So I binged on Cinco de Mayo but not on Mexican food, it was my first time eating Thai food! :lol: It was dang good too. But anyways, I've been back on track and have not binged since, so I'm on Day 4 of being binge free for May!

Something surprising has happened! I was not binging but my eating was not all healthy... Anyway, as i am maintaing my weight, I did not want to obssess over it. Yesterday I enrolled for a 4k race, my first (yay), and I entered "a new mental zone": I am training to race, and therefore... I sleep longer, I drink more water, and I am not eating junk at all! I am back in my very very controlled days, when food was just food and not love! LOL Hope everyone finds they "good mental zone" and can make this happen, because it feels great to be in control of oneself.

Wow, Ingelsita64, that is fantastic to view food just as fuel. Yay you!! Have fun training for the 4K! Exciting.

I wish I logged on to this board when I wanted to binge instead of binging. Last night and the night before I binged late at night. I didn't enjoy the food or find comfort. I think a couple of things set me off....I went to a birthday dinner on Sunday night and there was tons of pasta and I let myself have some -- thought it would be good to eat a trigger food in public -- but, pasta is an extra-strength trigger for me and I really need to avoid it for now.

Good luck to anyone struggling today. And to those who are on a healthy path: Hooray, keep it up!

Alright, I'm joining in! The beginning of May has NOT gone well for me. I'm determined to turn it around.. tomorrow starts day 1 of no binging!

Day 2 for me in the forum. So far tonight have not had any snacks after dinner. Having folks here who understand, and being able to share my success and failures, is comforting, and is helping tonight! Thank you all just for being here! And props to all of you for your hard work and inspiration!

Hi, I haven't posted in a long time. I lost about 75 pounds in 2011 which I've kept off. Actually at some point I even got down to my all time lowest of 120.But since the last week of March I've been bingeing. I saw 132 today on the scale. This needs to stop now. I know it's almost mid-month but I need to join for accountability. Today I ate three chocolate chip cookies, a bagel, frozen yogurt with all the toppings. I've been eating my on plan stuff PLUS crap like this almost every day. It used to be I only had treats on the weekends and that worked for maintenance. But I don't know how to stop this new habit.

What could work is, rather than not eat when you feel like eating, eat more of the "legal" stuff. Go crazy with apples, or something else you like... In my case, it is hearts of palm, or pumpkin. After some days of eating only natural fook, artificial flavors won't be so attractive... An lower your carbs, in general. Don't eliminate them, but for some days, cut down on bread and pasta. That will reduce the cravings...
Good luck and strong will power to all new comers! Just 21 days to go!

Thanks Inglesita. That's helpful. Today I was at 127.8 which felt better though I know it's likely water weight swings due to consuming so many carbs. I don't want to focus on the scale as much because I get obsessed but feel like I have to in the next month or so while I get this under control. And in true pear fashion I feel like any weight gain went straight to my butt and saddlebags. It's barely noticeable to anybody else but I can feel my pants just a but tighter which makes me cringe. And truth is that I look better than ever, smaller clothes still fit me well, they are just not as loose as they were. I am mostly concerned with the behavior which is destructive because I have been hiding food and eating in secret and not even enjoying it. Just like an addict. I am going grocery shopping this morning and restocking on whatever healthy stuff I want.

I lost weight the healthy weight. This craziness started because I joined a 90 day challenge at the gym and the interesting part is that it wasn't as much restricting what I ate because I actually increased my intake to fuel my workouts, but I think the pressure of having a time limit and somebody checking my food log and stats. I finished the challenge, got down to 120 and 15% body fat and then rebelled. UGH I should have known better. I have to do this on my own terms no pressure. My goal for today is not to binge today.

Still going strong on Day 6, I have an outing plan for lunch with my friend at Panera, and I already planned what to eat (fat free black bean soup with an apple). Also I am going to make some filling and nutrient dense for dinner. I saw a great recipe for a zucchini and squash with parmesan cheese baked, and then I am going to whip up a little something for the main course.

Weekends are very hard for me since there is always opportunity to eat out or celebrate and I always want to make something super good for my husband and I over the weekend, so I am starting to get favorite recipes and tweak them to be cleaner, more nutrient dense, and not over plan!

Pink Hurricane, Charin, both of you write about similar things: trying to find a way to keep eating clean in a world which presses us to be perfect and also presses us to eat things which only benefit big companies and not us. It's a difficult world!
If each of us could find that which suits our plans, and stick to that, it would be great! To me it is, for now, joining a race and not wanting to arrive last --which is what I fear may happen LOL. I am behaving like a sportsperson, which means mindful eating, water, good rest, exercise. I am not thinking of losing weight, thouth I notice my clothes are looser.
Try to find what works for your life plans, that which will make you want to eat food which is good for you but as part of something bigger. Concentrating only on the scale or the way we look --"I want to lose weight because I am too fat"-- may not work for all of us, or at least not for long enough. Maybe we are using fat as a shield, maybe we are not fat but "disordered" in our eating, maybe we like our bodies the way they are and people pester us and make us think we need to lose weight...
If we are suffering, we need to change our lives, not only what we eat. Eating should become, in my view, part of a bigger picture. How do you see it?

my food hasn't been good so far for may

Inglesita thanks for your words of wisdom. You are right, my bigger picture is breaking the cycle of diabetes and other diseases in my family. I also seek to increase the weights I lift. And I plan to run a 5k in the next few months, my first. So all of these goals should lead me to healthy eating habits. It's not about being skinny (hubby actually wouldn't mind more meat on my bones) but fit and strong. Sometimes I forget... Too much emotional eating lately that degenerates into a vicious cycle of sugar and carbs craving then rinse and repeat. Yesterday was a great day. I ate as much as I wanted of the healthy stuff. As much as I wanted. Snacks included Brussels sprouts, cucumber, cherry tomatoes , plum, grapefruit, banana, etc. I ate close to 2,000 cals if not more! And today I weigh 125.8! I must have had some major bloat from all the junk I've been eating. Oh and I noticed myself eating mindlessly some light popcorn my kids left and when I realized it I was able to stop and throw the leftovers away! That's a big thing as lately I've been eating leftovers like I was the trash can. Anyway thank you for your support. My goal for today is to not binge but to nourish and fuel my body with as much unprocessed food as possible. Have a great day!

Mrslosingit, my food was crappy all month until yesterday. We can turn this around :)

There has to be something to healthy food that puts us on track. I stayed up watching a movie and got hungry at 3 am, so I ate 3 bananas, went to sleep, slept in like a baby, and got up to a lunch of whole wheat crackers. I'm not hungry at all, have half my calories to spare, and feel great!

:hug: Hey chicks! We CAN be binge free! I send my support to all of you!!

I am doing pretty well but oops, I did have another mini-binge... :^:

I think that the important thing is getting back on track after we slip and realizing that slips aren't the end of the world. Also, I am finding that preventing slips starts in the grocery store, restaurant, eatery, menu, kitchen, it is up to us what we put in our mouth! I know my mini-binge yesterday was because I brought something home that was a trigger food.

Well, here's to getting back on track!

It seems that so much of my food, especially snacks are gone within the first day or two of coming back from the grocery store. Does anyone have any tips on how to deal with that?

We can be binge free!! :D

i totallly messed up today...i binged on cookies, at least they were whole wheat and didn't taste so good but still. i was on my feet all day yesterday and today and i finally saw scale move two pounds down and today i binged. i knwow i underate yesterday and today but i binged because some people made me very angry and because my plans were spoiled and i felt very anxious.
i know tomorrow will be better but this anxiety and nervousness is always present and i hope it doens't push me overboard again.

I had a good day today. No binges. Ate everything in moderation and was able to stop without eating boxes full of anything :)

Yes, Missunshine, tomorrow will be better! Just don't look back and start over! As Seabuiscuit says, our secret lies in getting back on track as soon as possible.
I had a problem today: I went out to run 4k to train for my race, and felt too weak to run past 3k. I was really sad, because I have been eating healthy food, but then I realized that I had never been on 1200 cals and run at the same time. I started to run when I sarted maintenance...
So I ate a small dish of ravioli with no sauce, a peach and then jam, to get some energy. As from tomorrow, i will up my calories to 1400, to see if that makes it better...
I never thought I would have to up my calories! Live and learn!
I wish everyone a great week. Take it one day at a time, and eat as healthily as you can. And if you slip, get back on the horse... A slip may prevent a fall.

Good grief, I go nearly 20 weeks without a binge, then I binge. I didn't feel too bad about the slip because I was going through some real trauma in my life, and I got back on plan reasonably quickly.

So what happens? Less than three weeks later, I binge. A big-*ss, all day binge. OMG, you would not believe how much food I can pack in...:(

I think it is because I abandoned my plan of moderation, and started restricting calories - a big no no that causes me problems every time.

That was Thursday. Fortunately, I managed to get right back on plan the next day. Saturday was full of binge thoughts. The three foods I craved on Thursday (an apple fritter from my favorite donut shop, pancakes and pizza) I didn't even eat on Thursday so I was having binge thoughts about those foods all day Saturday. What a miserable day, but I got through it. Today started with binge thoughts but I got through them too.

It is so hard for me to binge mid-week because I always want to say "screw it, I'll start the plan on Monday" and then I binge all weekend. But I didn't do that so I'm proud of myself.

Hoping I can stay binge free for the rest of May and beyond...

Hi everyone. I've been hugely off track again lately and don't have time to catch up. Hope you're all doing well!

My eating has been consistently awful for a long time now. I've decided to start today on a big fresh start, and I'm feeling positive about staying in control.

I'm going to try and check in here more often to stay accountable. Here's to a good week.

i feel so bloated, sleepy and tired today. a bit depressed also, so many things to do but so little time, dark thoughts keep rolling in my head but i try to shhhs them away. :/ i can't wait for this week to be over.
so far i'm on plan and plan to stay that way.
i'm thinking of moving out in august, i like my current place but the roomates are sometimes very awkward. i found a cheaper and prettier place but a bit far from my uni. i'm going to check it out anyways.

so come on girls, summer is almost here, let's push it a bit more and stay positive and on track. ;)

I'm on day 6 of not bingeing and my boss just brought in tons of cinnamon rolls for the office. I won't have any. I don't like them that much anyway and I'll reread my list of reasons why I don't want to binge anymore. I won't binge today. I can totally do that. :smug:

Having another good day today. I loosened restrictions and I am eating lots of healthy stuff. when I added things up I am still well within maintenance calories. I frankly feel stuffed but want to make sure I eat every last meal so that my body/mind doesn't feel deprived and hopefully any binge thoughts go away.

I made it throught the office day yesterday without starting a binge with those cinnamon rolls - yay! Which means I am on day 7 of binge free! Just today and I did it for a whole week - yay :)

I had something of an eating frenzy yesterday night after yoga class though (first time ever, and this was power yoga, so I was sweating and hurting!), and I came back ravenous afterwards, although I had eaten before. Lucky for me, I was really craving a tomato-carrot-bell-pepper-chick pea-lettuce salad. I had to go to the store (danger zone if really hungry and already cranky) to get lettuce, but I did get back home with just what I wanted to get. So I totally overate on this salad, was feeling like shoveling it down and also was very stuffed afterwards, which is a feeling I've been trying to avoid. But hey, lesson learned: make sure you're really well-fed before going to yoga, and make sure there's food ready when you get back from class. And I didn't purge, which is ultimately the behavior I want to defeat anyway. So, I'm still counting myself as being on day 7 :)

It sounds like a lot of us are doing really well! Congratulations, everyone on the hard work!!

I am proud of myself because tonight I was about to overeat, then I took one slice of the food that I wanted and put it away, yay. The rest of my day was a bit unhealthier but that is something that I want to work on.

I went swimming for about an hour and that was a lot of fun, and hard work! :cool:

i've been on emotion roller coaster and binging for the past three days. i do great during the day but after dinner i lose it.
i'm hoping to break the cycle and i hope that pms is causeing me all this troubles. my stomach hurt bad yesterday so i'll be happy if i really get my period.
i just want to stay in bed all day and read but i have classes all day.


i'm glad yall are doing great seabiscuit, alizarin and charin :)

Hugs missunshine! I am literally taking it day by day. I had another good day yesterday. I am in pain because I hurt my lower back on Monday at the gym (going to the chiro today) and for a minute I thought about eating chocolate to soothe me. Then I realize I wasn't even hungry, just tired and chocolate wouldn't really solve it for me. But during the day I ate plenty of healthy wholesome flavorful foods. I am down to123.4 so I definitely had a lot of bloat due to bingeing and carbs overload (just last week scale showed 132). But just day by day, no restrictions, just positive thoughts around food. No food off limits. But I've just been at it for a few days so can't give much advice yet:)

I wanted to add/confess that my problem hasn't been only bingeing but on occasions purging. I would rather just binge and that is it, than binge AND then purge. But really I want to do away with both obviously. I have been treated for bulimia while in college years ago (I turn 38 in June) so I know I can overcome this again. I just want to be straightforward with you guys. My goal for today is to not binge or eat just because I am in pain.

I made it to Day 17... a record!

But that was 7 days ago...
these past 7 days have not been so great :\
They've definitely had ups.
But so much food. so much food.

Today is day 1 again. I had more peanut butter than I should have, but I gardened and walked a lot today! And I am trying so hard to not binge out on more, and am doing well.
Day 1, once again.

I want to lose weight so badly :(

Paintedponies you can do it!

Well today was good! Bought dark chocolate and was able to just eat 4 squares not the entire bar. And it wasn't a struggle either. One day at a time. Good night.

Another good day. Ate what I wanted in moderation. And you guys? Has anybody tried intuitive eating?

How is everyone doing in this merry month of May? Charin, I hope that your confession makes you feel better and more motivated to stay on track. I know it's a tired line but the first step to a solution is admitting you have a problem so I think it is great that you can be honest with yourself and us too. We've got your back ;). Well done on your chocolate victory too!
PaintedPonies, congratulations on 17 binge-free days! I love reading about that, even though you feel like you have slipped up, as it really helps me to realise that it is possible and it can be done. I'm very proud of you, that knowledge will help me to stay motivated today! Remember that it is just a temporary slip-up and you can get back into it - even when we are permanently binge-free we will still have off days!

I'm worried about triggering off major binges next week as I am going away for the weekend and I won't be able to exercise and I will mostly be eating junk. I've managed to keep all binges small this week and even avoided it completely a couple of days, and I'm so worried I'll undo all my good work. I've managed to lose 4 lbs over the last 2 and a half weeks.... I'll be devastated if I give up now. Hopefully that will keep me motivated. We'll see! I hope everyone else has a good binge-free weekend.

Complete and total failure. I just hate myself so bad right now. I have done nothing but binge since yesterday. I was doing so well, and then my body just went haywire so bad that my doctor changed my medicines, so much stress, severe pms/pmdd, hubby problems, kid problems etc. etc. But let me be honest here. It was my choice to binge, I knew every bite I put in my mouth was a mistake and I still poked it in there, sigh. Months of being good, down the drain. I could just scream. I have gained a little bit back weight wise and I am just so angry and disappointed in myself. God I hate me.
Back to the drawing board I guess, time to re-figure out a plan and start all over again. Sigh.

I am having one of those days where a bunch of little things are just annoying the crap out of me. In the past i would have turned to food...and food DOES make you feel better if you're frickin HUNGRY because you're on a diet. But i gave up dieting...so i no longer comfort eat...because the idea of eating food when i'm not hungry does not sound appealing. So food no longer helps. Just gotta deal with it!

i don't know what's wrong with me..all week long i've been binging after dinner even if i do great during the day. i'm anxious and nervous because of the exams and i got the oportunity to change apartment in august and i'm not sure if i should take it. i'm trying to relax with cookies and it doesn't really help and i keep on doing it. i gave myself an ultimatum to see how it goes tillt the end of the week and then on monday i start seriously losing weight, counting calories, not buying junk anymore and exercising more.
sometimes i feel like everyone around me is moving on and progressing just i am still stuck in one place.

I didn't do so well today. I overate! Oh well, at least I realize it and I want to change. Sometimes I get so impulsive and those cravings get so strong, ugh.

Well, there's no time like the present to make a positive change! ;)

Tubolard try not to hate yourself. Forgive yourself and move on. Missunshine and seabiscuit, we all have our bad days. Surfegirl I love your attititude. When I first lost weight it was eye opening having to deal with my feelings without food!

Ok so yesterday and today I probably had a bit too much peanut butter. But it didn't feel like a binge. i ate more than a portion but not past fulness or out of control or hiding, I just wanted to eat more I guess. And the dark chocolate bar lasted three days and was shared with my son. Normally I would have scarf edit down immediately by myself. Baby steps.

Starting over today, it's been a while...Day 1

I've been disgusted with myself. I binged a few nights in a row. Today I allowed myself to have a few pieces of 70% chocolate because I've been craving (milk) chocolate and decided to eat it in public and in a reasonable quantity rather than "deprive" myself and risk bingeing tonight. Today can be day two binge-free. Really want to be mindful and kind to myself.

The end of day 2... I'm feeling good!