Poor dear, I felt so bad reading that you're afraid to get involved with men and get hurt. For some reason that comment really stuck out. But the good news is that you know this. It takes some people years and years and years to figure out "why" they feel they need protection in the form of weight. You are a smart cookie. Big hugs to you; I know it's hard. I really feel you can do this. Just go easy on yourself, be understanding of yourself, keep searching for answers but without self-blame or self-judgement. As you said, you've been protecting yourself. That's a very noble and brave thing. You could have just given up. You could have just broken down. Instead you used protective measures that worked *at the time*. Now, it's time for something new. Stick with us here, we can all get through this!
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