I was diagnosed in 1996 with Depression due to emotional severe stress incident.
I have been on Paxal since,,, every time I try to get off of it,, I spiral,,,
it seems to work, but then sometimes I think a am just pathetic for not being able to follow through,,,,
So now I am hooked on other things as well,,, pain killers, Oxycontin, allergy medications, puffers,,,,
I am a physical mess, and I believe it is because of inability to face the depression again,,,,
I want to start therapy, and work through this eating unhealthy, because I think many of the things that keep me depressed is my self image.
Some days I loathe myself so bad, I just want to scream,,, I self talk myself to bits, and sabotage any goodness I have for myself,,,
I promise to see a doctor ASAP.
This discussion for those who want to join in, will be on this journey,,,
I am new to this site, but not new to dieting, and and beating myself up,