I think I am losing my mind again.
 

I started my weightloss journey after a horrible miscarriage and D&C in 2005.

my boyfriend has been nothing but supportive, but I got up to 190 lbs+ and felt even worse, like.. "my body doesn't deserve a child the way it looks." my mind never shuts off, my depression and suicidal ideation has gotten so much worse, and I don't understand it - I have come so far in losing weight the healthy way for once, but every time I look in the mirror, I see a blimp. I sit in my car and feel my chin hitting my collarbone. I feel unattractive, and I shut everyone out of my life. I had a nuclear meltdown at work and with my boyfriend this week, and finally, was put on Klonopin. I wanted to know if it works, or causes weight gain, or anything.. I was on Niravam for a few weeks, and I felt marvelous. does anyone else have any experience with this?

No, I have never been on either of those meds but :hug:.
Just try to sit tight, keep strong and get the help you need. You can come through this. :)

thanks for the kind words:hug: