Just curious for you bigger ladies with hubbies and serious significant others - do you feel ashamed to let them see you naked? Certainly no one has really seen more of me in this weight range than my fiance, but I just don't feel sexy. I guess I get grossed out just looking at MY sag and cellulite and stretch marks that I can't imagine anyone else wanting to see that. As a result we stopped having sex probably last fall (from maybe a few attempts a month to nothing) - because I always attested his - ahem - sexual issues in the "up department" to be related to me not being visually appealing. It's been like that pretty much for the entirety of the last 4 years. From the emotional and practical points, we are made for each other, but it makes me really REALLY depressed to not feel like a normal couple. I really don't want to start married life off this way... but for whatever reason, he is fine not having sex and has little interest in it ever since we met even when I was a bit smaller. He's one of those people where if he doesn't want to talk about something, it's not getting talked about.... so it's hard to discuss. I know he's told me over and over he loves my body and that I SHOULD feel sexy, but I think there's something inside of me that just really can't process that because I hate my body SO much.
I don't know if losing the rest of this weight is going to make a difference, but it's a good first step. If not for him, but for me, to feel like I am more deserving of intimacy.
So I'm guess I'm hoping I am not alone!