I am reposting this thread. I first posted it last week and came back today to meet it closed down because in the meantime some (surely well meaning ) folks have turned it in a battle ground, debating their weight loss philosophies.
This is supposed to be a post about some reflections for my own future reference and also perhaps as inspiration for someone. This is not about calories or miles (and I believe this is the right section of the forum for that). Please keep the thread beautiful . Thanks in advance for your understanding.
Hi guys, just want to share a thought.
I've become very obsessed with my weight. I have always been self conscious because of my weight (even when I was thin). But right now it has taken another turn.
These days I'm always watching other women and paying constant attention to their size. On TV, on the street...everywhere. I can't help but feel envious of slimmer women. I has become systematic right now. So for a few weeks now I've been thinking:
After all, it's a body we're talking about. I can work on it. I see thin people and feel jealous. I used to be thin and quite attractive before life happened. There is a thin me and really the only person standing between overweight me and that thin me is ME.
It's my body; it's me. It's within me already. I'm carrying it about, covered in fat. So why can't I have it? I can admire cars that I may never have. I can admire houses that I may never possess. I can admire so many things some people have which I may never be able to own.
But this is ME. This is MY BODY. I can have it! I can own it.
I would be mad if someone tells me: Look at that body? You can't have it. But right now I realize that I'm the doing who has been saying this and doing this to by body. It's my own body, so why can't I have it? I have it within myself and I have been envying people who have it!
