It's torturing...
My eating disorder has never been that bad.
I lost 40 lbs, gained 50 back, I've chewed and spit, counted calories obsessively, starved myself, stuffed my face, lost my period for 1 1/2 years, clothes have grown and shrunk on me, and I know very well the guilt and anger I feel when a family member comes in the room when I'm mid-binge. Those mornings spent baking treats or making pancakes for my family weren't for doing something nice. They were so I could eat pancake after pancake (soaked in maple syrup, of course), spoonfuls of brownie badder, cupcakes, granola, icing, cookies...
But my eating disorder has never been that bad.
I've only been dealing with this for 3 1/2 years now, but my issues with food have consumed me. I can't imagine how awful it must be to struggle with this for an entire life.
I'm only 18. I'm still young. I need to break free from this cycle that I'm trapped in.
Thank you for sharing this article. I know it's not easy, but let's all transcend this food-obsession. Let's all become intuitive eaters. We can do it. We are all strong, powerful, beautiful women. Let's stop torturing ourselves.