and she was complaining again I snapped at her something about I paid for the water, soap, dishwasher and the food stuck on the plates so suck it up. So last night she actually said "Thanks for dinner!". It's a small thing but it's a start. Is it fair for me to feel taken advantage of sometimes? I love her like she's mine but seriously! Since she's turned 18 she's been talking about being an adult, sometimes I feel like saying "Yep, your an adult, start paying bills" but she's in school part time (self taught distance learning with structure) and we want her to worry about that... not bills. Seriously.. life is pretty good for her right now, she works on school an hour or two a day, works part time at the mall and the rest of her time is free and besides her phone bill all of her money is hers. Holy crap I just called home because I forgot to give the older dog his meds this morning and I woke her up!!!!!! It's 10:22 here! Yeesh.

Aaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! End rant.

Hey everyone :)
 

Hi everyone,

I think I'll take the plunge and dive right into this post (if thats okay!) ;)

Things with me are so-so, I am getting a medical procedure next week. I'm not looking forward to it but it should hopefully help me out tremendously so I AM looking forward to that! I maintained my weight at the doc which is okay I guess, I mean being that I haven't been trying that hard to lose, stress-eating and all. It's hard for me to be active right now with plantar fasciitis in my feet and knee and back issues. Plus I was feeling faint and had breathing issues too, sigh. Hopefully things are getting better...

I posted in weight loss support about all the different weight loss methods I've done so now I'm at a crossroads, not really sure where to turn next.

Hope you are all well,

take care!

Hi I'm new to 3FC this week :D
 

I've suffered the effects of clinical depression & eating disorders for over 30 years. My life has been a roller coaster of high highs & low lows. Not because I'm bipolar, or anything like that, but because of what cards life has dealt me. Whenever it hits, generally, it has been as a result of overloads of stress, over long periods of time.

I have finally managed to find my way out of the deep dark hole, that I've been existing in, for the last 5 years. I am off the meds & no longer in therapy. :D That said, I now feel like I'm teetering on the edge, without the aid of a safety net. It's a scary place to be .... also, I have the physical baggage, all 92 pounds of it, to get rid of, & that scares the s**t out of me too.

On a good note, this is only week two, & hopefully, I've got you all, for support ... :carrot:

Don't cry over the past, it's gone. Don't stress about the future, it hasn't arrived. Live in the present and make it beautiful.

cheers girls still no sign or sight of my friend i think she is feeling bad because she didnt turn up at my party she has done a similar thing before and we didnt speak for 3 years but bk then i was in aterrible state of mind and didnt bother to text her but this time i did and i have give her a chance and still nothing :(

Hey ems81wales, don't worry about it. They ignore you now, but they'll need you later. That's life. ;D

yea i know they will :D x

Hi Ladies
 

hi ladies hope everyone is good today

Good point @stepping out, mom of 4 has been quite for a long time im quite worried about her. fingers crossed she is ok

ems - :hug: friends hey! i only have 1 really good friend and she lives a 2 hour drive away.... thank god for facebook and skype

Vermont you naughty girl need for speed :devil: glad to hear you doing well

aunty jam, hows the kennel cough is the pup better now?

To all the newbies hi and welcome :hug:

Well i have been up and down lately but not feeling to bad today i cheered my self up with a haircut and nails done yesterday all ways makes me feel better. im looking for a new job at the moment i cant be doing that massive travel so i took the last 3 weeks of because of my broken wrist and went on the hunt looks like i have found a interior designer job 10mins for home fingers crossed 2nd interview on monday.
My daughter has settled in at high school she had an arguement with one of her mates today bloody kids with facebook and texting they where snipping at each other for hours my ella was quite upset so i stepped in hopefully it will all fade out my monday morning and they will all hug and make up.
My wrist has healed quick and i am out of plaster now, in splint but at least i can have a soak in the bath with out a plastic bad over my arm lol
My weight loss has suffered being at home and in plaster just lazing around the house im to scared to get on the scales i dont look any bigger but you never can tell i will hop on the scales after a week back at work hopefully it will be good again.

love to all xxx

yea same here marie my best mate lives near you and im in cardiff :( but we bbm and fb and skype :d

Glad your wrist is all better and i hope things are ok with your daughter and her friend by tomoz xxx

Hey all... Havent heard from Mom at all, been wondering where she is... she always has to much on the go.

Pups are good now, no more coughing, no more meds, back to their usual antics and tearing around the house like crazy. Took them to the off leash area yesterday and let them swim in the river... I had 2 very tired puppies later on!

Marie - Glad you're out of the cast, I'm still in a splint with my finger and I'm bloody sick of it. It's fine except for the nuckle closest to the tip... that's still red and bruised... actually the second one is still a bit bruised too but it doesn't hurt.

Something interesting happened to me a few days ago... some one honked at me while I was running. In my running tights and snug shirt LOL. I stopped and looked at them because I figured I must know them.. why else would they honk at me right? Realized I didn't know them, turned and took off as fast as I could. I don't know if my face could get anymore red but I must have been the shade of that ladybug down there.

Hi to our new people :wave: Gotta get back to work.

right, we are missing momof4! I hope everything is ok with you :hug:

Marie, lovely avatar pic! because you are beautiful, girl! I hope your daughter's tiff is all gone with her girlfriend(s). i am glad your wrist is healed and you are at least out of plaster.

Aunty Jam, woohoo for getting random honks :D Hope your finger heals SOON!

And yes ladies I am continuing to NOT speed excessively :devil:

also a shout out to hope4me! and bonnie! and chubbykins! and buddly!! and any others who might be reading but not posting. everyone who joined us is missed...no pressure, mind you, just letting you know you are missed :hug:

had a GREAT day off today. My first day off in 13 days :shock: I did cut the grass yesterday after work, so I wouldn't have to do it today. Didnt linger in bed too long this morning, and I worked out FOR AN HOUR, a Cathe Friedrich dvd I haven't done in so long. I adapted it and no knee pain!! then I did about 5 loads of laundry, hung stuff outside, took the recycling out, did a little grocery shopping, then took off on my bike!! just a couple hours but it was great. Bought myself 5 tops from the consignment shop (she got destroyed by Irene but is back in business after just 3 weeks! bless her) and a pair of earrings for $10 which are beautiful dangly crystals..and makeup. It was a 'me' afternoon :D

So yesterday was my first day on Effexor. And likely my last. I just don't think that med is going to work for me AT ALL. I was nauseated all morning, didn't feel like eating anything all day (maybe that part isn't so bad) and tell me HOW can one medicine make you have drowsiness AND sleeplessness at the same time???? but my doc said "give it at least 2 weeks before you give up on it." I don't think I can DO two weeks on this! One day was bad enough!!! Ugh.

I got NO sleep at all last night. NONE. This morning I am dragging, puffy-eyed, and feel like crap.

I've been on other meds in the past 25 years... prozac, paxil (made me GAIN 30 pounds!!!) wellbutrin (serious feelings of suicide!) and a couple others. Prozac worked for me the first time, but not the 2nd time, and did work again the 3rd time. Weird.

I don't know what to do anymore. :(

Holly you missed me out :( lol

I passed my exams woohoo im on to my final year now girls :D xxx

Well done ems on passing your exams whoo hoo!!! good luck for the next year

Thanks Vermont (blushing) i have a hang up about the way i look so you comment was lovely

Auntie Jam, you hot mumma!! glad your fingers are getting better, the hand takes a long time heel hey iv still got odd swelling but its getting better.

Hi beach, i can so sympathize with you a few months ago i was having real sleep problems no sleep for days at a time. keep with your docs programme hopefully it will kick in soon. please dont take any sleeping pills i am a former addict the docs got me hooked on them please be careful and coming of them is a **** of a lot worse then not sleeping.

Well its the end of my 1st week back at work... man the traveling is hard! im not having much luck getting a local job im to over qualified for all the jobs i have applied for and not been given the jobs on that basis, its sole destroying but i am hanging in there and plodding on with the job i have. i am feeling ok in general this week so all is good. my daughter sorted it out with her friend after i gave her a lesson in being a b1tch, she stood up to her and her friend said sorry, hopefully she has learnt not to take any sh1t from bullies.

Hope everyone is feeling good today xxx

Today was my first day taking Wellbutrin. Let's hope it works.

This week has been horrible. I was engaged to get married this January. My fiance (now ex) called it off three days ago. He couldn't handle my depression anymore and didn't believe that I was actually depressed and that I was being this way on purpose. The whole ordeal was pretty ridiculous. I'm losing a lot of money that I've already spent on wedding stuff. (3k). I'm really upset, but I will move on to bigger and better things.

cheers marie :D im glad your daughter stood up for herself :D

stellar sorry to hear about your break up some people just do not understand depression and if he dont understand it now when is he you deserve better and someone to love you no matter what state of mind you are in xxx

ooo ems, I'm sorry honey!! you know it was an honest (dumb) mistake :D and CONGRATS on your exams!!!!

marie, yay to you telling your daughter to stand up for herself! and poo to people who aren't hiring you because you're over qualified!!

stellarwbz, hi and welcome!! I'm so sorry to hear of your broken engagement. how terrible! but I agree with ems, anyone who could possibly think that this is a choice, is not a person one should have as a soul mate. though I'm sure that doesn't help you now :( best wishes on the Wellbutrin, i take the XL and I think it saved me .

and HI to everyone else!

hey all, im going to "officially" join in the 'chat here, if thats alright :)

Im on a cocktail of meds and for a WHILE it was working, but now its not, and with the winter months coming up.... im frightened, ya know?? we need to find something that works!! I have very sever anxiety and generalized depression and Borderline Personality Disorder (which is such a stupid name haha)
So, my last appt, my doc prescribed mirtazipine, or Remeron (brand name). Let me tell you, the FIRST DAY on it, my anxiety was gone..completely, 100%. i could actually THINK about things that would normally make me anxious (money, future, school, etc) and no anxiety... it was like a miracle drug, even though it made me a little "numb" emotionally, and a little drowsy. HOWEVER, after only 9 days on it, i had already gained 12 pounds (no, not TOM related) 9 DAYS! Who knows where id be in a month??!?!? UP 30?? IDK, but so i nipped that one in the bud...... WHICH I WAS SORRY TO HAVE TO DO.. :( i could handle 5 pound weight gain, ya know? especially since it WORKED, but not the massive amounts this one was promising..
So.... my anxiety is back (suprise) i find myself taking 6 or more Clonazepam a day, just to get through the day. Im not sleeping enough. Im doing too much (work, school, training, single mom, etc)
I was hoping that keeping a full schedule would kinda *force me out* of the depressive state, but now im just overwhelmed, kwim??
i can always tell when my meds arent working anymore because i start to withdraw, hermit like. DOnt answer the phone from friends and family (not that i have many friends)..... dont want to leave the house..... OH god, I feel so awful for my daughter!

What are some of the things you guys experience as a warning sign that slipping down again???
And why is my weight tied to how much i hate myself in a given day?
and why do i feel like i have to be in a committed relationship to validate my existence? (which im not in)
** The last 2 questions are rhetorical :)

Meghan

I am sorry this is so rough. A good friend in college took Remeron and it worked wonders on her depression symptoms but she gained about 60lbs. She lost it fairly quickly when she stopped taking it. But it's almost not worth it if the weight gain triggers depression thinking and feeling that it's supposed to treat.. Ugh. I especially relate the the part about hating yourself and feeling like you need a relationship for validation. I relate to all those feelings too. Though I isolate and push people away and cancel dates. It's all self-sabotaging for me. And I am not sure why. I have been diagnosed Dysthymia, Major Depressive Disorder, recurrent. I dont take medication so I am on a constant rollercoaster vacillating between tearfulness and crying bouts in the bathroom at work, to binge-eating, to loss of appetite. It's all very unpredictable for me. I do notice that I start becoming gloomy in my thinking when an episode will hit.. Everything becomes doom and gloom, then what follows is sleeping a lot.. especially in the evenings when I get home from work, then the cloudy thinking, difficult concentration.. Lots of other stuff. But there phrases here and there that I say when depression symptoms are coming, even before I am fully aware yet that an episode is coming on...

Wow.. That's interesting re: the Wellbutrin. I was on it for a bit and I felt so high and euphoric that I almost thought I was going to become manic! I had zero appetite and no need for sleep. Interesting how diff meds affect diff people. Have you tried Zoloft? I took it briefly as well and it was ok. A lot of people I know who have taken it have said the side effects were less severe. What about the Prozac again? I hope you find something that works. Please post. I've lurked on here before but it seems like it can be a quiet thread.

I'm on zoloft. The Prozac had to many side effects for me. I am also on resperidol, if youre not you may want to ask your doc about it, it seems to help.

I am really freaking annoyed at a spoiled little brat right now. I put food on the table and my family puts a roof over her head. NOT her dad. I am so freaking sick and if she pisses me off anymore I just might have to remind her of that. Selfish little brat.

Aunty, whats respiridol?
Christine.. thank you for your reply....
i struggle when i get home from work as well..... especially with regards to my eating (and of course my weight is tied to my depression and body image)
I really hope there is another drug out there like the remeron, withOUT the massive weight gain side effect....it was wonderful in every other aspect. I went a whole week without ANY anxiety....... ahhh..... :) noow i have anxiety aboput having anxiety! Im not even sure why im on the wellbutrin (shouldn t that just exacerbate my anxiety?)
That sysmptom is such a weird one... i know that everyone experiences anxiety... stress is NORMAL.... does having an issue with anxiety mean you experience it MORE than "normal" people, or does it mean you react more intensley to it? does that make sense? i feel like its both. Theres a sense of doom always in the back of my mind....
Some days, i feel like im Juggling all this crap (full time job, graduate degree student, training, single mom, homeowrk, housework, money, everything) and im standing at the edge of a cliff. One wrong twitch, and it all falls apart......
I hear everyone telling me how amazing i am, that i do so much and i work so hard at bettering myself and all that crap. I really appreciate it, but i dont feel amazing... i feel like the worst person in the world...... I cant give ANYTHING 100%, ya know? everything gets 60% of what it deserves.... leaving me feeling like i half a** everything...... the worst is with my daughter, who just wants me, to be with me and spend time with me. But even on the weekends, i just dont want to do anything and she deserves a great parent.

Even when im not depressed, im an awful parent, and these feelings of guilt have plagued me for over 10 years. I wasnt born to be a mom

I have so many exams/quizzes/labs in the next two weeks, all on top of my ridiculous normal amopunt of homework.... what did i get myself into?!?!?!?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Risperidone

One of the first lines is " It is associated with significant weight gain and metabolic problems" So maybe not such a good thing but it helps to keep my brain from going a million miles an hour.