Hi everybody,

I took a day off today b/c the store was cutting some hours and I volunteered to take off. We went out with some friends tonight we hadn't seen in a while and it was really fun. I ate WAY too much thai food. Then we went for dessert... I was afraid of getting sick since I'm not used to eating that much anymore but all seems well. Let's just say I need to spend about 15 hours on the ellipticle tomorrow.

I've got more to say but I'm too tired. Check in tomorrow.

Checking in to say hi, I'm doing OK. Love and hugs to all.

Morning Ladies..

Yesterday wasn't really a good day.. My mood kept decreasing to blah and depressed.. then I went for a walk and felt better. I normally do my walk in the morning and feel fine when I do. Plus my eating was a little off diet.

I have my interview for my externship this morning. Hopefully it goes well and then I should start it on the 6th of June. I would be starting it next Monday but my mother set up a trip to Indiana to go see my daughter. I should have been done with my externship already but the school took forever to place me in one. My official graduation day was May 22nd. but hopefully I will have my externship completely by my graduation ceremony on July 23rd.

I am just seriously tired of being home all the time. Being out of work is really horrible.. Being in school helped but now I just really want to get a job and go back to work.

Its suppose to be nice out today at least here... going to enjoy it.

Good afternoon everyone!!

Nothing new to report here. I finally found my kitchen table. Its taken forever, but we found it!! We needed it to cut material for a dress. Now we just need to get the sewing done. Fun and games.

Purefire I hope you are feeling better today. Its nice and sunny here as well.

Hope I hope you enjoy your days off.

amarie how about a nice big cutting board? It covers your work area and you know its nice and clean.

Lovebirds Hi! Good to see you.

Hi everyone!!!

I should go and get the sewing machine ready for Colleen to start sewing.

Take care all,
K

good evening ladies :)

purefire, belated congrats on your graduation! sorry your day wasn't too good yesterday.

buddly, glad you found your kitchen table :devil: I know where mine is, but haven't seen the surface of it forEVER.

Hi Mrs. Brady :wave: and everyone else! :D

I'm trying not to be mad at DH right now; I spent my day off today doing laundry, vacuuming, picking up inside, cleaning off the deck, mowing the lawn and then raking it (stupid mower doesn't chew up the grass) so generally doing ALOT of home stuff. DH came home from work, he did make dinner but then ate, then spread out on couch and said he was feeling sick all day, he slept while I cut the grass and now he is eating ice cream:rollpin::frypan: and :kickbutt: !!! I swear I am NOT going to make up the bed with the fresh sheets, HE can do it, I will sleep on the floor before I do that one last thing :devil:

but truly, for me to accomplish all of that is just so great, compared to my days and days and days of wasted sleeping during the winter. I ... LOVE...SUMMER!

Oh yeah, on Saturday night a friend accidentally bumped his motorcycle and his bike fell onto mine, which also fell over...snapped my windshield right off, bent my brake lever to crap, messed up my footpeg..he felt awful about it (and SO DID I) but I did my best to try to make him not feel bad about it. I could put in an insurance claim, I have full coverage, but deductable is high and I might get a few insurance dollars but then I'm sure my rate would go up so I won't.

well I give everyone :hug: and hope you're doing good :cool: I havent gotten my Canada meds yet, I have 6 days' worth of Wellbutrin left and sure hope the refill comes soon!!

good evening everyone, well my meds came in the mail today so big yay :carrot: :) AND I found out that I won some nice things at that auction when my bike got crippled, so something good comes out of something crummy!

It has been HOT here! but I have been enjoying it, and seeing things growing so quickly. Got my deck container plants potted, now there is some nice color and I love to sit there in the morning at 5:15 having coffee and listening to the birds, love it.

Hope everyone is doing good :hug: Memorial weekend coming up, but as I am in service industry it's just another weekend to work, what is everyone else doing, something fun I hope :)

I should be in bed. We had a long night at pool league tonight. I did win though so yay.

I've got to get up early and make a sugar free cake for a co-worker who is diabetic. Needless to say I've never made anything sugar free in my life. Kinda worried.

Vermont, are you nursing your bike back to health? I'm in retail so this is just another weekend to me too except I happen to be off on Sunday b/c a girl needed to switch with me. I'm going on a ride with df then. Did dh put the sheets on the bed? Is he still alive or did you bury his body under your new flowers? :D We wouldn't tell. Yay for meds.

Buddly, how is the emergency house cleaning coming? I probably need to schedule company so I actually pay some attention to mine. I'm thinking that my new goal (since class is over) should be to totally clean out all my drawers and closets. I would feel so much better. I need to become a minimalist so cleaning would be so much easier.

Purefire, how did the interview go and how are you feeling?

Amarie, did you get your grading done. I agree with Buddly on the large cutting board. I say cover as much as possible. I was in a small apartment once where the kitchen was crummy. I hated it. It makes you want to stay out of it.

Hi to everybody else, Aunty Jam, Leenie, Trish...

Daughter had an ultrasound today. It's official: her baby is a girl.

Just what I wanted, since she already has a boy. :D

Baby girl will be named Kayden Lotus.

Congrats Mrs Brady, what a pretty name :)

Hi everyone!!! Sorry for my long absence, you know how life gets sometimes. StepD is back and had a good time in NY but she would have liked to do more sight seeing and less shopping. She said everything was so expensive that some kids were running out of money and didn't have anything left to buy their dinners with. Not her though, thank goodness.

Vermont - That sucks about your bike! Are Canadian meds any better then the American ones? ;) Kelly is alright, still playing so we're taking that as a good sign. She turns 15 in August.

I'm doing alright... debating if I want to enter a 5k fun run this weekend. I did plan on entering but then found out no one could be there with me and it's going to cost $10 more then I thought :( So I'm just not sure. Bummed out that no one will be there to support me, still kind of want to do it... completely busted flat broke. Bleh.

Hi to EVERYONE!!!!! Sorry but I must run, at work and break time just ended!

Day 2 of my 3 day stretch of closing shifts is over. We should be busy this holiday weekend. I've been trying to get up early enough to get some stuff done before I go in at 1pm. I haven't gotten my workouts in though. I did 20 minutes thursday but nothing today. Tomorrow I must get a workout in before I go. Just talking to myself here.

My sugar-free cake turned out more like a brownie. It didnt rise very well but my diabetic co-worker said they usually don't. I think I know what I would do differently but didn't have enough time that morning. I had enough caramel, crushed toffee candies and cool whip on top that it tasted pretty good though.

Aunty Jam, I hate being broke. It sucks. Maybe you can run the next race when people can be there for you and you can save up for it. I'm envious. I can't imagine being able to run one.


Lovebirds, congrats and what a great name!

Congrats Mrs. Brady (should we call you Grandma Brady :) )

Buddly and Hope - a nice big cutting board might just do it, thanks for the idea. I'm also going to paint the inside of the cabinets this summer - maybe that will help control the icky old wood smell.

I'm still eating like c**p, but at least I'm getting some exercise working in my garden. I actually did the math the other day and realized that my garden plot is bigger than my apartment :o ! No wonder I prefer spending time there! Its aslo not nearly so cluttered. :)

I think the next time I move I'm going back somewhere with snow instead of rain all the time - I'm SOOOO tired of mold and mildew and moss(not the good kind). How did the winter treat everyone? We only had snow here twice, and it didn't stick either time.

Hopey - what kind of workouts are you doing?

Aunty Jam - hummer on the flat busted :( I hear ya. I hope you do the fun run - just imagine all us there supporting you (yeah, I know...not the same).

OK, thats enough for me. Off to bed.

good morning!

hope4me, lol at burying DH. No, I got over my hissy fit :D and he is still among us :devil: Hope you got a workout in as you wanted, it's so hard to fit it in someitmes isn't it. My bike parts are still on order, so I'm riding shield-less, and just hanging on for dear life :devil:

auntyjam, very very glad Kelly is still wanting to play, that's a good sign. Canada meds are much cheaper than US ones! that's why I like 'em :D

congrats on the girl grandbaby that is coming, Mrs. Brady!

amarie, lol at your garden being bigger than apartment, and less cluttered ;) hmm, about the snow verses rain, I guess I can see that, tho' in January if you asked me, I would have said I'd prefer rain..but I hadn't thought of the excessive moisture issue.

and hello to everyone else!!! :hug:

WOW sooo very much to READ...AHHHH I went off my meds about 3 weeks ago...not so aggitated and actually feel happy at times...on the meds my moods were up and down but mosty aggitated so really it wasnt doing any good... I guess I need to come back soon here and catch up! Gotta go fill up the kids pool before they drive me crazy!! LOL

Good morning everyone!!

Congrats on the baby girl Mrs.Brady!!! That is wonderful news.

Hope- my house cleaning is going like my weight loss, not. I just don't know what my problem is. Oh well, one step at a time and I'll get somewhere. I love the minimalist idea. The clutter is so overwhelming.

vermont good to hear the good and bad are balancing.

amarie painting the cupboards sounds good. Fresh paint makes things feel clean. I haven't gotten out in the garden yet here. Still waiting for the second tilling of the garden. It should be dry enough but hubby is out of town.

aunty jam that is great that your stepD had a good time on her trip. And I'm glad she didn't have any problems at the border.

Mom its good you are feeling more on an even keel without the meds. I've been doing not to badly without mine as well. A few sad days but so far manageable.

Same old, same old going on here. Everything is so green and beautiful outside and thankfully there is a bit of a wind so that keeps the bugs down. They are vicious at the beginning of spring. I was trying to cut the grass the other afternoon and I have bites all over.
DdC passed and got her high blue belt in judo on sat. There is talk of her getting her brown belt soon as she wants to try for the canadian winter games and nationals again. She was losing interest so its nice that she is getting enthused again. (she also bench pressed 101lbs at school (she weights 120))
I better get going. I have a bit of a plan today so I best get on it before I procrastinate the day away.

Take care everyone
K

Hey everyone!!! Sorry for shouting but I actually had a good weekend! I managed to get into the 5k run, ran most of it and it went great. I have a thread going in the support section if you guys want to read about it. I think I go through another "runners high" every time I think about it. We're still flat busted broke, no internet at home, hubby is out of town, Step D is staying with her Grandma this week. Just me and the dogs and the fish, I'm good so far but I think the run had a lot to do with it... it's a real mood lifter. Anyways! Just bubbling along, enjoying my "high". Hope everyone is well :D

I've had a great 2 days but I'm beat. I'm so glad I'm off the next couple of days. Sunday I went on a bike ride with df. :moped: It was really nice but man was my butt sore at the end of the day. Yes Vermont, I AM a wuss. It was a beautiful day though, low 90's. We didn't get home till around 8pm. I sat down for 5 minutes and ended up crashing on the couch for a short nap. I had to get up then and make a pasta salad and banana pudding for a cookout today. Well, it was almost 1am before I got all that done and got in bed. I had to be up at 5am. :tired: I just kept telling myself: just make it to 3pm and you can sleep...

Aunty Jam, I'm so glad you got to run! I've so wanted to experience runner's high. It must be great. Having depression it's hard to just feel normal, let alone euphoric. I'm so proud of you for doing a 5k, that is awesome and quite an accomplishment. :cp:

Buddly, yeah, I'm thinking I need to get rid of as much stuff as possible. It should make it easier to keep things clean. Now to get the energy to do it...
Glad your mood has been better. Are you still working much?

Amarie, I have an ellipticle machine that I use a lot and I do workout videoes that are 'on demand' from cable. There are some walking ones and I do some Jillian Michaels and Jackie Warner workouts. I recently did a high impact cardio and impressed myself that I could jump so much without passing out. :D Progress... I've got to do a really good workout tomorrow since I haven't gotten to the last couple of days.

Hi to everyone else, gotta get in bed. :faint:

This may sound silly but I did something today that I haven't been able to do in years. I painted my own toenails! I was so excited. My stomach was always in the way before and I felt like my guts were going to come out of my throat when I tried. Coming from the country I didn't grow up getting pedicures and while I think it's kinda nice I also think it's a big waste of $$ to do it regularly. Now I can just do it myself. :) It's the little things, isn't it?

I did a workout today but not nearly the caliber it needed to be to try to cancel out some of the mexican from last night and the homemade bbq from tonight. :o I'm a little more laxidasical than I should be with my eating. I looked at the calendar today and I have 5 weeks left of TBL at work. If I'm to stand a chance at winning I have to buckle down big time. I need you guys to keep me accountable and I need a plan. I'll sleep on it and let you know what it is. If I write it out I'm more likely to do it.

Hello. I'm new to this thread but not to the site. I have joined this site about 2 or 3 years ago but stopped. When I stopped I gained weight then gained more when depression really set in. Now I cannot lose the weight no matter what I do. I am slowly coming out of the deep depression I was in but I am still down no matter what which does keep me from losing the weight. I'm hoping I can get help and support here. I have no motivation and will power to lose the weight. I feel it and know i want to and need to but just can't. I don't have insurance to get the help for my depression so I take it as it comes and try to deal with it. I hope I came to the right place.

Sorry I didn't have much time reading earlier posts but hopefully if "work" allows me to tomorrow, I will do it.

Hope I get to know you guys!!!

hi tkglenn, welcome! :welcome3: I am sorry you have been in a deep depression, and don't have insurance to help. That is a tough situation. But I'm glad you have found this place, it does really help to know that others are in the same boat, some days are good and even great..but you can also come here to tell us when you don't feel good.

hope, you are NOT a wuss for having a sore butt after a day of riding! it just tires you out all over, even 'just' being a passenger. My windshield 'might' come today! :carrot:

Aunty jam, I am a doofus for not congratulating you sooner on your 5K!! that is GREAT!! :cp:

I ate everything in sight over the weekend..and drank anything I could find also!! ugh. So it was back to the routine on Tuesday.

Hello to everyone else! :hug:

Hi tkglenn! Welcome to our corner of 3fc. I remember seeing you around the boards in the past. Please do join in here. It is really hard to eat healthy without treating the depression. It can be done but it is a struggle. My only advice right now is try to working out (cardio) to get the endorphins going to lift your mood and therefore maybe help your eating. Hopefully your depression allows you to do that. :dizzy: Looking forward to getting to know you.

I don't have a very detailed plan to try to win TBL at work but I do want to work out at least 45 min/ 5x week and stay below 1500 cal. I'm already struggling with the calorie part. I just want to eat mindlessly so much. I need to get my mind back to where it was where food wasn't such a necessity every second of the day. But alas, no clue how to do that.

Hi tkglenn - like Hope I remember seeing you around on the boards in the past (I was on a lot about 2 years ago but then also stopped). It seems like we are in fairly similar places weight and forum wise. I hope you join us on here -this incredibly supportive and understanding group was hugely instrumental in me getting my act together in the past :)

Mo4 - whoa chica, it sounds like you may not be on the right meds! Can you get to the doc to check in with him/her? Otherwise, how is the spring treating you? How are your kiddos doing (other than driving you up the wall that is?) :hug: So glad to see you :)

Hopey - wow! You are quite the exercise go-getter :) Do you like your eliptical machine? What you said about getting back to where food isn't a necessity ALL the time really hit home. Unfortunately, I have no clue either. Are you journaling your calories? What can we do to help you stay on plan?

Buddly - I forgot that you are in the frozen north! :) The growing season here is so much longer than I am used to, I feel like I'm wayyyy behind the other gardners at the community garden. Its nice to have the reminder that theres still plenty of time for things to grow! The downer here is that almost no one uses seed because of all the slugs and other baby-plant eating critters. They grow almost everything from starts, or start their seeds inside. Unfortunately I don't really have the space (or the time) to do my own starts, and I certainly don't have the $ to buy everything from transplants.

Jam - :yay: I am so glad you did the 5K!!! Congrats

VTmom- what kind of bike do you have? Hope you are doing well!

Hi to everyone... I have to run! I have to write a 10-15 page paper to turn in tomorrow! Eek!

Yes, I remember seeing you guys when I used to be on 2 years ago. I did the biggest loser and lost quite a bit of weight but did stop. Wish I hadn't. Now I just can't get on the ball again cause the depression has taken over.

I did do good on Monday and Tuesday and took my kids walking around the block but yesterday it rained and I had cakes to do so you could say I pretty much didn't do good yesterday. And today. Ugh! I'm hoping things will get better. My husband became an alcoholic within the past 2 years (maybe that's why I stopped caring, too busy worrying about that) and many times blame myself for it. For allowing to get this far. He suffers from PTSD and this is one of his symptoms. Not an excuse, it is what it is but not happy about it.

I have had the pleasure meeting Michelle Bommarito and driving her around for 3 days and she has shed alot of positivity on me while driving around with her (which at the time it couldn't have come at a better time). She shed alot of light on things. I think about her advice alot but for some reason just can't live her advice. I try though.

Anyways, I'm hoping coming back here will help me with my weight loss journey. I have found great support here in the past and hope I can get it again.

Excited to meet and get to know all of you.

Good morning everyone!
Just popping in to say Hi as I have to get ready for work. And I actually have to leave on time or early as they are repaving the hwy and its a bit of a pain.

Welcome back tkglenn!! Looking forward to knowing you better.

amarie yes, I'm up north. I am behind with my garden as I'm still waiting for the second tilling. Hopefully it stays dry enough and we can get it done this weekend. I have a few things started inside this year, but I don't really have the room either, nor am I very good at it. You may have to buy some beer and give the slugs in your garden patch a "treat"!!! When we first moved up here there were hardly any slugs and the few that we did get were tiny, but with the climate changes and milder winters we are starting to get them, I even had to buy slug bait a few years ago.

Hope congrats on the the pedicure. Its amazing to find out how much that extra weight impacts things. I know when I dropped 15lbs and I went to put on a pair of shoes with straps and it was so much easier to do them up.

Aunty Jam congrats on the 5k!!!!! Whoot!!!!

Vermont mom did you get your windshield?

A big Hello!! to everyone else!

I did get a couple decent walks in this week. its not much, but it is something. The scale is still nasty. My doc's office called and I have to go in on the 15th. Oh well. DdC left on Wed for a four day, three night camping hiking trip to Mt. Robson with her PE class. We've been getting some wicked rain and thunder storms so I can only imagine what they are going through in the mountains. Good thing her sleeping bag is rated for -40*C, as long as it stays dry she'll be good. DdB gets home in 4 more days.
I better get going. I actually have things to do before heading off.

Take care everyone and have a great Friday!!
K

Thanks for all the welcomes.

I just want to say that I did terrible today!! I did really good up till lunch time. I'm so disappointed in myself. Went to Olive Garden for lunch with my dad and kids. I told myself that I was just gonna have salad and soup or breadsticks (that's not the best either but better than what I did) but ended up eating the chicken alfredo too. I went walking today though. Which I'm happy for. I was sooo tired and wanted to go to sleep when I got home. I layed on the couch and talked on the phone for alittle bit. Then when I hung up I could feel my eyelids getting heavy. I stood up and told myself that I was gonna go walking. So I texted my brother while I walked around the block. But have been snacking all night. Sucks!!! ok, so my dad will be leaving tomorrow, hopefully I will do better!!! I try not to think about my problems that cause the depression. I try really hard.

I'm so excited though that I did find a group that I can relate to.

Amarie, did you get the paper done? Papers are my least favorite things on earth. I hope I never have to write one again. I am journaling my calories and exercise. Just coming here everyday helps keep me on track. I may post my calories and exercise here at the end of my posts just for extra motivation. Eek, kinda scares me just to say that. I went over a little today thanks to a mexican dinner. :mad: I'm trying for under 1500.

Buddly, good job on the walking. Something is always better than nothing I always tell myself. We've been having a lot of thunderstorms here too. Sometimes I like to listen to the storms at night. Are you still going to your support/counseling groups?

tkglenn, I've lost 20 lbs three times and 10 lbs twice in the last few years and regained it (55 lbs several years ago). Depression has played a role in a few cases. Sorry to hear about your husband. That has to be tough to deal with. Is he getting any help or does he think he needs to? I'll have to google Michelle Bommarito, I'm not sure I know who she is.

Well, going to pack my lunch for tomorrow and take a hot bath.

Calories: 1655 Exercise: 45 ellipticle

hope, Great job on losing the weight!!! It's ok...about my husband. It's become daily life for us.I don't accept it and it does cause alot of my depression but I'm done with stressing so much over it. I have to let him realize that he's missing out on his childrens lives on his own. He will wake up one day and realize that he will never get to bond with his young children again..it'll be too late. They will be grown up by then. Michelle Bommarito is a prof cake decorator. She has done 9 cake challenges on foodnetwork. She just did one for Sex In The City 2.