OK, I am cheating a bit since it's still before midnight here.

Let's start this weekend with a meditation:

Hazelden Meditation Series

With abstinence, we feel both joy and sorrow more acutely.

We can dull our feelings by overeating and numb them by undereating.
Both are ways in which we anesthetize our emotions.

Most of us would probably rather not feel pain, but the price of
shutting down our feelings is high, since we miss having delightful
feelings as well as unpleasant ones. Many of us were so accustomed to
concealing our emotions that we weren't sure what it was we were
feeling or if we were feeling anything at all!

Once we are eating normally, we begin to experience more deeply how
it feels to be angry or sad or afraid. We develop a greater capacity
to feel joy and happiness. We find we can ride out emotional ups and
down and learn from them. It is as though we are waking up to a full
range of emotions, which are ours to feel and express.

*

Today, I will not hide from my emotions--they are part of me.

Hello, girlies! I just have a minute before I have to get to work around here.

I NEED HELP!!!

(Don't be alarmed, I haven't gone off the deep end with my eating or anything. Actually, South Beach is working very well for me. I've lost several pounds and my cravings and headaches are gone. Funny thing is that I didn't really realize I had cravings until I didn't anymore. Weird, huh?)

My computer is acting really freaky. Pop-ups all over the @#^% place and I can't get to my email. (That's why I've been out of touch, Miss Chris!) Apparently I've got some spyware on here and I can't get rid of it! Any suggestions? I know I can download a thingy to get rid of it, but how can I pay for it online if someone could get my credit card number because of the spyware?!? This just pisses me off so much! There are only like three websites I ever visit on a regular basis and now I've got this mess on here. Grrrr! If I can't get it straightened out, we're going to drop the internet 'cuz this is just the kind of thing that has kept my paranoid DH from wanting to have it in the first place. Help me, PLEASE.

Okay, now that I've interrupted the flow of the weekend thread with my cyber cry for help, let me just say that I love you all and have been thinking of you. I'll be back to posting regularly if or when I get this mess straightened out.

So sorry,
Christy

I will ask my husband. He's the computer geek of the household. We had the same problem you're having, but I can't remember how we fixed it.

I just got back from my local diner. Brought my book, of course.

Ellis: I don't know what to do about the spyware. DH won't be home until tonight but I will ask him there (like Jennelle, my DH is also the somputer geek of the household).

OK, off to geek out with my online game.

Christy!!! There is a free spyware-attack-killer-thingy called "spybot" - do a search on Yahoo. I believe they "take donations" but don't require you to pay. Download it for free!!!

My day's been fine - went to an OA meeting that no longer exists, apparently. That's what I get for not calling ahead. I'll try to find one this week. I'll check back later, I hope.

Yeah, Christy, the SpyBot thing that Tracy recommended is good. (I'm the geek in THIS family. ) Just be careful when you use it that you don't delete anything you need. http://www.safer-networking.org/

Had a great first session with my trainer! More later... love you all...

LOL, I meant my post to be for Christy, not Ellis.

Having a nice, lazy game day here.

Me, too, Kat! I just played a couple of hours of Cleopatra.

Where's Chris today?

Online games??? People, don't you know there's BASKETBALL on??? Okay, I'm just kidding. But those of us down here in the ACC region have different priorities.

Actually, I've had a kind of bi-polar weekend so far. Yesterday, I went shopping BY MYSELF thanks to Mom, and had so much fun I was giddy. (Yes, I realize shopping can be a substitute for food - but I kept my spending in check.) This morning, I got up early to get ready for church, but the kids were tag-teaming me, and Matt wouldn't take his nap, and DH is in his hobby room, and the house looks like a bomb went off. I finally gave up. Now I feel annoyed and resentful, but I will try to deal with it productively - by cleaning!! Or that's the plan, anyway.

Hope everyone has a good Sunday!

GOOD MORNING!

Sorry ladies yesterday was just a really interesting day. I will dilvulge all details in my journal, but I went to my meetings, to the hospital to meet my SIL new niece, I had a new cousin born, I had some ice melt from around my heart (I thought Kat's meditation to start off the weekend was RIGHT ON!), alot of tears, and finally some quiet time where I was just accepting DH as he is All of this while keeping my abstinence and making loving food choice.

I got a hula hoop this weekend, sparkly pink, and I do really good in my underwear, for some reason I can't get the rythm in my jeans.

Tracy- take a minute to feel what you feel and then I find a nice round of the serenity prayer helps things get moving. I am sorry that the meeting was no longer going on.

Jenelle-How was spring break? Do you need another week? Did you ever get to go to a F2F meeting?

Ellis- I love you too, thank you for checking up on me. I love you gals!!!!!!!

Christy- Yeah get Spybot or whatever you need! I can't have hubby take you away otherwise I will have to write and call a WHOLE LOT! Ready to put your food plan in the mail everyday?

So how was everyone's weekend? I will be back, just treat yourselves with love on this beautiful Sinday morning!

Miss Chris

FYI: I finally wrote the March Step Thread, please come share your ESH!

Much love!
Miss Chris

Well, I got Spybot and my problem seems to be MUCH better. I've still got some pop-up issues, but they aren't choking my 'puter to death right now and I can get into my email again. I'm going to read some more about the program and see what else I should delete. I'm the closest thing to a computer geek we have at our house and my skills aren't so great! Thanks so much for your help, gals! Much appreciation over here!

Today is a good day. I cooked a lovely dinner and I am ready to relax a bit. I have a lot of school work to do (like always), but I'm not stressing over it.

Feeling kind of quiet right now. I'll check back in later.

Love you,
Christy

Chris - I didn't make it to a F2F. I did, however, attend an online meeting at 1:00 in the morning a few days ago. Thank goodness for it, too! I was working on Step 4 work and it really kicked me in the behind. My sponsor said she couldn't believe I tackled the biggest problem first. Thing was, I didn't mean to do it that way. I thought that this particular life event was something that I had dealt with and gotten over years ago, but it turned out that I was desperately, horribly wrong. I hadn't dealt with it at all - I ate it.

I'm at that point where I am bored with break, but not so bored that I actually want to go back to school. If I don't get the librarian position, I am seriously considering not teaching next year. I'm tired of the classroom. Of course, ask me again in a week and I'll feel differently.

We can dull our feelings by overeating and numb them by undereating, both are ways in which we anesthesize our emotions.

This really hits home with me.

I haven't posted in awhile but have been lurking about.