Hello everyone... wow, ever start to type and then just don't want to? It's just to much? I'm sure you guys have.

Amarie - I haven't met you before but I'm sure here, of all places, no one is going to judge you for where you are right now. We're all going through similar problems and know how hard it can be. Especially with grad school! Sounds tough, yikes!

Hope - You have to celebrate sometimes... you deserve your little treats. My hubby is also very hard to buy for, he is very particular about his hobbies and I'm mostly clueless about the finer details of them.

V - if you must crash... may you crash gently.

Things for me have been very up and down, my poor step daughter was having troubles getting a letter from her mom to all her over the border for a school trip to new york. Then her mom REFUSED to sign the letter.. how can you do that to your daughter???? This trip has been planned for months, she's been counting down the days in her facebook status. Step-D was crushed, threw up her arms and said "I'm through with that WOMAN!". We couldn't let her not go, so hubby made up a letter and he signed it. He's not technically her legal guardian, but she's 17... does she really need one?!?!?!? She left today and we told her to call us when she lands in NY, she's clearing customs in Toronto... keep your fingers crossed, we haven't heard any bad news yet!

My Step Daughter is in New York!!! She called me tonight and she sounds like she is 10 feet off the ground!

Morning Ladies...

Finally snapped myself out of a four day depression.. it hit hard.. I sat yesterday trying to figure out what was wrong.. and then it dawned on me... I didn't take my meds since Saturday because I was out of them... My boyfriend went with me to walmart and paid the full amount for them which was $208 since I don't have insurance right now. I was completely shocked that he did that.. but he hates seeing me the way I am when I am without them..

I was doing good with my diet until the last four days.. I gained everything that I had lost back.. but know that I am feeling better.. I will be getting back on track...

Going for a long walk this morning.. and then hopefully a movie tonight.. I want to see Letters to Juliet.

Have a wonderful day everyone.

Aunty Jam, glad to hear your step daughter is having a blast. And yes, many times I start to post and feel overwhelmed or just go blank. I've backed out a few times and just stopped. Writing has never been my thing anyway but I just feel like I write the same things over and over.

Purefire, I thought you may be having some bad days when we didn't see you. Glad your bf got your meds for you. I can't go without mine.

I'm closing the next three nights at work so I gotta run. I'll check in later tonight. Have a great day everybody.

good afternoon ladies...just finished mowing the lawn and I HAVE to sit with the fan blowing on hi speed for a while, so is a good time to catch up.

aunty jam - I am glad your s-daughter got to NY safely. That was very kewl of your husband to do that letter. How is your husky/mix doing?

trish -are you over being mad at DH now :D hope so. Wow if you have a 15 month old then you are doing good by just surviving :devil: It is always tough to have little ones and try to work out at home.

momof4 - you don't need to do comments on everyone, if you are stressing!! Isnt' this the place where we can feel safe to come and just dump or vent if we need to :hug:

hope4me - lol @ DF just buying what he wants...my DH does that also, 24/7/12months a year!! it's like any day here could be his birthday with what arrives via UPS. The cheesecake sounds fabulous!!! great idea to bring it to share with your pool buds.

purefire - I can't do without my meds. That was great that DB picked up the tab for them. Doesn't not having insurance stink? (if you are interested, I am getting my Wellbutrin XL from a website from our friends north of us {Canada} and would be happy to give you info, pm me if interested)

Mrs.Brady and amarie - hope you are good. Hello to anyone I've forgotten and I apologize if I have!

whew finally cooled down from cutting the grass in the blazing sun. I'm not used to this sun and warmth :rofl: now I want to shower and go for a ride :scooter:

Hi everyone:wave:
Remember me? It feels like its been a month of Sundays since I was last here. Sorry about that.

hope, congrats on that awesome grade!!!

Mom :hug: I replied on your other thread about the wellbutrin. I hope you are feeling a little better, take some time out for you.

Holly you have so much energy, I'm envious.

anmarie so great to see you!!!

aunty jam thats great that your step daughter arrived in ny safely and is having a great time. My 20yr old went by herself to London Eng. I was on pins and needles waiting for the email saying she was safely at her destination. Now I can relax until she starts the return journey. It will be a relief to get a text from her when she gets to Vancouver.

purefire thats great that you got your meds and are feeling better. That is an outrageous price to pay tho. I'm so glad I live in Canada I couldn't imagine having to find that much every month and its a necessity not a luxury.

Trish its good your babe is sleeping hopefully you'll get there soon as well.

Hi everyone else!!

Sorry for not popping in more. I've been rather scattered for a while. And probably will continue to be so. I can't seem to get things together. oh well.
I've started a Reduce Stress through Mindfulness class and am learning all different types of meditation and some gentle yoga. That with some of my other classes I took plus the nicer weather I've stopped taking my welbutrin XL and cetalopram. Its only been a couple of weeks but hopefully I can stay off of them as I'm learning new coping skills. Winter will be the real test.
My youngest daughter had her prom a few weeks back and her grad ceremony is June 11. I can't believe she is almost done high school. As I said earlier my middle girl is off in England for the month visiting her boyfriend. Can't wait for her to get back home.
I just started a body cleanse. I'm a little disappointed as I wanted a more structured diet with it, but I'll make it work. I wanted a different brand, but they didn't have the kit for the length I wanted so I'm trying a different one. Spring is a good time for cleaning out everything, now I just need to get started on my disaster of a house. Because of Colleen's grad, we'll be having family visiting, so I really don't have a choice and have to do something.

I better stop now. I've missed you all:grouphug:

Take care,
K

buddly!!! :carrot: :hug: it is good to see you here again! congrats on your class to deal with things, and that you're able to be off the meds safely. Oh my, having family to visit is the best incentive to clean up the house isn't it! thanks for the comp on my current energy. If one did an average though, compared to my INactivity of winter, I'm just about below normal :devil:

Hi all:

Thanks for the welcome back :hug:
Hopey and Mo4 - big :hug: I've missed you guys too. Hiya Buddly bud!
Its cold here right now - highs in the low fifties, and rainy to boot. Boo. All I want to do is go plant my garden but right now its just a big ole mudpit.

I'm gonna run and get some sleep, but I will pop back in this weekend to say a proper hi!

Amarie

Hi everyone,
Just thought I would pop in.
Hope everyone is enjoying the weekend. Its the Victoria Day long weekend here. We were hoping to give the garden plot its second tilling, but it snowed yesterday and rained all night long, so that won't be happening.
Hubby and DdC took the lawn mower into town to find a repair shop, so we should be able to keep up with the weeds we call a lawn this summer.
I started a gentle cleanse and can't wait to hit the veggie store to help things along here. (so far I've lost 4lbs of obvious water weight, but I'll take it, I didn't like feeling so bloated)

I better go and get something done. I'm suppose to be unearthing my sewing machine as DdC wants to try to make a dress.

Have a great day everyone :grouphug:
K

Hope everyone is having a great weekend.
Yesterday I tackled my garden - I inherited a community garden plot this year (yay!) that is overrun by raspberries (boo!). So I set to work with the shovel, and got them about halfway back to a hedgerow.
Today I am SUPPOSED to be grading - and really I should get to that. I love the teaching, but grading is not my fav.
I'm still in grad school. At this rate I'll be here for another 3 years :o I've gotten completely out of shape because all I do anymore is sleep, eat, work, and stair at the wall. I also went off my meds for a while because I couldn't seem to get to the pharmacy to get them filled (sound familiar, anyone?) Well, now I've got a full bottle of my fluox, the school year is almost over, and the dreary never-ending winter rains seem to be coming to an end - I'm running out of excuses and its time to get my act in gear.
The biggest challenge for me is going to be food. I was spoiled wrotten with my last house - beautiful ,pristine clean kitchen. Here I have a run down, moldy old kitchen that smells of old plywood and makes me feel like I need to bleach it before I cook. So I have tended to convenience, low-prep and altogether unhealthy food.
Any tips anyone? I know its sounds silly - but I've had my own home (and control over the kitchen) for so long that I have no clue how to cope with imperfect rentals.

Hi everybody,

I took a day off today b/c the store was cutting some hours and I volunteered to take off. We went out with some friends tonight we hadn't seen in a while and it was really fun. I ate WAY too much thai food. Then we went for dessert... I was afraid of getting sick since I'm not used to eating that much anymore but all seems well. Let's just say I need to spend about 15 hours on the ellipticle tomorrow.

I've got more to say but I'm too tired. Check in tomorrow.

Checking in to say hi, I'm doing OK. Love and hugs to all.

Morning Ladies..

Yesterday wasn't really a good day.. My mood kept decreasing to blah and depressed.. then I went for a walk and felt better. I normally do my walk in the morning and feel fine when I do. Plus my eating was a little off diet.

I have my interview for my externship this morning. Hopefully it goes well and then I should start it on the 6th of June. I would be starting it next Monday but my mother set up a trip to Indiana to go see my daughter. I should have been done with my externship already but the school took forever to place me in one. My official graduation day was May 22nd. but hopefully I will have my externship completely by my graduation ceremony on July 23rd.

I am just seriously tired of being home all the time. Being out of work is really horrible.. Being in school helped but now I just really want to get a job and go back to work.

Its suppose to be nice out today at least here... going to enjoy it.

Good afternoon everyone!!

Nothing new to report here. I finally found my kitchen table. Its taken forever, but we found it!! We needed it to cut material for a dress. Now we just need to get the sewing done. Fun and games.

Purefire I hope you are feeling better today. Its nice and sunny here as well.

Hope I hope you enjoy your days off.

amarie how about a nice big cutting board? It covers your work area and you know its nice and clean.

Lovebirds Hi! Good to see you.

Hi everyone!!!

I should go and get the sewing machine ready for Colleen to start sewing.

Take care all,
K

good evening ladies :)

purefire, belated congrats on your graduation! sorry your day wasn't too good yesterday.

buddly, glad you found your kitchen table :devil: I know where mine is, but haven't seen the surface of it forEVER.

Hi Mrs. Brady :wave: and everyone else! :D

I'm trying not to be mad at DH right now; I spent my day off today doing laundry, vacuuming, picking up inside, cleaning off the deck, mowing the lawn and then raking it (stupid mower doesn't chew up the grass) so generally doing ALOT of home stuff. DH came home from work, he did make dinner but then ate, then spread out on couch and said he was feeling sick all day, he slept while I cut the grass and now he is eating ice cream:rollpin::frypan: and :kickbutt: !!! I swear I am NOT going to make up the bed with the fresh sheets, HE can do it, I will sleep on the floor before I do that one last thing :devil:

but truly, for me to accomplish all of that is just so great, compared to my days and days and days of wasted sleeping during the winter. I ... LOVE...SUMMER!

Oh yeah, on Saturday night a friend accidentally bumped his motorcycle and his bike fell onto mine, which also fell over...snapped my windshield right off, bent my brake lever to crap, messed up my footpeg..he felt awful about it (and SO DID I) but I did my best to try to make him not feel bad about it. I could put in an insurance claim, I have full coverage, but deductable is high and I might get a few insurance dollars but then I'm sure my rate would go up so I won't.

well I give everyone :hug: and hope you're doing good :cool: I havent gotten my Canada meds yet, I have 6 days' worth of Wellbutrin left and sure hope the refill comes soon!!