Last time I weighed myself a few days ago, I weighed 175. Last year at this time, I weighed 250. That's 75 pounds, right?
So why doesn't it look like it?
I've been through so much while gaining this weight. And I've went through **** losing it, including going through an eating disorder. I exercise until I feel warn out, to the point where it becomes a priority over my studies at times (which is awful, because I'm lucky to even be here at school as a first-gen student). I am only able to work out about 3 times a week now, which makes me even more anxious.
And my stomach. I'm starting to think it's never going to go away. That large amount of flab is going to stay there forever, isn't it? No matter how hard I try, it just stays. Maybe I'm not trying enough? But I thought I gave it my all. I don't know anymore
Maybe I'm just being too emotional and impatient. But it's making me sad, especially when you see people say they only lost, like, 20 pounds, and their stomach looks extremely flabby to extremely toned in before and after picture.
I guess I just need support and reassurance...does the belly flab ever go away?Does the obsession ever go away? Do the relapses in depression and taking terrible measures to lose weight continue?