Nice reframe on that one post davina. Keep trying to do that. I know the mindset change is the hardest part.

I've been off the wagon too probably why I haven't checked in.

Not a great and not a totally terrible Christmas dinner. I didn't eat a lot of dinner but it wasn't vegan and I always feel like I have to eat it anyway. My aunt even made a dish that I supposedly love but it is full of cream and cheese and wheat, all things that I can't or don't eat.

I actually did eat those things though. ugh

Back at it tomorrow. Clean eating January here I come (starting now).

Kept under cals even though I ate chocolate. Probably more chocolate than I should have but I didn't eat the box or allow it to turn into an all night eat fest.

Very depressed over my mark. 62.5 on my final paper for a final mark of 76 something. I did have an A+ GPA until now.

Ame -- I'm sorry about the disappointing finish on your paper, I hate when that happens, hang in there!

i don't know what's happened but it feels unstoppable at this point. all of a sudden with the bingeing again..I had 2 fast food combos in a row today, 1 drive thru to the next.. and now im just looking for more food to eat for dinner.I cant even imagine eating how I was just 2 weeks ago anymore, 3 proper meals a day...what is a good first step do you guys think?
because I can't seem to stop. Ive had intermittent binges over the months but have managed to eventually go back on track, this time feels different like my old mentality came back and can't stop eating.

I know what you mean davina. It is so easy to go from normal eating back to emotional eating, bingeing or whatever.

Hi davina, I'm sorry you're having a rough time right now. This might sound cliche, but when I feel in the grip of old eating habits, I try not to directly fight it--usually makes me want to eat more, and get more frustrated with myself. Instead I try to ride it out & be curious about what I'm trying to take care of by eating. And most of all, I avoid making any sort of 'tomorrow I'll really hit the diet' thinking. I know I feel best when I eat well and am not foggy-brained from sugar, but sometimes a different need takes precedence.

Emotional turmoil triggers me to binge sometimes, but so too does letting myself get hungry. I can go for a few days on mild restriction and feel great and then BAM, I binge. Is it possible you got a little too hungry? The emotional part is really tough, esp. this time of year, imo. Hang in there!!!!

Originally Posted by mars735:
Hi davina, I'm sorry you're having a rough time right now. This might sound cliche, but when I feel in the grip of old eating habits, I try not to directly fight it--usually makes me want to eat more, and get more frustrated with myself. Instead I try to ride it out & be curious about what I'm trying to take care of by eating. And most of all, I avoid making any sort of 'tomorrow I'll really hit the diet' thinking. I know I feel best when I eat well and am not foggy-brained from sugar, but sometimes a different need takes precedence.

Emotional turmoil triggers me to binge sometimes, but so too does letting myself get hungry. I can go for a few days on mild restriction and feel great and then BAM, I binge. Is it possible you got a little too hungry? The emotional part is really tough, esp. this time of year, imo. Hang in there!!!!

thank you so much for reminding me of this. what you said makes a lot of sense.these past few days all ive been thinking of is planning strict eating, looking up paleo lifestyle and considering laxative tea to 'cleanse' my system. . I am not recovered from binge eating/overeating and know that it will be a long and challenging work in progress. it's just scary how quickly the mindset can change. as in before i would binge and be able to move on and now I feel i am in my old eating place where it feels impossible to stop..but even then back in february i did manage to stop and i have to believe i will do it again. thanks Mars735, AmethystJean and Mrs snark for the support:hug:

Back at you davina! :hug: Fwiw, one thing that helps me find my way back from a binge is to follow it with whole foods that I like, without limiting the quantity. Once I get free of cravings and am happy again with healthier food, I can tinker with the amounts (though not in a way that tries to compensate for the binge).

I agree. I would eat whatever I want as long as it's healthy, rather than trying to restrict because that would set you up for a binge again.

Originally Posted by mars735:
Fwiw, one thing that helps me find my way back from a binge is to follow it with whole foods that I like, without limiting the quantity.

That is EXACTLY the strategy I've used, and I swear it broke the cycle for me. I ate like a king the whole week after my last binge (which was a long time ago, at this point!) -- but all healthy, non-trigger foods. I honestly think it made all the difference in the world for me.

Hang in there Davina (all of us!)!

Also, I am very glad to see you back, Mars -- I forgot to say that because I'm so easily distracta.... OH LOOK A SQUIRREL!!!!

Hi Mrs Snark, and thanks! It's really good to be back reading your posts and everyone else's too (in between distractions, lol)! Still have to watch my web time so my eyes don't get dry again. Wow that's SOME Squirrel! :mouse:

my entire holiday season has been one "I'm going to eat this meal plan today...(SQUIRREL!)" haha! seriously. I'm having a hard time reeling it in. I'm hoping to stick with my calorie range this week, made a meal plan I thought would work and I've reached my max cals by lunch. doh!

Ortega flats taco things with beans and tiny trimmings add up! Now I have to decide if I go ahead with my roasted veg planned for dinner or not.

It's nice to see people checking in. Good luck getting back on plan Davina. :hug:

lol cool mom

Ate chocolate today 2 pieces. Did not eat the box whoo hoo
Under cals and exercised like a fiend. First 5k without stopping since my injury. Plus a chest workout and walked to work. Looking at negative calories for the day at this point!

Hi Cool Mom, Sounds totally familiar! I think it will get easier soon. All in all I think I am happier with peaks and valleys of indulgence--keeps things interesting, lol.

AmethystJean, wow, that is some workout! Congrats on just 2 pieces of chocolate!