So today is day 14 of my journey and this AM was my 1st binge. I've overeaten during a couple of meals so far but no real 'mindless-gotta eat-' indulgence yet. My drug of choice is usually bread and cheese and I gorged myself on 670 cal in 10 minutes
.And then I tried to go to bed. Let me tell you, that was not happening. I was miserable for hours. There wasn't any position that I could lie in without feeling nauseous and at about 4 AM I seriously considered just making myself throw up to get some relief. I didn't but the way I felt this AM really shook me.
Two weeks ago, had I eaten what I ate, I highly doubt my stomach and my mind would've rebelled so much- I was easily eating 3-4 times that much junk daily.
This feeling is why I really want to get control of my binging. I asked myself if those calories where really worth it and the answer was an emphatic NO.
I know that this one AHA moment is not going to automatically fix me but's its definitely a motivator for me to actively face my problem with food.
Despite my lack of sleep, I got up this morning and went to the gym. Packed healthy food for my day. Reaffirmed my goals, my motivations and my strengths.
I moved forward.
Have a happy binge free day all!
Faye
