Feeling vulnerable
 

First of all, I apologize if this isn't the right thread. I've been struggling with my weight for SO long. Since 13 and now I'm 24. Recently I've feeling very big, as if I gained all the weight I lost.
The last time I weighted myself i WAS 49KG.
I took this pictures today, also what is really bothering me (probably some people would love this, but I don't) are my hipbones, because they look like fat rolls or at least that's how I see them. Makes my body look weird. I am trying not to do something idiotic again like binging or starving but I want your opinion.

Please be honest (very honest) towards my body-shape. I don't need fake "you are thin" if you don't feel like that.

Thanks.

Sorry for the mess of the room >_<

I need advice, motivation...dunno. I don't want to fall again in bad habits. I do yoga and try to eat healthy. I think I just don't see myself the way other people look at me.

You say that you've been struggling for a long time with your weight. I wonder if what you really mean is you've been struggling with your body image. I think you need to get to a place where you feel good about yourself. Is seeing a therapist an option?

I did seek for professional help but I couldn't afford it anymore. I was doing better with the acceptance of my body, being very overweight and then dropping the kg its hard also, to adapt. What do you think of my body, honestly? I feel out of proportion.
Thanks for the reply.

It sounds like you must not live in the U.S. Do you have free support groups such as Overeater Anonymous or similar over there? I think you sound very insightful and like a lovely person. I don't think you'll find the validation you're looking for here, but it doesn't mean anything about you or your appearance at all ❤️

I find beauty in all women. The problem is you don't find the beauty in yourself. This is a mistake and you should take care of it now while you're young or you will spend the rest of your life criticizing your body for no reason. The idea that there is something wrong with your hips is absolutely only in your head, I don't see anything wrong with your pictures.

Women are very insecure with themselves and we need to put a stop to it. Just last night I saw a friend and I complimented her on her lovely eye make up. She said "thank you but i have too many wrinkles, I need plastic surgery."

So, even if I compliment you unless you believe it yourself it doesn't matter.

I will be honest - you are definitely thin. Are you trying to tone up muscle-wise?

You're thin, with some womanly curves in your hip area. That's as factual as I can get. There's a lot to celebrate in this body type. (Mine is similar.) Rather than focus on your body's "flaws," I suggest you teach yourself to appreciate it. Life's too short to dwell on "imperfections" that nobody even notices except for you. Have fun with your body! Use it, own it, enjoy it! Remember: LIFE'S TOO SHORT.

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I agree. You seem to maybe struggling with body image (like a body dysmorphia of sorts). You're thin and that is honesty. Perhaps you see yourself differently than the rest of the world. I would try to find some affordable or free resources to work on this because from the sounds of your plea for validation, you may creep back into the bad habits that you mention you had before. The first priority should be your health and those habits will only make your health go downhill. When you concentrate on getting healthy mentally as well as physically you will probably start to see what it is that you want to see, which is the beautiful woman I see in those pictures:)