the planning thread...what's your plan for today??
 

ok so here we go!! since i used up all my free passes, tomorrow i will start agains, pity party excuses, whining etc i am starting fresh today at 8:30am. here's the plan...

saturday 6/10
b- fiber one, skim milk, banana, coffee, water
s- peach, a few peanuts, water
l- salad, lf dressing, tuna, water
s- granola bar, water
d- grilled chicken, small sweet potato, green beans, water
s- rice cakes, fruit if needed, more water

i am now off to eat breakfast, i will then speed clean this house, go do my shopping, plant some stuff in the garden, and then dye my hair for little pick me up. i'm putting my pedometer on as soon as i get dressed! it is going to be a good thoughtful day here!!

btw i just found the strength to get on the scale and i am at 223.5 so i need to find my way back to the 218 and then just get on with it!

have a good one chicks!!

Jodi, I just got out of bed. It's like, 3am. :lol3:
I spent the day (Saturday, that is) in bed reading. I seem to recall doing some tidying early in the day, but that was a long time ago, and I've had a four hour nap, and now I can't get to sleep. :dizzy:

Planning a very good (and hopefully more active) day tomorrow. I mean today. :D

M1: Fibre 1, blueberries, yogurt
coffees
M2:
M3:
M4:
M5:
M6:

oh ellis you crack me up!! i hate when i can't get to sleep at night. hope you have a restful sunday planned.

so yesterday was not perfect, but it was not that bad either. i got a bit carried away with snacks last night but not counting that as a binge. so 1 binge free day for me. today's plan? we just got back from the flea market had a totally unhealthy b-fast there but i'm going to work with ti and make this day a success!


b- 1/2 beef hoagie sandwich, 1/2 lemon shake, coffee
l- turkey on whole wheat with light mayo tomato and lettuce, cherries, water
d- stuffed pepper, mashed potatoes, corn, (all regular normal portion size) water
dessert- 1 brownie, coffee
snack- rice cakes, green tea, fruit if needed

today i will be doing more yard work and gardening, laundry etc and i just walked a little over 2 miles at the flea market

have a good one everyone!!

Jodi, did you buy anything at the flea market? I haven't been to one in years... we used to go almost every Sunday.

Okay, so how is it possible to gain 4 pounds overnight? I mean, I've done it before, but what the hoodle doo is going on here. :mad:

I've got to "get clean" today. I'm weighing in on Thursday, and I'm running through all my excuses in my head before I go: "I've been depressed." "My meds made me sleep all the time." "I just started a new med on Monday, and they haven't kicked in yet." :rolleyes:

Today:
M1: 2 slices of whole wheat w/peanut butter and a coffee
M2: Fibre 1 w/yogurt and blueberries
M3: ?
M4:
M5:
M6:

oh ellis sorry to hear about the meds, i hope that all gets worked out soon. i loved the flea market i got some cherries, eggplant, radishes, lettuce etc. all yummy fresh stuff. it was so nice to have a few minutes to just walk around and relax. so needless to say, my eating has been off the charts LOL. just throwing anything in my mouth to stop the smoke craving. i hope tomorrow will be better! so let me plan it out and see what happens

wednesday
b- coffee, fiber 1, skim, banana, water
s- cheese, wheat thins, water
l- smartones meal, broccoli, cherries, water
s- yogurt, water
d- soft tacos, salad w/ lf dressing, water
s- coffee, rice cakes, water

still no plan on going to the gym, i need to work that back into my week! nt going to stress about it today though.

Jodi, it's great that you bought good healthy food! Right now, anything is better than sticking a cig in your mouth. :yes:
I seem to recall hearing this from someone... that it's easier to quit smoking if you think of yourself as a non-smoker. You know? You sort of "become the person you want to be".
I think I've heard that about weight loss, too. Let's all pretend we're slim non-smokers. :yes:

I just had a vodka and orange juice and half a glass of wine, and I think it put me right over the edge. :dizzy:
We went to a friend's retirement dinner this evening. It was a lovely meal... nice not to have to cook. I am beat... am going to take out my contacts and crawl into bed.

Toodle ooo... :wave:

Do you think this works with everything??? Okay then I'm a slim, non-smoking, sahm who is also a rich and famous author. *wishes wishes wishes wishes* I hope this works. :D

Yay for you, Jodi!!! Smoking has got to be an incredibly hard addiction to beat!

Okay I'm starrrrving and I used up all my calories for the day so I'm headin to bed!

ellis- i want to have my own retirement dinner!! sounds like you had a good time!! i like the idea of thinking of who i'd like to be. i'm a thin, non-smoking, millionaire, who gives generiously LOL. why am i up at 3am?? well my lungs are plotting revenge and possibly planning a move. i am coughing like a nut!! i have an old inhaler from when i was sick in feb (thank goodness) so now i am all wired up on that.

thanks scootergirl it is pretty tough! thanks for the encouragement.

Gee, Scooter, it never occurred to me to be rich, too! AND a famous author! I'll take those too, please! :lol:

Jodi, I'm so sorry you had a rough night. :hug: I hope you got through it okay. Using your inhaler was a good idea. :yes:
Speaking of smoking, when I started my Wellbutrin on Monday, my psychiatrist asked if I smoked. When I said "no", he said, "Well now would be a good time to start, because Wellbutrin will help you to stop." :lol3:
Stick to your food plan today, eh, sweetie? :grouphug: And please pass the cherries.

Today:
M1: blueberries, yogurt, Fibre 1
coffees w/skim milk
M2:
M3:
M4:
M5:
M6:

hi ellis..
stick to the wellbutrin. It does work after a period of time once it gets into your system.
I started while being on another med and I felt awful the first few weeks. I felt spacey, jittery, alot of anxiety! I had headaches, heart palpations, aggitation. You name the side effects on the sheets, I had it!
It took three months for wellbutrin to kick in and do something for me. I feel much much better on it now. I pop my pill early in the am and have no side effects at all.

My plan for today is to walk 60mins, eat 22 points and drink 6 glasses of water a day.

Pansy, thank you so much for the affirmation regarding the Wellbutrin. I'm glad it's working for you. :hug:
I'm hoping so much that it'll work. :crossed: I know it'll take awhile before I know for certain, but so far I already seem to have more energy. (although I've had two "melt-downs" today already. :( )
I love your new avatar, btw! You're lovely!! :)
Good luck with your plan today! :lucky:

i took wellbutrin about 7-8 years ago it was supposed to help me kick the habit back then. it did help really but then i quit right befor the end of the program (no big surprise there) maybe i should call my doc? today was awful, i keep snapping at everyone and then crying about it. i feel like a nut. i did come home from work and have just 1 cig about 2 hours ago. i didn't really even want to smoke it as much as just hold it and smell it and relax. feeling better now. i'm going to do this!!

well i stuck with the plan today the only added thing was too much licorice but i can live with that.

welcome pansy!!

What is wellbutrin?

I was scared to come in here and read,,,I have found that the last 5 weeks I have been *weak* struggling...what have you. I went off of white sugar and feel like an egg. So easy to crack. I even PMed Ellis this past week about this,,,feeling like Im one post away from a binge. Ive had a couple of moments of eating something I shouldn't. But on the whole feeling I am succeeding,,,I hate doubting myself but I keep thinking this is short lived I won't last...blah blah Im not normally a negative person, and yet I am about my eating. So many years of failure have piled on that self doubt.

I come in,,,worried someone is in worse shape then me...crazy eh? Worried they are going to need support...I don't think I can support anyone,,,I can't even support myself some days. And yet,,,wonder if by just being here,,,showing the other person they are not alone,,,does that help? Cause I know when Im at my darkest,,reading other peoples struggles makes me feel I have someone in there with me.

Am I making sense to anyone?

Angelia, you totally make sense. As you said, I think that simply letting others know that they're not alone is huge. :yes:
It's SO hard to be supportive when you're not doing well yourself. :( Tell me about it. As a moderator, I just try to shut my mind to it. Otherwise I'd be terribly resentful of others. I'm SO happy when other people are successful. I think in particular for people who have struggled with weight loss all their lives. I haven't... I've had my shot at being slim, and I still have that good memory.

I cried all day yesterday, and I'm looking at a similar day today. I mean, how am I supposed to even THINK about losing weight when I'm in the middle of a major depressive episode?

Sorry... I didn't mean to dump. I have to head out to my weight loss clinic to be weighed by the doctor. I can't wait to find out how much I've gained. :( And I think my trainer may be measuring me. :rolleyes: Either that, or checking my exercise/heart rate, etc. I've barely been able to move for four weeks. I should be in great shape. :rolleyes:
I love the program, but I'm in no mood to hear today, "All you have to do is journal your food, and eat three meals and three snacks. And exercise. It's that simple." Yeah, sure. It's really simple when you're curled up on the floor in a crying jag, trying not to think of harming yourself. :(

Jodi, if the Wellbutrin worked for you, go and get some now! Don't put yourself through this, hon. It's a really tough time quitting smoking, and it's so important to your health. Whatever helps you get by... :hug:

awwwww ellis you ok?? you poor thing!! i hate those crying days. i hope the trip to the weight loss thingy went well for you today. (((ellis))) i'm with you who can lose weight with the weight of the world on our shoulders?? i'm still trying! i did well today really. i packed a b-fast and snacks for work and then treated myself to lunch. i had my one smoke after dinner, out on the deck with a strong hot cup of coffee and i feel good.

angelia- welcome! hop in anytime! i feel the same way as you when i am down i have a rough time trying to support anyone. and yes just knowing there is someone else out there in the same boat is a world of help in itself! i hope you are feeling a bit stronger! you can do this! we all have it in us to do this, it's never easy but it's worth it in the end! good luck!

so today looked like this
1/2 cantaloupe, 1 cup lf cottage cheese, coffee, water
pretzels
6in subway club with ff dressing, water
ww spaghetti, 1 meatball, lots of sauce, salad w/ ff dressing, water
coffee
snack- watermelon? maybe a few rice cakes?

no official exercise again today i have to get my but in gear soon!!

Poor Ellis!

:hug: :hug: :hug:

I hope the meds your taking start helping soon!
Until they do hang in there and tell your trainer to stuff it if he's mean! Sometimes you have to sort out one thing at a time!

:hug:

Ellis, sounds like you are in the black hole,,,I call it that cause I have been in that black hole,,,some holes are bigger then others but I know that feeling. At 26 yrs old I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders and after all the dust settled I crumbled. I laid in bed for weeks,,crying. I am not an emotional sharing kind of person,,at least not back then. I have opened up big time now. But I know I scared my family and friends once their realized I couldn't/wouldn't come out of my room. I regularly called the crisis centre and would cry to this unknown person. So much safer that way. But it got to the point where I couldn't go on, I was willing to let it all go. I was had one councillor whom I talked with most of the time who convinced me to make an emergency call to my Dr. I couldn't even drive I was crying so hard. My neighbour (true friend I know now) drove me, took me in the back way, (small town) and I sat in his office and cried for a solid 3 hours. My family Dr. sat and held me for most of that time. His shirt was drenched. HE gave me a shot, sent me home and then stopped by the house on his way home. I went on antidepressents for the next 2 years. I had to try different kinds to best match me. But they helped. I did my therapy, that helped. And just having a couple of friends who knew my story helped.

I every so often feel down,,,but never as close as that time in my life.
Ellis I hope you feel better soon...big hugs

Jodi, Scooter and Angelia, thank you so much for the hugs. :^: You're the best. :grouphug:
After I read my post yesterday, I thought, "Yikes, I should delete that... it's such a dump!" But then I thought, "No. I'm entitled to a dump every once in awhile, right?" You're just the best. :grouphug:

Yesterday wasn't as bad as I anticipated. The doctor at my weight loss clinic was SO nice! I mean, he's always nice, but he was really supportive yesterday. He said, "When you're depressed, I don't want you to even try to lose weight. Life is hard enough in those circumstances. You don't have to journal, you don't have to exercise if you can't. I don't care what you eat. All I want is for you to eat your three meals and three snacks, and to be good to yourself." Naturally, his supportiveness made me burst into tears. :lol:
He didn't even weight me! He just sort of "blessed me" and sent me on my way.

Then I saw my trainer, who was just as sweet. He didn't weigh me or try to measure me (thank GOD!). Didn't make me do any crazy stunts with a ball or a treadmill. All he did was suggest that I join a recently started running club. So I'm going to do it! All fat people... huffing and puffing. Some of them have never run before. Many with no self-confidence regarding running. I'm so excited about joining! :)

Angelia, I'm sorry you've been in that hole, too. :hug: It breaks my heart to hear about other people going through it, because I know how terrible it is. It's indescribable to anyone who hasn't experienced it. :(
What a wonderful neighbour, and what a WONDERFUL doctor you have. I know we can't expect everyone to "drop everything" to support us. People have their own "stuff" to deal with. But just being able to communicate our needs to a few good people is everything.
Thank you for being so supportive... particularly after you said how hard it is to support others when you're doing poorly! That means a lot, hon.
I hope today is good for you. :hug:

Jodi, I'm thinking about you with the smoking. :hug: What a great day you had yesterday, girl! Planning is everything for some of us. Hang in there, sweetie... you're doing it!
(Sorry, hon... your planning thread has become a little intense. We'll all try to get back on track. :lol: )

I saw a really supportive friend yesterday. We went to a park, and he taught me to play chess. It was so much fun! I had to really concentrate to learn the moves, but I think I'm already almost as good as he is. :lol3: He was a little perturbed when I started beating him. :rofl: (he's not a good player at all, but it made me feel REALLY good about myself. heh heh)
I'm feeling not too bad today. (knock on wood) A little nauseas (a side effect of the meds, maybe?) and still a little emotional, but I don't feel like I need to check into emergency anytime soon. A definite improvement from two days ago. :dizzy:

Today I'm planning:
A walk.
As healthy a food plan as I can manage.

Have a good day, everyone! :wave:

Ellis, I have to thank you for feeling you can share with us, Ive always had this image of the Mods having it together...been there done that and let me show how to succeed as I am. And some have, and some are like me or a few steps ahead. But to me you really do know the struggles cause you are right there in the trenches with us. Makes me like you even more. (geesh not cause you are struggling,,,but you can share that you are)
hugs,

Angelia, thank you so much for saying that. It made me get all weepy (but in a good way :lol: )
Sometimes I feel that I shouldn't share that stuff because I have this idea that "it's not about me" here. But that's not right... I started here as a member just like everyone else... with needs. And being slim isn't a prerequisite to being a moderator (thank goodness. heh heh. You should see how many of us are still fat! :lol3: )
That's what I love about the three sisters. They're not Suzanne Somers or Jane Fonda, but they ARE a success story in that they haven't given up the struggle to be healthy.
It's very inspirational reading success stories with pictures of slim, fit people, but sometimes I feel a bit alienated from that whole scene, you know? Hopefully someday (DEFINITELY! Let's be positive, here!) I'll be slim again, but in the meantime, I need to know that I'm not the only one struggling. And that I'm not a failure if I have a bad day.

Does anyone remember ... oh, what was her name... "something" Rubens, I think. She had a regular column in Self magazine. (I think it was Self) She was this beautiful, big girl trying to lose weight, and she did a sort of blog thing. She was up and down like a yo-yo, and I just loved her for it. I wanted her to succeed, but I loved that she was struggling just as hard as the rest of us.
What the heck was her name...

Oh. This is the planning thread, isn't it? Jodi, where are you? I hope you're not on the back deck digging into a pack of ciggies. :hug:

M1: omelet (thank you, sweet DH) chock full of onions, red pepper, broccoli and tomatoes w/a little cheese
M2: slice of whole wheat w/peanut butter
M3: hot dog w/cheese
M4: risotto w/broccoli
M5: handful of plain tostitos. Two pickles.
M6: :?:

Courtney Rubin! :yes:

meal 1. eggs (whites) and salsa with oats and nuts toast. coffee/milk
meal 2.

Angelia, I'm so glad you had a friend to drive you to the doctor and a doctor that was that caring!!! :hug:

Ellis, Amen to that! I want to hear about the flawed real people who fail occassionally and yet keep fighting. Glad things are a little better!

My plan:
Snuggle with my baby boy until he wakes up from his nap and then go for a family walk.