Ankle doing much better!!
 

Hey Chickies!

Wow! Lots of horrible stuff going around here! :( First things first...

Sassy... :hug: Aww Girlie...don't stay away...you can let it out here...we love you no matter what mood you're in...you don't have to put on the mask here..that is the beauty of this place. Sometimes it is the only place you don't have to wear the mask... Let out the pain and let us comfort you as best we can... I can't speak for everyone but I think that it is safe to say that everyone has suffered losses...and it is just so hard...and then to be dealing with depression and weight issues at the same time make things just seem unbearable...I have been there and I am sure I am not the only one. I send my love to you and your family and my strongest hope that things get better very soon.

Hope! So glad you're back! I totally understand the time management thing..I have had issues with that for years! I think I may have finally gotten a little better recently...with my new clarity and concentration that this new program is giving me I feel more excited and hopeful about honing my skills than ever before!!!

Leenie, OMG! 6'1'! And 14! That has got to be something! I am 5'4' and I just can't imagine that! Luckily DD is a shrimp and barely 5' at 16! :) Though I think she may be growing!! Might catch me after all!

Cathy... I think I remember you! I have been lurking on this forum for a long time...and just recently felt good enough to jump in and get involved. Awesome job on the 3 miles! Yeah...I work out alot...cardio, yoga, pilates, various other stuff and have for several years..I need it...if I don't things get bad fast which is why hurting my ankle ticks me off!!! And, I have to be careful not to get too ahead of myself and hurt it more!

Spoz: Don't take it so hard...after being put on meds I have gained about 10 pds in the past year and am finally finding a way to get things under control again...you will to...you just got to keep at it!

Hey Buddly...lol well, I still feel a little squished in plough position too but I am seriously feeling the effects of more flexibility and I am totally addicted!!

Amarie! You naughty girl! You be careful with that party attitude! lol (just kidding!) That is great that you didn't just hop in your car...that is so one of my biggetst pet peeves...and that isn't even strong enough a term for it!

Heather? Feeling better, hon?

Francie? You come up for air yet??? :devil:

Mom! OMG I love love love the new avatar! You're such a hottie! I would definitely have trouble cutting off that beautiful hair if I were you even though it is an extremely noble cause!!!

Sugar: Hope you feel better soon...and everyone has those blips...you just have to pick back up and keep trudging!!!

Sorry if I am forgetting anybody! I have been so busy already this morning my brain is going a mile a minute! I have a Drs. appt this afternoon to get a weird mole checked out (actually I just want it off!!!) and I will probably need a referral to a dermatologist... I had to schedule a couple of DHs appts...everybody send him good thoughts...he has his next MRI on Monday and it is always a hard time for us until we get the all clear...

Ooh! And everybody should make time to go to Hellboy 2 this weekend!! :carrot: Gonna be awesome!!! I just know it!!!!

luv luv Peeps!

Hey Ravengirl! I remember you too! you use to have a different avatar but I remember you. I don't think that I remembered you lived in Hawaii, but maybe I just forgot that. what in the world is it like to live on the Islands? my sister took me to Maui in March and it was absolutely AWESOME! what a wonderful place!!!!!

how is your ankle doing today?
hugs,
Cathy

wow...what a long day...does painting count as excercise??? Cause I was sweating painting...Get this it was my dh and a 17yr old from the youth all painting and I painted like double what they painted in the same time and didnt slop any they both go RED paint on the floor...just proves WOMAN are BETTER!!! OH YEAH!!!

I had an almost break down today but i stopped myself and took control over it instead of letting it control me. my mil was to meet me part way to get my son so he could stay with her a night. Well we were to meet at 2 and i called and was like can i just run him up now cause dh has to go paint and stuff around 2 so she said she would me part was still i was like i will be there at 1. I got there at like 5 after and she wasnt there. i drove over cause i thought maybe she was to be at the sheetz not the bk. Not there. i sat and waited and after a half hour I went over to the sheetz again nothing. She wasnt answering her phone. I finally was called and asked dh how much longer should i wait and right then she pulled in. I was like did you meet somewhere else? Wondering if I was in the wrong spot shes like no when I got here no one was there so I went the the dollar store... I WAS SOOO MAD I COULDA SPIT FIRE. I was to pick girls up right after i dropped off my son. I was just mad...I was sooo mad I wanted to cry but I stopped my self and prayed and was like I am not going to let myself get worked up and flip over this...me flipping out does nothing to change the situation....I listened to music and was feeling better.

But so yeah I mowed the grass my dh didnt finish...Is it a man thing to start stuff and not finish it?? cause like all he mowed was the main part he didnt go out and do right by the road that he didnt do LAST time and didnt do out by our cars theat he didnt do LAST time. He flipped cause when i did it i accidently got grass on his car he just washed at first i was like ohhh man then I was like no its just grass and will blow right off!! Then when we are painting instead of doing first layers on all the walls he wants to do a second on the one wall that was painted first. Then he wants to just paint the general stuff and not do the touch ups around stuff and the ceiling...Like seriously it just irked me that he didnt finish all the walls with first coat completely detailed and done ....AGHHHH MEN....... Then we got home and he was like what are you making me i was like WHY do I have to make you something.....like ewww...I dont mind but once in a while i want a break. I love my dh but man do men get on my nerves sometimes....WOW.....

So yeah anyways....when he is off it completely messes up my routine and my day so my baby was sooo confused today and since i left twice to do stuff and didnt take her, when I was home she was holding my leg crying. Even when dh held her she just stared at me crying. My baby....

My son and i was gonna go out swimming but i showered and didnt want to go get in my suit and wasnt hot anymore...i really wanted to swim when I came home but that didnt happen!! He luckly just fell asleep here on the floor beside my chair????he brought a pillow over and blanket...LOL...he had no nap so he was wayyy tired!!
RAVEN-LOL...thanks but that was a rough pic..no makeup and what was on was smear and blah...HAHAHA...but thank you...yeah I still didnt cut it today I go back and forth so I will see...I just know one of these days its gonna tick me off cause I cant get my brush thru it and it snaps another hair tie cause its so thick n I am gonna be like thats it i am going to go chop it off and just do it...thats just how i am!!! LOL
OK well that was pretty much it....Some of your kids are like a few years younger than me...wow....I will do personals later...too long of a post already...and my hands are hurtin from holding the paint roller today!!

LATA!!

Wow..long posts!
 

Hi Ladies
I assume there are not any men in here..are there?

Leens..I am doing fine..thanks for asking. I did have 2 major surgeries in a 10 month period but Praise God I have not had any problems for 2 entire years now and don't intend to in Jesus name!

Boy..some of you post longggggggggggggggggggg posts.... interesting but longgggggggggggggg:D!

Children grow up entirely too fast!

The bad news is even after they are grown you still don't have time for yourself!:(:( Other things occupy your time.) Oh well.Life is good anyway! ;)

Later chicks!

Hi all,

I got off at 6pm today and I've been cleaning after I made dinner and doing laundry b/c my girlfriend that visits a few times a year is coming for the weekend tomorrow. I got her sheets washed and the guest room dusted and the bathroom cleaned. That's all I have time for. The dogs need a bath bad.

I get off at 3 tomorrow but I have to be there at 6am. :fr:
That may not be a big deal to some of you mommies ;) but that will be quite the feat for me getting up in time to get ready. I'll try to bathe the dogs when I get home if I don't opt for a nap instead. :yawn:

I did hit the ellipticle for about 15 minutes this morning but didn't get to it tonight. My knees hurt a little today after standing on them for 8 hrs. I will get used to it again I'm sure. I don't want to go too long without exercising b/c it will only get worse.

Well enough rambling about some absolutely boring stuff. I'm still reading and hope you all have a great day tomorrow. :hug:

I am sorry CIN...sometimes it tends to be long. I really try to do a few posts a day so its not one big long one at the end...LOL....It was just a busier day than normal today with dh being home and painting our youth room...So yeah sorry!!!
I am crashing its my bed time.. I seem to get tired every night at like 1 am so yeah I wish it was earlier but I have tried to sleep earlier and i just cant!!

Sassy- We all love you and are here for you!!

Catch you all later!!!

Good morning! :wave:

hi heather how are you doing??? You doing okay???
Morning all...way tired and have that sick feeling from lack of sleep.
ok i'll post more lata

Good morning everyone!
Just popping in to say Hello!

Sassy :hug: I'm so sorry about all your bad news. Just remember we are here for you.

Cin glad you surgeries went well. Our gas here went up the other day to $1.45/l so that works out to about $5.80/gal.

Hope enjoy the visit with you g/f.

Momof4 you are always so busy! I'm lucky that my hubby likes to cook when he's home, the dishes are another thing tho, he can really trash the kitchen, but hey I'll take what I can get. Plus he usually does his own laundry out of his truck.

Big :hug: to everyone else!

Not much new here. Had to get DdA to work for 6am (feel your pain hope, DdA did not want to wake up this morning, mind you this is her 6th day of work) I have to go to town today for a dentist's appt. So will pick up my mom while I do some errands. DdB is going to a sleep over party tonight, but her g/f is picking her up.

I better get going here.
Take care everyone and have a great day, Whoot its Friday!!!
K

:carrot: Happy Friday Chickadees :carrot:

hope everybody has an awesome weekend
hugs,
cathy

P.S. Mom - yep painting defintely counts! In my book....all movement counts as exercise. :D

Thanks...I feel like I got a butt whoopin..I cant get myself moving for ANYTHING!!! so yeah been a pretty off day..>I am starting to not like when my days are screwed up....kinda hating it...But that is life well I am gonna go..ttyl!!!

Hi girls,

Got home a few minutes ago and I've been eating some junk. :nono: I do that when I'm tired and in a rush. My friend should get here around 7pm so I need to give the dogs a bath and do a couple of things. I may cook beef stroganoff and have it ready when she gets here. That is, unless the junk causes me to crash.

Just wanted to say hi and I'll try to check back in before bed.

Hi,
I hope you don't mind if I join your group. I recently found that my weight loss efforts seem to be consuming more and more of me, taking away from other parts of my life like my fiance and work and friends. My motivation has been flagging badly, and I've finally realized that I'm having bouts of depression.

Anyway, it's great to see how kind, encouraging and close you all are as a group, and I really look forward to getting to know you!

:welcome:Silverstar...Its good to have you...

We are getting a bunch of new people to make it more interesting YAYAYA


OK yeah not much time today or something but have to get everyone ready to go to church for family movie night....So I am going to go get my five children and myself ready (well kaci is fine but she cant find anything so she keeps asking me where stuff is so yeah!!)

Oh I love the sound of screaming kids...ONe went to nannys and never took a nap today and was up at 7...yeah he is crying and screaming if his brother or sister even look at him...then 2 year old is screaming cause the 1 year old sat in the seat she was sitting in...UGGHHH....I love my children...I really really do!!!

I need to go shower cause I gotta leave in about 20 minutes...YAAA lata chickies!!!

ME

Aloha Friday Chicas!!!

Okay, feeling a little less enthusiastic than usual this morning...tiny bit tired and hot I think... Also...no doubt the new eating is the way to go for me but I still have a learning curve to get down because I seem to be picking up weight...ugh...which disappoints me. I think that may be a partial cause for me not feeling as chipper today... Also...since I am in the second half of my cycle my serotonin and betaendorphin levels naturally decline so I have to do little things to raise them...slowly though... And I can't do my regular thing...exercise and yoga... I did a few stretches earlier and that helped some. I am trying my Ipod right now...put together some of my handpicked favorite songs and that seems to be helping as well... I am working on cutting my food back a bit without compromising my protein levels...wish me luck on that! The funny thing is, I feel thinner...stronger...and leaner...so maybe I am retaining water or something. Hot and sticky is not my favorite thing to be!!! whine whine! Anyway! Going to my yoga instructors house tomorrow for her sale...and to Hellboy 2!!! Yay!!!

Well Girlies! I am just checking in...gonna go watch Fun with Dick & Jane with DD and get a few sets in with my medicine ball...

Hey Cathy...yeah my avatar was different...DH just helped me with my new one recently...I love it! Hawaii is beautiful and there are a lot of fabulous things to see and do but I miss Colorado...my pine trees, crows, and ravens, and cool weather... Fall is my favorite time and we don't get that here... I am looking at this as a bit of an extended vacation...it really isn't where I want to spend my life...

Have a good one Everybody!!! :hug:

My Grandpa Passed Away........
 

Sassy :hug:I'm so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.:hug:
K

Sassy-I am so sorry...I will keep your families in my prayers


Not too bad of a day just busy...Just got home actually. We had the church movie night which it mostly turned out to be all my youth!! Then at the end our pastors called to tell us they were on their way to the hospital a guy of our church has been battling cancer and was throwing up blood. So they lady in charge of the movie night ask me to come up and lead prayer. So we did then I was like I need to go over there. We are not like officially the assitant pastors of the church but that is what everyone calls us and when they bring new people in that is whatthey introduce us as. Mostly because my husband does the job of the assistant pastor. He preaches atleast once Sunday a month if not more. We are tech. the youth pastors but there is not associate pastor. SOOO anyways I just felt being the other pastors of the church I needed to be over there too...so I had my friend take my two boys home and I went over there for a while. He is staying so strong. when I was leaving I was like take care and he was like God is taking care of me.. Not down and sad and depressed....he was still holding on to his faith!!! So then I went to pick up my kids and my friend and I sat and chatted for like two hours..LOL....Nahhh not me...HAHA...no we never get to talk and I think I talk so much cause I have no one during the day to chat with!!

So I am going to crash cause we have a picnic to go to tomorrow and dont want to be grumpy and stuff..so ok have a good day guys talk to you later!!

lata

For Sassy Chick


You would know the secret of death.
But how shall you find it unless you seek it in the heart of life?
The owl whose night-bound eyes are blind unto the day
cannot unveil the mystery of light.
If you would indeed behold the spirit of death,
open your heart wide unto the body of life.
For life and death are one,
even as the river and the sea are one.
In the depth of your hopes and desires
lies your silent knowledge of the beyond;
And like the seeds dreaming beneath the snow
your heart dreams of spring.
Trust the dreams,
for in them is hidden the gate to eternity.
Your fear of death is but the trembling of the shepherd
when he stands before the king whose hand
is to be laid upon him in honour.
Is the shepherd not joyful beneath his trembling,
that he shall wear the mark of the king?
Yet is he not more mindful of his trembling?
For what is it to die but to stand naked in the wind
and to melt into the sun?
And what is it to cease breathing,
but to free the breath from its restless tides,
that it may rise and expand and seek God unencumbered?
Only when you drink from the river of silence
shall you indeed sing.
And when you have reached the mountain top,
then you shall begin to climb.
And when the earth shall claim your limbs,
then shall you truly dance.

- Kahlil Gibran, from The Prophet -

Sassy :cry: I'm so sorry to hear about your G'pa

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Hi :wave:

I am so crap I haven't really read all of our thread, but I am wishing you all love and peace and strength. Sassy - my thoughts are with you.

I am... okay. I didn't think it would be quite this hard... and I am so desperate to stop 'wallowing' that my counselor tells me I am not giving myself time to grieve the death of my relationship. How can I grieve when I am still hopeful and hanging on to threads that maybe he isn't holding the other end of? :(

Anyway - happy Saturday. It's raining here, but at least it means I don't have to water the lawn... or mow it today! :-P

Heather :D

awwww Heather my heart goes out to you...that is sooo hard because u dont know what to think...to just say its over or to hope that a miracle happens....That is such a hard place to be in....bless your heart

good afternoon gang :wave:

I did 3 miles this morning. :running:

Heather :hugs:

Sassy - sorry about your grandpa :hugs:

hope everybody has a great weekend!
hugs,
Cathy

Hi and Thanks.
 

So Sorry Sassy!
 

I am really sorry for your loss Sassy... :( things like that just hurt so much no matter what anyone can say...the poem was really beautiful though... :hug: It was really great that you got to have him for so long and that he got to be independent for so long as well.. My DH lost his Dad almost 3 years ago and he was only 64...he was and is so important to me as well, and it feels like we were all robbed of time...it took me quite awhile to get past that feeling...now...I feel like maybe his passing was teaching me something...showing me how to grieve...how to be stronger for the things that I would be facing next.

That being said! I am sorry I didn't see this all sooner but we got up early (yes I was up at 5:30! Again!) and out the door to the yoga sale I wanted to go to at my yoga instructors house...(bought way to much stuff...but it is all so cool!!!) and to see...HELLBOY 2!!!! :carrot: Yeah!!! It was awesome!!! Love love loved it!!! So! I really need to actually get busy and do some stuff around here Chickies! So...everyone stay safe...stay cool...and have as much fun as you can!

luv luv Everybody!

:hug:Sassy:hug: so sorry for your loss. It's great that you have so many wonderful memories. That was a beautiful poem too from Sugarmama.

I'm getting ready for bed. My friend who is visiting is enjoying her conference. She got here late tonight b/c it lasted a while with a social after. We'll probably do dinner tomorrow night when I get off at 7pm and then she'll leave on Monday.

Heather :hug: Been wondering about you. It's hard to grieve when you don't know the outcome. The more you take care of yourself the easier it will be either way. I know you know that though. Just do whatever it takes to muddle through this and spend a lot of time with people who care about you, like us! :D No isolating allowed!! Not healthy :nono:

I have done so wonderful this week with not getting frustrated and allowing to affect me but tonight I just cant help it. My sister in law and I have been great freinds over the years I new her way before I ever met my husband (have siblings) She is pregnant and not married and is gettin the biggest rap for it. I have actually been the only friend that has stood with her thru the whole thing and her mom but that is what moms should do. Her other friends would go back and forth on what they wanted to think....but no she refuses to let me or her mom do a shower for her because it is starting to make her sad. An ex-biter-member of our church told her that the youth pastor shouldnt be giving a baby shower to an unwed mother. And that has been what sent her over the edge....There has been comments and things and now she is just feeling sooo outcast by everyone and everything. I am so sad, hurt, mad all mixed into one..I will have to hold my tongue if i see this lady soon....Or just say my peace with out stooping to her level.... I am soooo very sick of everyone walking around thinking they are the great judge when their lives are worse than the ones they are judging...ARGG.. ok ill get off my soap box if i wasnt so tired i would put that smiley up...UGGHH i gotta get to bed up early for church then right after do the six hour drive to take foster daughter back to the group home!! UGHHH I HATE THAT DRIVE!! ok lata

Thanks you girls, :hug: I am hanging in there. I have things to do today that I haven't had to do before - like mow the lawn. That probably sounds silly to some of you, but honestly, that just wasn't my job before! - :lol:

I have also made a list of things I'd like to Do/Learn/Try... and I am going to look into some of them. Scary, but there's no one FORCING me - if I go to one, say, writer's group meeting and I don't like it - well, at least I TRIED it. :D

Working hard on staying positive - not easy, but I am trying. It's all I can do right now. And taking control back over my eating and exercise is both liberating and motivating!

I love you all -
Heather :D