happy weekend everyone!

lol mof4 - laundry sucks! I really need to do some here at the new place, but I don't want to. I'm so sick of putting stuff away and trying to organize and trying to get everything updated! Ack!!!!!

well, anywho - gotta go. I am so sleep - I think I need to adapt to my new allergies.

A

Aaarrrgggghhh!!!
 

I'm having the worst day. First I had no sleep last night, I'm staying at my fathers place and all last night all kinds of chaos kicked off when his sister phoned to tell him my grandfather was dying in hospital. He used to beat my dad when he was little so him and my step mum started arguing about that. Therefore, NO sleep.

Then this morning my grandpa died. I didnt get to say goodbye to him because my father wouldnt take us. I'm upset about that.

We're going to this stupid 5 hour gig tonight in a muddy field to see three bands I dont like. (My wonderful b day present, thanks dad). and I'm having a mega fat day. To beat that my step mom has been pressuring me to eat pasta before this gig all day, and I'm not hungry and I dont want to eat! She wouldnt leave me alone about eating pasta and I automatically said no - pasta dished unless controlled potions are HIGH in calories, but she insisted they werent. Anyway I at home eat 28 g of pasta which is an adult recommended portion, and then fll my plate with veg. So she gave me like at leat 500g of pasta AFTER I told her to half the portion size.

Now i feel even more sluggish and totally out of control of my life. I just cant stand people cooking for me or eating out because I'm religious about trying to get this weight off. Its stuff like that which drives me crazy and wander if the world is just out to sabotage my weight loss efforts. I just want to be back home with my mum and in bed.

I know its most likely blown out of proportion but I just like to feel like I have some reign on my own life & right now I dont.

Crazy, Crazy!
 

Hey Everybody!!!

So Sorry Chickies! Okay! I fell in a little bit of a funk for a few days...discussions with DH...got a virus...lost my "no vomit streak", it threw my food off for a day and that through my mood off for 2 days after that! On Friday I had an epiphany of sorts...I am finally doing something about my dog needs!!! I can't take it any more! I need to have some contact to soothe my soul! I also had a meeting with my Dr. on Tues and have started my taper off Prozac...I should be off them entirely in less than a month! Yay! But that means that I really have to be sooooo careful about my RR eating! It is crucial!! That is going really well though...and I am finally back to my elliptical workouts after a little hiatus... I am changing...my sugar sensitive recovery is opening me up in ways that I never dreamed possible. I went down to a dog grooming place on Friday...I have no experience...I haven't worked outside of the home since I was in the military before my 16 (almost 17) year old daughter was born...and I convinced them to try me out for a job they weren't even advertising they needed! Yeah, I am pretty damn proud of myself... I have a "working interview" on Tues...basically I go and they work me to death...see if I like it and they like me! :) If this turns into full time my days will seriously be crazy so you are just have to love me even if I can respond to you all like you deserve...okay? The weight is still hanging steady at 164...I am hoping that this going off the meds will get that moving because damn it...my jeans are tight!! It has to budge somewhere!!!
On that note, I have to get going because I have to go have a plain comfortable pair of jeans to wear for Tues... Soooo...

Luv luv Everybody!!!
I am still around...just can't post as much!!! Hugs to you all that need it so much!!!

Raven

Hi Chicks!
 

So sleepy..........
 

Hang gangady-gang! Sassy, you still on?

I ventured out into my new world today,and ended up finding all kinds of stuff - but it cost $$. Ah well, if I do one thing in life really well its spend money.

Spoz - :hug: I'm sorry to hear about your grand-da. And, also sorry for your dad that he died before your dad was able to come to peace with him. My granda died without me getting to say goodbye, but in my case it was because I was too tied up in m own stuff, and I didn't really believe he would die. But, after several years of really hard time feeling bad about that i've come to realize that I loved him, and most importantly he knew it. And you never really lose anyone, you just have to change your way of talking to them. But like I said, thats about 16 years in the making.

Sassy - OMG - hearing your hubby was out in the storm on his cycle really scared me! Thats one of the (many) reasons I never ended up learning to ride one. I really wanted to for a while. Glad he's ok!

Raven - Wow, I was just hinking about calling my doc and talking about moving my pxac dosage back down. I needed the upped dosage for a while, but I'm kinda getting tired of not feeling anything. I've recently gone through several transitions that I know would have been major meltdown makers without the pzac,and it hasn't even phased me. I don't want to complain, but that doesn't really strike me as kosher, ya know?

Well, anyway, I really need to start getting out there in this new city or I'll start talking to myself. Eek - the only times I talked today were to my phone and at checkout counters, not good. Tomorrow I'm gonna ride my bike to campus and go get my keys to my office and maybe see if I can start using the gym on campus. That would be sweet. Anyway, don't mind the crazy girl talking to herself... See yas next week? (and by that I mean tomorrow)