[Grazer]

W.E.E.D- not good. Didn't drink all of the water unless I can include all of the tea I drank today. Didn't count points and overate at dinner. Might have reduced the sweets- only two cookies all day -but I had two bites, licked the spoon after baking etc. I did manage to resist giving in to a whole day of over sweeting and I got the Pilates done. Not going to get a 1.8 loss this week. Struggling to not feel so disappointed in myself that I start to binge.

Here I go again for tomorrow:

W- 64 oz
E-count points for the day
E-cardio
D-what did I learn from this week so I can do better next time?

[Holyteror]

im just struggling period. *sighs* WARNING: EXTREME RANT AHEAD!

had a fight on the way to get the christmas tree. So what happens? He turns the car around and we go home because he doesn't want to put up with my SH*T. I got in my car.....went and got a tree and brought it home. I will set it up soon. I shoveled down high calorie crap. I don't care right now.

I've been ignored constantly for the last few weeks. The only time he "wants" me is when he's drunk. Real useful. Makes me feel real wanted. I ordered some "stuff" from a friend of mine...she was having a "slumber party" and had some "stuff" available to order.....let's say a party for adult women. Anyway, my stuff got here today. Do you think he could pull himself away from blogging about religion and science? No. As long as his needs are satisifed, food, porn, stupid b.s. blogging and video games, I'm not important.

I'm tired of doing everything by myself. I yanked my arm pretty good bringing in the tree. Got plenty of pain relieving patches on my arm because I strained a few muscles. Do you think he cares? No. Where is he? already in bed...i don't know if he's waiting so we can sit and ignore each other. He hasn't gone to bed like a normal person since he got home. And even then, he does whatever he wants to...goes to bed when he wants...expects me to wake him up in the morning.

I'll be expected to make sure and have a full checkbook ready to go shop for his idiot family. I'll also be expected to have enough tape, paper, bows, and boxes to ship everybody's stuff since we don't have family here.

On top of this, i'm expected to make tamales.

I have my own family to shop for, wrap, and ship. At least I know what they want for christmas.

And to add to all of this.....I have a paper due monday.

Somebody wake me up out of this nightmare. I would be happy sitting in a size 14 with someone making an effort to help me do dishes or throw trash without being asked or nagged.

I'm so tired

I'm gonna go set up my tree and take off my contacts, then off to bed to be ignored and neglected.

Thanx for listening. I don't have anyone else to talk to right now about it.

[lumifan4ever]

HT....i'm so sorry to hear about all of that. We're always here to listen. I wish i had some good advice but i don't. Or at least no one wants to hear what i would say to do....because giving advice is so much easier than taking it and using it. I'm so sorry to hear that you are having such a rough time in your marriage. And especially when it's the holidays and you're suppose to be all happy and joyful all the time (another reason we should try to remember what christmas is really suppose to be all about instead of going in debt and depression worrying about what to give everyone we know!!!!)

I hope with the day of light, it will bring you a little more joy knowing you have friends here to talk to.

[Holyteror]

I don't know if i mentioned or not...but at my holiday party last week he was a real jerk too. He was too tired to dance of course.

i almost wish he'd get deployed for another 4 months. Then at least he'd be out of my hair, and the house would stay clean.

[JasonsLea]

HT ~ The advice I have isn't exactly.....'nice' so I'm going to keep my mouth shut. But you know we're here for you.

[aud]

So OffPlan . . . So outtatime . . . So inspired by you gals as I catch up on the Thread . . . . Soooo sure I haven't gone bra-less since Super Jam '77 when I was such a cute lil speed freak age 16 - always remember what I wore and the bands - lil pink top that said "J'taime" in black letters & the bands:

Judas Priest
Gypsy
Head East (???)
Ted Nugent
REO Speedwagon

Ahhhhhh, memories of ROCKING ON . . . and now am later than ever - I'll be back in the Wee for personals - but determined to be SORE from getting back with it -

WEED: You know what to do auddie!

PS: Tess did GREAT but did need some gas - we're calling her "Chops" now - short for Choppers - we always called my 21 yr old Molly "Fang" during this stage - !

[Holyteror]

lololol i'll keep the imagine in my head ROFL

[Grazer]

Okay, so today I did better than most days this week. Drank lots of water, went for a walk, only one cookie, and ate mindfully.

Here's to Bra-less-ness!!! I don't think I've been braless since about age 12!!!

[JenMusic]

God morning, friends!

HT - I'm not married (or even capable of having a relationship with something more significant than a fake plant) but please know that we are always here to listen and sympathize.

Grazer - Good job with staying OP! Awesome!

Aud - Wow, thanks for the great mental picture.

As for me, I weighed last night and I think I'm down, but not really sure - my friend's scale that I use to weigh is a dial-type scale, and it's in kilograms. So I can never tell if it's in between markings or what. So I'll weigh again next week and see if my eyes were telling me the truth!

Saturday's WEED -
W - 2.5L
E - Doing a cardio DVD later this afternoon, and a strength training DVD too. I feel strong today! (That could have something to do with the massive amount of coffee currently in my system! )
E - Gotta do some shopping for fruit and veggies, then gonna eat 'em
D - Here's to catching up on lots of paperwork. Blah.

Have a great day, everyone!

[Grazer]

Good Morning All!

I'm not going to meet my challenge goal. I had a gain this morning of .4. I'm feeling a little disappointed in myself but this week's bahavior is telling the tale. The bright side is this is my first gain in 12 weeks and I've made myself at home with the W.E.E.D.ers. Gotta get myself back on the W.E.E.D!

Everyone have a great Saturday!

[aud]

THAT'S the spirit grazer! . . . losing steadily for 12 weeks and just a .4??????? Girl, that could just be too much creme rinse!!!!!!!!

Took a cue from NursieM & did a total honest reality check yesterday - have changed my ticker accordingly - made it down to 212 this time around - (TBL Challenge & Beloved WEED) - but got back on the mindless yo-yo to get back here to 219.

Put the screeching brakes on this cycle yesterday and had a Great OP day/night - despite it being the stress filled night from ****.

aud-Digest Condensed Version:

Sooooooo . . . get off work to find a Winter Wonderland freakin' BLIZZARD. Horrible parking lot - horrible road conditions - white out, right? Start up car - spend 15-20 minutes cleaning the windows - semi-frozen - jump in to head off and find I have NO STEERING & the battery lite is on. Belt off - shot craps.

Super Condensed Version: DH & DD couldn't make it even 10 of the 35 miles to come get me around 2am - ended up spending the nite at a fellow union officers house!!!! DH picked me up around 11am today - got home around 1pm this afternoon . . . WHEW! What a freakin' adventure *slash* nightmare.

All's well that ends well? Safe & sound and made a new friend (the guy's wife was just so super & gracious - could easily have been a different story, ya know?)

Made it thru all of this eating OP - kind of down on water but got some good exercise and gonna just keep it going . . . bundling up to take DD & The Westie (Ginger-Pup) for a Snow Walk Adventure - the 2nd wave of the storm is hitting now.

BBL . . .

[Grazer]

Aud, thanks for the encouragement. I'm gonna take your cue and get back on track. I've just been lazy and maybe a bit stressed with family stuff- good & bad. Glad to see you stayed OP and safe during your adventure!

[aud]

Yeah it got pretty hairy . . . but sure is pretty to look out at now that I'm safe here at home. The 2nd blizzard hit but just a bunch of pretty fluffy snow. S'posed to be 45 Tuesday so enjoying while I can.

Took an hour long walk in it - quite the work out and such fun.

What time is it in China jen? I'm so glad you & grazer & mothermavis found your way to this latest WEED Challenge - have really enjoyed getting to know you & so love reading your posts.

Hmmmm . . . still no Green WEED name?

[B]"End of the Rainbow WEED Challenge"

"Kiss Our Blarney Stoned WEED Challenge!"

"Searching for a POT o'WEED Challenge"

ok it's late - what can I say?

Hope you're hanging tough holyT - sounds like your hub is going thru something - could it be service related(???)

Not making excuses - just curious if this is something new for him?

Whatever the case - hope you are taking care of YOU and so glad you went and got the tree anyway!

Trying to pass out early gals - cya tomorrow.

[JenMusic]

Hello, all! Aud, China time is 13 hours ahead of Eastern time (12 hours during daylight savings, which China doesn't observe). Thanks for the kind words. I have LOVED joining y'all and am excited about the next challenge. Bring it on!

This weekend has been a little off plan. I kept finding irresistible snacks and eating them -the good news is they were small pieces of whatever it was. I worked out today and it felt good. That's something I'm so thankful for - finding some exercise I like and doing it! I really feel that it's changed my outlook on fitness.

I'll post a WEED for tomorrow in the morning, but for now I just wanted to say hey and hope you all have a great Sunday, in the snow or the sunshine or the rain or wherever you are!

[mothermavis]

Let if snow, let it snow fa la la la

Seriously 12-18 of the white stuff today. Guess we know what my exercise is!
I've been kind of lazy with me this week and as a result I weigh 153 today

Back on plan as close as possible. I know with Christmas I will not be perfect so here's today.
W 3 L
E met my snow shovel already today, more of that to come and maybe will drag DS's (17 & 20) out to build a snowman with Ma.
E as close to plan as possible, making Lemon cookies today, sample no more than 2
D just enjoying the season, shopping pretty much over, went to 5:30 Mass last night, knowing that the snow was coming. I think I'll finish wrapping today also.