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Like you I got tired of feeling the way I did and took control of what I could change.

Start right now, no need for special food or exercise equipement. Start by reducing your portion and make different choices gradually. Go for a walk, start slow and build it up gradually. No point in changing everything in one day that will be overwelming. Do small changes that are feasible.

Good luck you are officially taking control as of now

I have dealt with similar feelings. Still dealing with them actually. But I guess what motivated me to get out of the house and start exercising was getting into my old clothes. I used to be 65kg before I started taking medication for bipolar disorder and depression. The medication made me baloon up quite badly. I had to buy new clothes because my old ones were getting way too tight. So yeah, I would like to be able to fit into my old clothes again.

Apart from that, I also tell myself that when I exercise, its not only for losing weight but for my health, my illness. For me, exercising makes me feel better and my mood is more stable. I still get depressed sometimes but it's a little less since I started exercising and I hope it stays that way. Feeling depressed is a terrible thing. It sucks the life out of me. I am sure you understand how it feels.

I also always tell myself to take things one step at a time, one day at a time. Not try to plan ahead too much, but live every day as it comes. I make 'things to achieve today' lists and try to do what I had set out to do like a bit of yoga, go to the gym, read the newspapers, drink lots of water.. things like that, sounds mundane but it helps me alot. When i keep myself busy, i have less time to think, hence less time to get depressed or be depressed. All the best G. Spinelli! I hope this helps.