:hug: again, Mazzy. And at the risk of sounding like a proseltyzing zealot :), I'll just say that the more you've shared (here, and in the great advice you have given to others on the forum), I think that book recommendation might be really, really apt. Tolle deals very much with we create so much suffering for ourselves with the mental chatter - our mind-made delusions, if you will. And even our attempts to get out it can be one more level of reinforced suffering -- because it is so very hard to break free of these mental patterns. While I'm not Christian, I found very moving and fascinating how he related so many concepts back to specific teachings of Jesus. Anyway -- wishing you inner peace. It is a struggle.

Desiderata ... I just read the synopsis and overview of A New Earth on Wikipedia, and it does sound quite a lot like what I'm going through. I will definitely check it out more thoroughly on Amazon when I get some time to read more into it. Very much appreciate the suggestion and I'll let you know how it goes!

EDIT: I decided to purchase the Power of Now. It is definitely what I was looking for...So appreciative of your insight. Would send you a direct message if I could figure out how...lol