Woohoo!!! Back from the Chiro again - felt like I needed a follow-up adjustment, and I did. Breathing without stabbing pain is fun!

well i got 5 minutes on the program one on the eliptical my legs feel like jello and i broke a sweat..lol...i will write more later baby is on my lap crying..i think she is teething....lata

I'm back. I worked out with my friend which helped my mood a little. We cooked dinner after that and talked for a while. Sometimes I feel so negative and whiney around her since she doesn't have a depression problem and is generally happy. What a weirdo! :lol: Tonight was definitely one of those times, but with the pms I just couldn't fake it. Anybody else struggle with this, feeling like you have to fake a decent mood just so you won't annoy the crap out of everyone else?

I'm so grateful to all of you who listen to me everyday and for your friendships. Thank you all. :grouphug:

I fit into my skinny shirt (its like a 1x, lol)

Hi Girls. I'm sick. I thought at first it was JUST my allergies, but now I think I may have gotten a touch of the flu too. :barf: So cleaning may or may not get done. If it doesn't, oh well, my mom has seen our apt dirty before and if I don't get better, she may not want to come up with a sickie!!! lol.

Hope - :yes: I feel that way too sometimes. :hug: I bet your friend didn't freak out or run screaming when you were just you, though, did she? Haha... I am just so grateful for YOU and the others for welcoming me here, and listening to me ramble...

Francie - Woohoo!!! Skinny skirt! :yay: wtg!

Sassy - :hug: get well soon. I hope its a quick flu bug.

I think I may have mentioned that I'm having odd dreams again :dizzy: Well, a couple nights ago, I dreamed I had a really long talk with the gal I know who runs a business near where I work, and the jist of it was that she was going out of business. So this am, I drive by and noticed a sign in the window that they are closing tomorrow. Eek. That kinda thing really messes with me. Especially since some of my other dreams have been truly sad and disturbing (like a friend from school who I haven't seen in years getting diagnosed with cancer).

Other than that, I'm just truckin along. How is everyone else doing? Buddly, Cathy, Emmy, Jerzy, Leenie, Heather, Momof4, everyone else? :grouphug:

Hi all!!:wave:

Not much new around here. We didn't get to have our weinnie roast on Monday. We got the fire going and then it poured rain, so we barbequed instead and got to watch a movie. At least we were all home and together.
The kitchen is half done. I'm getting use to the colour and its not so bad. I usually pick just a hint of colour, so having a real colour is different for me. ddA and I were going to finish it yesterday but the power went off for five hours. With no power we have no water, so that limits what you want to do, especially when you have no idea when it will come back on.
Thankfully the sun is shining now. I have to go to work for the next two days. Not looking foreward to that. Amarie I should follow your lead and go to the chiropractor. My lower back is killing me today, I sure hope it feels better tomorrow or I'm going to be in big trouble:dizzy: ddA is thinking of applying at A & W as she knows she will get on full time for the summer and then I won't have to work there. Plus that would give here till experience. We have no idea why she hasn't been hired after some of her interviews. They seem good and then her friends get hired and not her, so we are at a lost as to what puts the employer off. She is getting so bored and a bit desperate here and very soon she will have to compete with the high school kids.

Leenie, I'm the same that I always make a huge mess before I get things cleaned up, I have no idea why that happens.

Welcome Sugarmama! So glad you found us and look foreward to getting to know you.:hug:

jerzy glad your back!

Mom good for you for using the eliptical! I found that I can't use it, my knees just can't stand it. They sure are a good workout tho!

Amarie I can't quite imagine astroturf walls! I'm surprised you lasted a week:D With the kitchen I had that green masking tape on and with the yellow OMG!!! It was awfull!! Not so bad with the white trim, but now I know not to put green in the living room, we'd need sunglasses:dizzy: I'm usually scared of wall colour, but ddC was with me and picked this shade and I figure what the heck its only paint and I did tell her I wanted yellow!

Shop WTG on the skinny shirt!! Who cares what the label says they are all different anyway!

Hope good for you for working out! Glad it helped with the mood. And yes I know what you mean about pretending to feel better. At least the exercise is helping.

Sassy sorry about the flu. Drink plenty of fluids and rest. And mom's understand!

Well I should go, the dishes are soaking and waiting and if I procrastinate any longer the water will be cold.

Take care everyone and have a great day!
K

Amarie, That's wild about your dream. Maybe your brain was piecing together conversations you've had recently with your friend and you figured out the store was closing... Otherwise you have a gift! Awesome.

Hope, I feel that way all the time. I guess it helps to be up front about the depression. One of my certain challenges is telling people about it. Scared I guess.

mom, I love the elliptical, but find myself coasting on it sometimes, NOT breaking a sweat. So...bravo!

I just met with my psychiastrist today. I started Wellbutrin about a month ago and it has set my anxiety off. She said it's a side effect and should taper off. I think I started out with high anxiety, however, so the Wellbutrin magnified it. It's been awful! I can't even practice deep breathing or meditation because my heart is pounding and my stomach is uneasy. I'm just so nervous. There have been GREAT improvements in the depression, but the anxiety is AWful.

Glad to hear things are well out there.

Just stopping by real quick.

I'm going to San Diego tomorrow to see dh!! YAY!! I'm so excited!! I'll be back sometime on Sat though. I'm leaving at 2:45am to catch the shuttle to the airport..AHHH!! LoL!!


:grouphug: I hope everyone else is doing okay!!!

:wave: love yah's

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Hey Everybody!!! I'MMMM BAAAACK! :) Okay, so my two weeks with my family was awesome...I had the best flight ever on the way over and the worst one on the way back so I guess it is the universe's way of evening things out... I am still fighting with Delta to get my luggage back...aaaargh! I am slowly getting back into my routine but I still have so much to do that I don't really have the time to catch up with you all as much as I would like but I wanted you to know that I am home and will be back on here as soon as I can get a moment to breathe!!! (That would be good...) Damage was surprisingly minimal for all the eating that I did...163.5 this morning...only up a pd from when I left...granted I had just had a really horrible couple of weeks...you might remember the candy bar episode???? And I haven't recovered from that yet but I will!!! So, back to work, in all ways and I am lovin you all!! :)

sugarmama, you still around? this is the perfect place to just post whatever is going on in your head. some of us have been there and some just know the right thing to say!

good luck and welcome :)

Hi Everyone
 

Thanks Gang I am Still Here I just Have my up days and down days.

One thing I have been fat way to long lol

Then On top of it I had and accident last year that toook so much out of me I ams so tired of people telling me to get over it. They have no idea of how my legs ache or feel on top of it how when I look down and see the scars.

I was working in my choosen field at the time of the accident and I've had a hard time finding a job since. Thank god I work from home now. Battling a major Casino in Vegas is one **** of a battle. NO one gets that they have a lot of power here.

Then I have this loveless relationship don't get me wrong he helps me out a lot but there is no love he is just to darn old and cranky.

I don't think I will ever have the love I would like to have.