Hi gals...I hear ya, aren't we just sisters in every way!? When one of us is off plan, some of the rest of us are too....and we're all "mean girls" at work. ya know what's funny about that, is that you came right on here and told us about it, Amy....when it happened to me....about two years ago, I had recieved the "nurse excellence" award for 2006 (a pretty prestigious thing if I do say so, only one nurse, once a year from each floor gets it) that was in the spring....and that fall I just went through a funk or something, I just couldn't tolerate the people I was working with, I was being driven crazy by new nurses, nursing students, whatever and I got pulled in one day, told about my attitude, took away my raise for that period (wooo, 35 cents) and had to go to DAY SHIFT for ONE MONTH so "they could monitor me"....How humiliating. And I didn't even come here to tell anyone about it. I didn't want you girls thinking I'm some kind of a b*tch....well now I know we all are! Funny though, I got TONS of support during that time. Most people KNOW who the GOOD workers are....who knows their stuff...who REALLY runs things, yet those same workers are targeted. I mean, really, can your employer REALLY write you up for your PERSONALITY!? I'm still riled up about that....But in fact we call it the curse of the nurse excellence award....three of the other winners from past years have also gotten in trouble for similar "attitude" problems. Funny how the same issues exist no matter what the job, the "pets" can get away with not doing their share of the work and the rest of us have bulls-eyes on our backs.
Wow I really went off about that, didn't I? I can't say my attitude at work is much better these days....low morale all around pretty much. I guess every job has periods like that. In fact right now, on the night shift we are pretty content, the drama and the favoritism is on the day shift and with our boss.
Okay, enough....LOL
No, I haven't been in any way, shape or form on any kind of plan lately. Last week I started some kind of cold/flu thing in my head and chest. I'm not 100 % back yet but I think I feel good enough to start exercising again. So today. Today. Today. Here we go again. I did kind of binge a bit this morning when I got Robert up for school, ate a huge bowl of sugary cereal and some chocolate covered pretzels, got him to school and went back to bed. (I work tonight so I usually sleep in) But I woke up at 1 and thought, ENOUGH. I had my Fiber One cereal and an orange and lots of water. Here, and NOW.
<sigh> I'm sick of always "starting over".....
I can't get to the gym today, but I think I can go tomorrow. Remember the girl at the gym told me to just do cardio, three or four times a week, one hour, well I think I will try to stick to it. I can go this week, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday. I need to keep myself to that.
Why, oh why can't we remember the things we like best about being OP?
1- Exercise does feel good, exhilerating really. I even like being sore!
2- Eating right feels so much better than the HEAVINESS of greasy, junky bad food. Fresh fruits are sweeter and feel better than candy.
3- Water cures thirst. Pop makes me thirstier, bloats me, makes my mouth all sticky....Nice cold water tastes so good, makes me feel full, keeps my mouth busy when I want to eat.
4- Taco bell, McD's all of them! You think you're going to get what the picture actually looks like, and those foods are NEVER as satisfying as you want them to be. They almost always accompany guilt and heaviness!!!
What else? I should add something about alcohol, and being hung over not being so pleasant.....
But just for today. I commit to be on plan today. 24 hours. I can do that.
W- 4 liters
E- no formal exercise today, but working overnight is still alot of leg work
E- B(1pm): Fiber One and orange L/D(5pm) Big salad with veggies and some kind of protein S(between 8p-10p) apples and string cheese L/D(around 1 am) ????? I think turkey sammy on WW wheat bread, soup and fruit maybe pretzels....S(6am or after work 8am) oatmeal and banana.
D- Just for this next 24 hours. You can re commit after that. Just for this day. One day at a time. Don't look back. Oh and I took my vitamin, that's always part of my plan, it makes me feel better too.
Need a shower. Can't wait to catch up with you all.
Glad Grampa is home from the hospital, I hope he continues to get stronger. Lumi, I got your MySpace message! Thanks! Shari, glad you got internet access again! Do you go to the school? or the library? Either way, I'm glad your back! Anyone seen Aud? Mindy, you are doing so AWESOME! Onederland is within your grasp! NixMom, how was the weekend casino? I've been too broke to even THINK about going myself! Grazer, you have the right attitude. I need to forgive myself too. We can't go back, right? Let's just hold hands and jump back in. <SIGH> MM glad you're back full time too! And Jelly, your posts make me LAUGH! Please don't go away!!!! Reading your posts makes me think of all of us at lunch or coffee just gabbing like girls do.
Talk to you all later...xoxoxo Michelle
W.O.W. Frighten Away the Fat~~Week 4~~
Now if i could just control what I eat I'd be in better shape.....lol both literally and physically.
