Break the Binge Cycle...Together! February 2017
 

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Come one....come all! Binge eating is something I have struggled with for almost all of my 45 years on this earth. I got things under control for a while when I lost a lot of weight, but here I am again.

I am currently on Day 11 and I am ready to take charge of MY life again! Food will not own me anymore! This thread is one I used to post back in the day and I made it over a year without a binge. I am hoping to be able to do that again and I hope I find some new friends along the way.

No matter where you are on your journey. You are welcome here! :hug:

I have struggled for 40 years! Food is not controlling me right now - I've been on the wagon since the beginning of Jan :carrot: Not weighing myself as my scale is broken at the moment but using my pant size again. I am finally starting to fit into clothes again but it will be another 60 days like this to feel like I am really getting somewhere. I was off the wagon for 4 months and it is amazing how much damage 4 months of binging can do (at least 30-40 lbs :o)

I am ok as long as I keep to the program but it is kind of like a drug addiction where I am ON or OFF the wagon. I heavily regulate every piece of food I put into my mouth but it is the only way I can control it. I am an emotional eater but not just for negative things! The other day a very exciting thing happened and my FIRST thought was "we should go out to dinner and celebrate". Fortunately we did not go and I stayed on track ;)

:welcome: Harriett!

I am the exact same way. I don't have to be sad to eat, I used to eat ALL the time. Happy, sad, scared, and especially bored.

Way to go for not going out to eat and "celebrate" :high: I have had those same thoughts this week. Tax refunds are due in and the first thing I want to do is take my son out to eat. I won't. So I am trying to change those thoughts with instead of going out to eat, I am going to the grocery store and MAJORLY stock up on healthy foods. To me, that will be fun too. Not quite the same, but I'm learning to find the fun in it again.

Welcome to the group! :hug:

Food is one of my favorite things ever. I'm not ashamed of it, I have a french heritage and cooking/eating is one of my families greatest passions. Like literally every get together food is the center and passion. We try everything, comment on everything, and judge everything haha.

Just because my family is obsessed with food I can't blame them for being overweight. That is my undoing and I think the biggest culprits are desserts and drinking.

I think my biggest undoing is the work kitchen. For example two weeks ago on friday, we had nino's pistachio jumbo muffins in. I think those things are better than crack. I ate one at my desk, then ate another in the kitchen a half hour later, and then a 3rd another hour later. It was probably at least 1,200 calories in muffins. I told myself it was OK because I could just eat a light dinner, but deep down I knew that wouldn't happen. Those huge muffins only filled me up for 3 hours and then I was in the mood for noodles. I tried to control myself but at dinner I ate probably 3 servings out at dinner with my friends with thai noodles.

*Sigh* and last weekend I'm not even sure how much I drank saturday night. Normally I wouldn't have dranken THAT much, but it was like every annoying person I know (and there really isn't that many) had decided to join us for the evening at my friends birthday parties and sit next to me (there were 2 parties back to back). If I had to guess: 2 glasses of wine, part of a beer, 4 shots of whiskey? haha. Lordy may. I got on the scale the following day and almost fainted (I'm sure most of it was just water).

So I probably won't drink like that again for a while at least.

Anyway I'm just writing to ease my mind, because it's Friday again. The kitchen has got vanilla cupcake and apple turnovers. And I'm just here eating my banana like =__= because I am SO hungry after my hard work all week, but I gotta save those calories because it's my Dad's birthday celebration tonight and we are going out.

People stop celebrating your birthday!!! JK These birthdays are killing me.

I've been doing really well over the last six months I can't remember the last time I binged maybe twice in the last 6 months, I did find on Friday when I knew I was going to a party my frame of mind switched but I did do some damage control; I did buy some junk food but it was 1 serving of crisps and 1 small portion of chocolate on Friday and Saturday and my boyfriend did get fast food but I had some of his rather than get some for myself.

That's a big improvement on previously buying multipacks or getting take out anytime my boyfriend was getting it.

I Never Really Realized
 

I never really realized how I ate at night. I am always full...but I kept cramming things into my pie hole. I have been tracking calories and I actually am fine all day until around 8pm...then in an hour I will eat as many as twice the amount of calories in that hour as I do all day.
So, now I just make a conscience effort to knock it off. It is not easy. I am trying to get back in shape, take control of some of my ridiculous habits..one of them being this 'eating a buffet at 8pm', as my husband calls it.
The other day my daughter brought home a box of Girl Scout cookies. My daughter hands me THE BOX. I was like "Wait, how many calories is in a serving?" I can eat a few cookies...I just don't need to eat the whole dang box! She read the serving size to me and then gave me three cookies. She kind of giggled and waited for me to tell her to give me three more..but I did not. Those three were delicious and it was enough.....I did have to tell myself that about ten times in 20 seconds, but I only had the three cookies.

Just working out a bit everyday and being aware of how many more calories I DO NOT NEED in a day is helping me lose weight and keep myself in check. I have been at this since the end of December and I can see my shape changing very slowly! But...it is a struggle.:carrot:

I've binged pretty much since I was 16. It was mainly because, due to my social anxiety, I hardly ever went out. But being at home, I got bored so started snacking. When I went to university, I still binged, but not as much (mainly because I couldn't afford binge food). Now I'm noticing that I'm doing it again and once again, it's because I'm home, alone and bored.

I've started going for walks when I get that craving feeling, but there's only so many walks you can go on every day XD

Hello ladies it's friday again and today it's bagels...hahaha. I really am a creature of habit I have this agonizing craving to binge every friday at work it seems. I'm allowing myself one cheese bagel with no spread for lunch (not really a sacrifice since I'm not really into spreads). I keep thinking about how nice it would be to eat 2 although. They have the cinnamon sugar ones with the crunchy topping I love (although 2nd place to cheese). My stomach is grumbling and I'm making myself wait till 11:45 to eat my bagel. Which is less than a half hour away, but I want to eat my hand at this point rofl. Whhhyy do fridays make me soo hungry??!!

Checking in again on Friday. Mentally preparing myself for the weekend ahead. I managed to dodge the entenmann's donuts in the kitchen (no easy task) but started feeling very wilt-y plant around 3, like crumbling apart from hunger lol. I had some better made bbq chips I found in the kitchen, and I perked right on up. I have to be very careful tonight though, I am buying chinese food, my boyfriend is getting desserts, and we are drinking doing dungeon & dragons. I'm DM-ing for the first time and have to admit kind of nervous and dreading it a bit. I think the best way to have a good time and not go over my calories is prioritize wine over eating haha. No, but seriously.

Just trying hard to get back on track, Valentine's day was kind of a mess for me and even though it was one day I feel like I gained 1,000 lbs.

Hi ladies! When I saw this thread, I knew I needed to join. I can relate to everything you've posted. I have done much better not binging since I joined 3FC towards the end of January...the accountability is helping. I tell myself I'm not a human garbage can that all the food in the house has to pass through. I can throw food away too...it doesn't have to be eaten. Wine is my downfall too, though I've gotten to where I drink it only once a week. When I drink it, I get hungry and don't have has much control over my eating. Well, there is all of my dirty laundry...I hope you'll still let me participate. :o

I'm joining as well because right now I really want to binge. I'm having a strong desire to go out a get a couple boxes of oreos and chow threw them until I hate myself.

Hi I'm new to weight watchers just joined two weeks ago. My husband and I both have a bad habit of overeating. Bad timing to start weight watchers around Valentines, as we went on our annual valentines weekend getaway and ate way too much. After much drinking, and being buzzed we decided to take a walk and it just so happened there was a melting pot right around the corner of our hotel. Being the chronic over eaters that we are, and having had too many drinks, we could not stop ourselves from getting the late night special of cheese and chocolate fondue with a bottle of wine. It was amazing ya'll, but I woke up with so much guilt the next morning, it really was not worth it at all. So we blew through all of our daily and weekly points just in 2 days, wow I have never been so disappointed in myself. This week starts a new week and we hope to do much better!

:spin::lol:Hello ladies I'm back...with some kinda miracle I survived the weekend. I thought I had destroyed myself for sure. Ended up having 3 glasses of wine friday, 6 on Saturday, and 1 on Sunday....lordy mae!

I tried not to eat a lot of actual food to supplement the wine and ice cream sandwiches I had. I ended up losing just a nip, but so much better than gaining!

Um...don't be like me. :dizzy:. My goal for next weekend is to eat like a normal person and maybe only 1 bottle of wine all weekend :D:hat:

We had a notoriously huge peking duck dinner, which basically all dripping with fat except for the highly absorbent pancake things we ate with it. :lol:

Binging is not something you break. Binging is something that happens because of dieting. The harder you diet, the more you'll binge later. It's a total set up, the exact way you try to get rid of it is the very thing that makes it stronger. Willpower and white knuckling has nothing to do with this. More importantly, weight loss has absolutely nothing to do with it, if you truly have BED weight loss does not guarantee that you won't binge again and in fact it usually causes more binging behavior in the long run.

As someone who has had BED since I was a teenager, I can attest to the fact that binging held a purpose in my life for a long time. It sprung from a desire to comfort myself and take care of my own needs in the only way I knew how back then. I fell into a habit of binging in response to everything in my life - stress, sadness, joy, loneliness... everything! And it stayed a habit. Purposefully not dieting has brought back a lot of sanity in my life, though some of my food habits were a lot harder than others to break, and some of them are hard still. After stopping dieting, making peace with food, and learning to love my body as it is I was ready to tackle the last bits of my addiction to binging. I read Brain Over Binge and The Little Book of Big Changes and everything is coming together in my food life. I am seeing my last bits of the habit going away now, steadily and easily.

Hey all! I've popped in to 3FC a few times over the past several months, but have been so bad about staying. I really hope I can make this site a daily habit :)
I had a few really good days last week and thought the momentum would stick, but, of course, I fell of the wagon.

I don't have too much weight to lose (170 now, GW is 150), but if I don't change my habits now, I'll keep gaining. Tomorrow will be my fresh start. I have to get out of the house more or get back into my hobbies. I really want to develop good habits and feel healthy, but when push comes to shove, I always go for a box of pasta :(

Hello guys! Friday again...xD. The kitchen has blueberry paczki and lemon muffins with crumb topping. I actually am not that tempted today, not because the food doesn't look delicious, but after like 4 fridays of not having anything I've kind of gotten use to the expectation that I'm not going to eat anything.

The weekend is coming full steam ahead. I don't have any big plans though this time, so I am expecting a quiet weekend of good decisions.

I love pasta too

Palestrina. I see you have a quote by Geneen Roth. I really began changing my relationship with food when I read her book 'When You Eat at the Refrigerator, Pull up a Chair'. I started paying attention to when I'm hungry and when I'm not after reading her book. I'm going to look into the books you mentioned too. I don't binge like I used to, as I eat a lot of good food and not diet food, but when I feel a binge coming, I can't figure out how to stop it.

bloominbutterflies. I don't know what blueberry paczki is, but it must be good! Have a relaxing OP weekend!

Helianthus I hope you pop in often! :)

Have a good weekend everyone...be kind to yourselves. :hug:

At first, I thought my weight gain was just depression, but I am also noticing problems with binge eating.

Today was a big day for me. Lots of changes. I came back to 3FC after a long time away and created a new username. I also clicked on the information for Overeaters Anonymous. I listened to the first podcast (Intro/Step Zero) and I even started to journal.

My biggest fear is that I will quit again like I have so many times before. I have to do something different this time. I want to be successful.

My new username, ThinkAgain, inspires me to break my normal thinking habits about food.
Instead of thinking, "I don't feel good, so I won't work out" I will say to myself, "I feel better after I work out, so I will go to the gym"
Instead of thinking, "Food makes me feel better" I will say to myself "What's wrong? Food is supposed to make you feel full, except you still keep eating."

I hope this works. Thanks for letting me share :)

Did some emotional over eating today. I'm ok now, but I'm checking in accountability wise because I know it needs to stop here and now and doesn't become a marathon binge. Just having doubts about my relationship, if it's good for us...where we are going, what I want in life etc. Yuck. I got like 5 hours of sleep last night. I ate a big bowl of ice cream and 5 dove chocolate squares. Overall the damage is OK if that was my splurge for the week. Gotta get it together.

That is tough. :( How long have you been together? :hug:

Thanks for the hug! 2 years and some change. It's hard because he's so nice, but I'm not sure if I really see a future for us or not. :/. Our relationship seems really slow. As this point I am unsure what I want in the next few years so I'm figuring that out first.

hey all!

My name is Larissa, and I am a recovered binge eater! I used to really have bad problems with compulsive eating, I have had some periods of control but eventually it would always come back and even when I was not explosively binging I was always eating, no matter the emotion. I couldn't stick to resolves at all, even if the resolve wasn't dieting and restricting, but simply just to eat 'normal'. But I've found a solution that enables me to stay recovered day to day, as long as I work for it! I wanted to offer my help, if anyone wants to see if it works for them please shoot me a message! I'm not trying to advertise a diet, for me compulsive eating was a mental problem and now I'm trying to help fellow overeaters to recover, so if you're interested please pm me!

Love,
Bee