Just a quickie!
 

Sorry all but this will have to be short and sweet. Yes, yes, internet went down again, although this time we can blame the sub-contractor for severing the line with a marking spike! :mad: Sooooooo now that we finally got back up, I only have a moment before I close up shop (figure of speech), go home and die!

I drove to Orlando yesterday for a concert (just over 100 miles away) and I didn't see my bed until 3:00am! Needless to say I'm very tired and endless hours spent playing solitaire on the PC hasn't helped at ALL! But, the concert was probably one of the best I've ever seen and I found $5 on the floor (that paid for parking) so it was certainly worth the drive and lack of sleep.

Well, despite the tostitos war (I guess that's kind of like the war of the roses?) I hit 30 lbs today! I was so happy. Finally I can see ONEderland around the corner.

Everyone take care and, provided we're running tomorrow, I'll write more.

Hugs

Alisha :hat:

Well, the weigh-in went well last night. Down 11.8lbs! Despite that, I'm kind of down today and wanting some real food. Well, that will pass.
Kat - I know what you mean about doctor's visits. I have them regularly because I'm diabetic and need to have periodic blood tests. I never let the skinny nurse weigh me. I always wait until she goes out of the room and then weigh myself. I have regular mamograms but admit I've been slack about the gyno visits. Didn't like them when I weighed 120!
Melissa - Like the song lyrics.
Have a good evening all.

:flow1: Good morning! :flow1:

Hey Alisha, great weigh in - 30lbs down is a great milestone. Celebrate! :cheers:

Rosetta, another great weigh in - Fabulous! :hyper:

We are on fire here girls! :flame:

And just because it can't be said enough... GO TO THE DOCTOR! Everyone! Get your yearly physical, get your yearly papsmear, get your mammograms! You can tell the nurse not to weigh you, you are their customer! :soap:

Rosetta, what a brilliant loss! :cb: You should be so proud of yourself! I'M certainly proud of you chickadee! Weigh to go! :goodscale

I should be excited over my loss but, you know what? I'm not. I'm mad :mad: actually because I know that it could've been more if only I would STOP this NONSENSE! Between the fast food :mcd: and the tostitos.. :corn: oh jeeze.. I mean yeah.. I didn't gain and, in fact, lost 2 lbs, but still.. you know how it feels when you know you could've been down another 4 or 5 lbs if only... :tantrum: I still just don't get why I do this.. :?: even when the food makes me sick as a dog, :barf: kicks off my IBS, :stress: causes all sorts of health ills in general and makes me FAT, :sumo: I still do it. And, to make matters worse, I'm getting hungry on my program and I don't know why. :dunno: I know that this is what led to the breakdown but I get so sick of being hungry! :ink: The first whole month I was fine but then the last two weeks it's like I'm starving to death. :faint: If I'm satisfied (at least nowadays) I can nip my cravings in the bud but if I'm hungry... woe be tied! I'm off like a shot to get something naughty and sinful. :moped:

Anyway, that's my rant for today. :soap: Sorry folks.. just getting fed up with myself and my inner psyche that won't let go of it's precious food! I guess since I can't throw myself into the pits of Mordor :wizard: I'd better come up with another solution... any ideas? :sorry:

Thanks for the nice comments Melissa - that was kind. :thanks: You celebrate for me. I'm going to pout for being so stupid! :cry:

All the best.

Alisha :hat:

Hi guys-
I'm new around here and was wondering if I could join your chat. I have struggled with weight, ana/mia, and overeating for years... (I have been just overeating and steadily gaining weight for 3 years now). I finally got a nutritionist again and the first 2 weeks were rough, but I'm finally SICK of it... feeling crappy like this and being unhealthy :tantrum: !! The past few days I have stayed completely to my custom meal ideas (thanks to the nutritionist) and have exercised everyday. I think I'm ready for once :crossed: -- I just need support cuz this addiction to food is AMAZINGLY hard to kick (as I'm sure everyone knows).
Anyway, I hope to see everyone around the board! Thanks for letting me join in!

Good evening, all. This second week is harder than the first. I think because it's finally sinking in that there will be no real food in the near future if I am to get to my goal. It's funny how you blink and a year has passed but the individual moments can seem like an eternity.
Melissa - thanks for the cheerleading. How are you doing?
Alisha - You DID LOSE. That's the important thing. Forget the Tostito binge. Get yourself back on track. Keep the junk food out of the house and replace it with fat free, sugar free jello or a small apple. I'm technically on a fast but I let myself have one little apple a day. It satisfies my need to crunch something and is filling. Because I am really sedentary right now I don't feel too much hunger. If I do, I just have a cup of bouillion.
Boston - welcome, I'm relatively new to this group myself, although I have been posting on 3FC for awhile. That's great that you are working with a nutritionist. When you're tempted to stray from your healthy diet, remind yourself of how bad you felt and that for that particular moment you want to feel good.

Good morning. I think I am avoiding my Friday weigh in. I weigh myself all week so I know what I weigh (163.5). But I have missed the last three Fridays for no really good reason. I skipped the gym because I was tired. I went to bed late, my daughter woke me up in the middle of the night. And 4:40am comes around awfully early! BUT I have dragged my butt to the gym under similar circumstances so many times.

Bad night last night, I had cramps because I am about to get my period. Chocolate always seems to help that. First I had two mini Hershey bars and they were so good I had a regular size one and that was so good I had a bag of mini Hershey kisses. :o I had that uncontrolled eating feeling. The difference now, is that I know that is one night. It doesn't ruin my diet because this is not a diet, it is the rest of my life. It does not give me permission to now cheat for awhile because I screwed up. Right back on the wagon this morning....

Golly, it's just bustling in here! :sunny:

Melissa, you're having a rough day... :( Staying OP will make you glad later...hang in there. Sending you hugs, sweetie... :grouphug:

Rosetta, what a great loss!! :cheer: Congratulations, hon!! You must feel so inspired!
I know what you mean about individual moments seeming like eternity. Sometimes it's a battle just to get through five minutes. :yes:

Boston, welcome!! :wave: We're so glad to have you here!
How wonderful that you're working with a nutritionalist. That feeling of not wanting to eating poorly anymore is a huge breakthrough! :hat: I remember it well...

Alisha, how are you doing today, hon? I can so relate. I have IBS, too, but it doesn't stop me from eating poorly. The only things I absolutely avoid are raisins and tea. Big DEAL!! :rolleyes:
And acid reflux... even with medication for it, I lie propped up in bed at night because I've eaten poorly all day.
Sending you sympathetic hugs... :grouphug: And a big congratulations on the 30 pound loss!! :hat:

Kat, are you getting some weight off before that next check-up at the doctor? ;) I finally went for a physical this year... hadn't been for about four years, because I figured I probably had cancer or something, and didn't want to know. ;) Of course, I didn't.

Leenie, where are you, darlin'? :wave:

I am still FULL of energy! I'm currently expending most of it sitting on my big butt at the computer, but I am getting out and around again, and I'm doing gardening and some walking. Once the kids are back in school, I'll be a whirlwind.

Hi Boston and welcome to the site! :wave: All the people in this topic are so incredible - you'll love it here and we're glad to have you. :cp: I know exactly what you mean with the struggles. I've never been ana/mia but I do suffer with diagnosed binge/compulsive eating disorder and it's the hardest thing in the world to control. :ziplip: Why? :dunno: The gods only know. :angel: Nevertheless, we're all here for each other and that helps tremendously. Ensure that you check back often and you'll see what I mean. :flow1:

Rosetta - thanks so much for the support. :thanks: I was in a very dark place when I wrote that post and feeling so glum. :cry: Every bit of encouragement helps a lot! :yes: Believe me when I say that I know how hard it is to say goodbye to food. Thats why I spent the first 6 weeks of my program on shakes alone - to try and break that 'pull' that food seems to have over me. :rollpin: Unfortunately I'm not allowed any fruit :nono: - just one piece of fruit can throw me of ketosis and ruin my week for weight loss. Not to be a critic, but you may want to ask your doctor if that apple is okay. Your program is different than mine so it very well may be! :D I know that on my program I am allowed NOTHING extra with the exception of 2 dill pickles and 2 bouillon a day because any extra sugar or carbs will throw me out of ketosis (fat burning) and slow my weight loss. I feel like if I'm going to struggle without food then I sure as **** want to see results! :lol:

Melissa, I feel for you, I really do. :headache: I've had a few of those uncontrollable eating binges over the last two weeks :mcd: but it's not the slip but, rather, what you do to recover from it and you're right on track! :bravo: I say way to go! There will always be times when we slip up, but the true essence of maintaining weight loss will be the ability to have a splurge and then to refrain from continuous splurging. You have just proven to yourself that you can put yourself back on track and I think that's a wonderful achievement! I'm very proud of you! :cb:

Hi Ellis! I'm doing alright actually - thanks so much for asking. :spin: In fact, I think I finally sussed what the problem was with my hunger. :dance: I'm due my depo provera shot today and I think it was my hormones getting all out of whack. :dizzy: I remember a friend in England who was on the shot and about 2 weeks before she was due for another one, she would turn into a regular war horse! :tantrum: You couldn't say boo to a goose around her without her going nuts. As it turns out, she needed a break from the shot for awhile and she's fine now. However, if it did that to her, it surely must mess with your hormones. It IS birth control after all. I only have it because of terrible menses but the effects on your hormones are still the same regardless of intentions, right? :joker: Anyway, I'm due to get mine tonight so we'll see how it goes.

IBS is the most terrible thing, isnt it? :barf: I don't have acid reflux but I did suffer terribly with over production of stomach acid, which made me feel ravenous (even when I wasn't hungry) and it hurt a LOT! Way back, when the doc put me on Prozac for my eating disorder, those pills would get lodged in my throat sometimes and burn for all ****, :flame: so I think I can relate to what it must feel like and I'm sorry. :sorry: Why in the world we put ourselves through this for the sake of crappy food I'll never understand. :shrug:

But, I'm pleased to say that I'm back on track. :dancer: My new shipment of supplements came yesterday and, for the first time, I've ordered some of the food supplements to try and curb my hunger. I have the oatmeal (vanilla berry and maple brown sugar) a box of Tropical Punch, some chocolate pudding and even one box of Caramel Nut Crunch snack bars (plus shakes, of course!). I needed a bit of variety because the shakes were getting sickly. :tied: So far I've had the oatmeal (which was good!) :T and the Tropical Punch (it was okay..) :halffull: and I'll have the pudding in a bit.

I was kind of upset today though. :mad: You see, I post on another board solely reserved for those people who are on Medifast. (No advertising here - I'm only on it for informative purposes of my program) I hadn't realized the shot thing yet so I was trying to see if anyone else had experienced severe hunger after being on the program for over a month and how they dealt with it. :tape: But, instead of offering support to help me through it, it got turned into this huge lecture session about me not having a doctor's supervision (because I'm doing the complete fast) and because I'm having 5 supplements a day and not 6. :blah: Well the damn book that came from the company says 5 or 6, and 6 supplements are usually for active people. Well I sit behind a computer all day at work :comp: so I'd not call myself very "active". I haven't even been to Curves this week. :o It just put me in a bad mood (I'm better now!) because I can't help it that I don't have health insurance. I specifically don't want to do the 5 supplements and 1 meal program because then I'd be looking forward to that 1 meal all day - thus focusing all my attention back on food, which I'm TRYING to break. :tantrum: No one could get this. Why is it SO hard for people to understand? :rolleyes: Things don't always work out as we'd like them to, such as me having no insurance, but damnitall I'm doing the best I can with what resources I have. You'd think they'd be all over me like white on rice to try and help, especially for that reason, but NOoooooooooooooo. They want to lecture and make me feel like I'm at death's door instead. Very helpful. :sp:

Anyway, I just wanted to vent that because it only served to enforce how glad I am to have found you all. :grouphug: Truly. It sounds so contrived and dramatic, but no one has EVER judged me on this thread or made me feel badly about myself and that is priceless to me. Thank you all very much! :hyper:

So, I think you all deserve a big pat on the back for dealing with whatever issues you may have in a positive and productive way, despite any slip-ups. We're only human after all. To err is human and to forgive is divine, especially to forgive one's self. :love:

Many hugs :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

Alisha :hat:

It's been a long difficult day. I'm tired and depressed at the thought of a long weekend without real food. Ah, well. I got myself into this state.
Melissa - good that you were conscious of what is going on. Once in awhile we mess up, but as you wrote, it's no excuse to continue on that path. I hope your weekend is better.
Ellis - I was diagnosed with IBS about 8 years ago. It was very unpleasant. But after a couple of years the pain disappeared and I don't have any problems in that regard. I don't have acid reflux but do have gastroparesis, which means because of my diabetes my stomach muscles don't operate normally. If I don't take medication I wake up in the morning with the previous night's dinner still in my gullet. I hope you can work out a balanced diet that will ease your discomfort. A :grouphug: to make you feel better.
Alisha - I'm sorry you can't see a doctor, but I know very well what it's like without health insurance. I have it now but the bleeping HMO won't pay for my program so I'm paying for it myself. I'm not supposed to have apples either but I'm having one anyway. However, it may catch up with me since they take blood and urine tests every week and they'll find out I'm not in ketosis. May have to give them up. Sigh. What's with the pickles? Salt? I have to take potassium twice daily for the electrolyte balance. I'm taking liquid potassium which is by prescription. Are you taking anything. You might want to at least take some tablets. (No lecture intended.) I know what you mean about having one meal a day. I tried the Slim Fast Program doing Lean Cuisine for dinner. I started adding things to the Lean Cuisines so that the calories started adding up. That's why I am on this fast.
Well, chicks, time for me to head off home to do the laundry. (ick).

Have a good weekend.

Hi everyone!

I'm new and wanted to pop my head in and say hi! I love how you girls all support each other and help each other out....it's great to see!

Even though I'd been so stressed and feeling down all week I'd done well......until this weekend. I've done so badly with my eating, it really has been terrible! However, I'm going to try as hard as I can to pick myself up tomorrow and get straight back into my program. I mean, afterall, what else can I do? I can't take it back, all I can do is learn from what I've done and get straight back on track! Does anyone else really struggle on the weekends? This is something I really need to work on.

Looking forward to getting to know you all - it looks like you're all doing great towards your goals!
xxx

Blyss, welcome! :wave: We're so glad to have you join us. :)
The fact that you haven't given up but are starting afresh, proves you a survivor. :hat:
I'm with you tomorrow. I've committed to starting afresh (again, but that's okay), and I'm almost looking forward to it. ;)

Rosetta, are you getting through the weekend okay? :grouphug:
I hadn't heard of gastroparesis before. It sounds very unpleasant. :( I'm so glad the meds work for you.
Yes, the IBS comes and goes. I don't have it badly (as my sister does), but it does act up at times. Particularly if I'm stressed.

Alisha, how are you doing hon? :grouphug:

I'm off to have breakfast with a friend whose mom is currently suicidal. :( Thank God my own meds are working. ;)

Have a great day, girls! :wave:

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Hi all! This has been one busy weekend and I still have to work tonight...:p

I did see a few new names here when I quickly scanned over what I've missed...WELCOME, BostonMox and Blyss! You've come to a great place, I got here not too long ago myself and was made to feel right at home! The support here has been so good...I've had a banner week, scale-wise! Tomorrow is official weigh in, but preliminary peeks are looking good!

Gotta go feed the boys and try to sneak a nap in before work. I'll catch up tomorrow! Another Monday! :cp:

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Hey everyone and welcome to the forum Blyss! :wave: I feel your pain! :yes: I struggle a lot on the weekends, especially because I really don't do anything. I really miss having an active social life because, funny enough, that seems to keep me on track. However, because I refuse to go out until I get at least a good portion of this weight off, I consequently sit home all weekend, clean the house and watch TV. Those damnable fast food commercials... argh! :tantrum:

I think I need to start logging in more on the weekends to keep myself on track. :idea: It's kind of hard, though, because I spend my entire work day sat at a computer :comp: so, really, it's the last thing in the world I want to do on my days off. :p But, it's better than getting swayed by that pizza :jeno: or hamburger :burger: that dances across the TV every 5 minutes!

Rosetta, I'm glad you understand about the doctor thing. :thanks: It's very easy for people to say "you should be seen by a doctor" but they aren't the ones paying for the bills! :no: I should be getting a permanent job soon :crossed: (I'm just working temp at the moment) so I should have benefits in not too long. I don't expect them to pay for the program, but it would be good to have the monitoring. The pickles are, indeed, for potassium. I don't have any potassium supplements but I'm very in tune to my body so I can always tell when my potassium is low. I get it from the bouillon and the pickles but I may have a look in the health food stores to see if they sell any potassium supplements. :mag: I don't really know how much the apple will affect your loss, :dunno: but if you desire something crunchy, I know the pickles help me a LOT. Maybe ask your doc about them? Either way, I wish you every success! You're doing great!! :cp:

Ellis dear, hello! :wave: I'm much better today, thank you. I felt kind of badly having such a rant :o but I was really hurt and ticked off at the time. :cry: :mad: It's so easy for people to tell you what you should and shouldn't be doing when they aren't in your shoes... :foot: I just don't deal with preaching very well, regardless if it's meant in a helpful way or not. :bomb: I'd prefer people to just read what I have to say and then offer suggestions within the boundaries I'm working within. Everyone does that marvelously here and I'm so glad to have found you all. :grouphug: I'm so glad that you're starting again. :dance: I think you'll do wonderfully, especially since there is such a great support system on here. We all slip, but as long as we don't give up, we've won half the battle! :high:

Katrina - I'm so glad the scales are looking good for you! :cp: You've worked so hard and you deserve every pound/inch lost! Weigh to go! I'm excited to hear of your huge success so make sure you keep us posted okay? :goodscale

I don't weigh in again until Wednesday, but it looks kinda bleh from where I'm stood. I had one more slip over the weekend and I've decided this is it. I've been horsing around way too much and it's time to get back to business. :drill: At this rate I'll never get out and see the world! :sorry: And you know, the funny thing is that despite everything, the feeling sick :barf:and the terrible stomach pains :faint: the crappy food gives me, I still do it! But, what really makes me take note of the terrible strain I'm putting my body through is my feet and knees! My feet should be only a size 6 at most but because of all the weight I've been known to wear an 8! :fr: And they hurt! I was nearly crippled after the concert last week - just from standing! :stress: I have fallen arches (since childhood) and they have caused me nothing but grief. I have arthritis in the joints of my big toes and they have loss just about all flexibility so they hurt like **** when I walk. :sp: And, due to all the extra weight, my feet are much broader than they should be (they've always been slightly wider but not like this!!). :eek:

So, despite the whole health and vanity thing, I also need to get this weight off because (IF I ever get insurance) I'm going to see a doctor about possible surgical options to correct these problems. When your feet are out of alignment, they turn your knees inward and your hips... basically it affects your entire bone structure. Everything cracks and aches - I sound like a 90 year old woman! :cry: But, I can't even consider surgery until this weight is gone. In fact, I may not even need it once the weight and the pressure is gone. :shrug: One would think that this alone would be enough to make me stick to the program... bah.. but I'm getting there.. :tread:

Anyway, you all take care and keep reaching for those goals! :grouphug:

Alisha :hat:

Darlings, I'm just rushing off to the cottage to a couple of days.
Alisha, hang in there, hon. You're going to be alright. :)

Kat, congratulations on the good week!!

Sending you all much love and hugs... :grouphug: