Ugogirl- resist that peanut butter! You can do it!

Joss- good to see you are still doing well! My main goal is also to stop bingeing- I'm just hoping that my bum gets a little less jiggly as a nice side-effect ;-)

Mottainai- have fun and enjoy Japan!! And good luck!

I've struggled a little today, nothing crazy but just hungrier than normal and starting to feel like I do when I have to fight a binge all night. But I know that "I" don't really want to binge, so I won't... Its crazy how much power my cravings can have over me if I let them. Not today cravings! :P

9 days in and absolutely elated. I know 9 days may not seem like very long but I haven't felt so in control for a very long time. I can't wait until I lost track of how many days it has been since I last binged- and I am excited because I KNOW that I can get there. I love this feeling so much more than the numbness I feel during a binge. I feel so great.

Originally Posted by danzingurl77:
9 days in and absolutely elated. I know 9 days may not seem like very long but I haven't felt so in control for a very long time. I can't wait until I lost track of how many days it has been since I last binged- and I am excited because I KNOW that I can get there. I love this feeling so much more than the numbness I feel during a binge. I feel so great.

9 days is a long time for you, it's all relative! Don't downplay your accomplishment... you should be proud!

I posted a while back that I noticed I hadn't gone more than 10 days at most in the past few months, and that was HUGE for me! Not necessarily in terms of the time because I've gone months and months with no binge urges at all, but the REALIZATION that I created a habit of 10 days was huge.

I'm glad whatever you're doing (or not doing) is working for you!!

I'm still hanging in there. Had a couple of minor cravings yesterday but I haven't had any real binge urges in a few days. I think I'm on day 18 now... something like that. I am actually trying not to count the days I just happen to keep a food diary so it's easy to look if I want to. :D

Oh I love this idea! I know it's almost half way through, but I'm jumping on this bandwagon anyway! Great motivation to get through Christmas holiday parties with minimal binges!

Still binge free for December. 17 days in a row and still feeling confident.

:):):):)

Thanks Jossfit! And it's good and encouraging to see you doing so well also! :)

Kittykatfan- I'm hoping I can catch up to you soon! :)

10 days!!! Double digits!! After tomorrow I will have gone longer without a binge than I have in almost a year. *insert giddiness here*

Guys you have to read "Eating Less"!!!

It is similar to Brain over Binge, but it actually explains HOW to exactly fight cravings. I have been binge free since I read it a week ago!!!

Wow, what am epic failure of a day-

Some of my dancers performed today, one of them fell during the show and I ended up driving her to the emergency room for stitches... 4 girls costumes are covered in blood from helping her- we compete tomorrow, so i need a miracle to save my costumes or find 10 new ones... my stitches girl wabts to compete so bad but we had to take her out of the routines on the doctors orders. :( i feel terrible... she was under my supervision when she fell :(

DH is in the 10% of people who get some special kind of infection with their root canal and his pain grumpiness are getting to me.

Went to the doctor and was diagnosed with plantar fasciitis and achillies tendinitis. No more running for a while and 2 weeks with a super-stylish boot.


I could've at least eaten healthy foods and taken care of myself, but I threw myself a pity party instead.

But- 11 days was progress, and if I can go 11 I can do 12 next time- if that's what it takes...one step at a time.

Wow I am always so whiny on this thread! I am generally a happy person- maybe because I have this place to get all of my negativity out!!

Freebie- I am thinking about starting that book tomorrow!! :-)

Danzingurl, you still have been doing so great! I think you'll make Day 12. It seems like stress is your trigger. Maybe once you realized you are stressed, it might be helpful to have a plan for what you're going to eat later that night. Even if it is a "binge," it's better to overeat on veggies or if you're craving something sweet, two containers of fat free greek yogurt with chocolate powder and some sweetener mixed in. Sorry to hear about your special boot, but maybe the rest will do you some good. Good luck!

hi gurls, just a quick check how everyone is handling the most festive month of the year :P i really missed you guys.
you know me binging, binging, binging...i think it has become a must in my life currently. but i'm finally home for the holidays and i have to be good, especially after my scale gave me a reality check today...i gained almost 10 pounds since october and my bff was just bragging today that she lost 12 pounds sinche she started working in zara and i'm really happy for her because she has great body. i'm praying that my weight gain is mostly water and i wonder how come i can't notice this gain on my body, i mean yeah my pants are little too tight but i always wear them like that xD and my mom is cooking like it's her duty since i returned. i guess all the moms are the same.

danzigurl - you did amazing, 11 days is still a big step toward your healing. you know i think two steps front and one back is still better than staying in the same place and binging every day like me.
if anyone sees my willpower please tell her to come back to me!!!

Laceyj- thanks! You are so sweet. You are also so right- stress is a big trigger for me! (Sometimes it can feel like EVERYTHING is a trigger) but 11 days is a big step for sure!

Missunshine- I read the book "brain over binge" and it had a lot of helpful information and advice for me- maybe it could help you too? I hope you are able to turn things around soon! I think the deeper you get in to bingeing the more difficult it is to stop!

I ended up going crazy yesterday also :( I felt fat and depressed and mad at myself, an didnt even try to fight the urge. But I am back on track today and ready to finish off 2012 strong!

Hey everyone, still hanging in there! Well, not hanging per say... doing quite well actually. Still OP day 22 now I think?

I also started reading BOB and it's definitely interesting. I suppose I've always felt like I had the choice to binge or not, so it's not any huge revelation for me. I have never felt like I absolutely *couldn't* resist, it's just that I have some periods where I choose not to a lot more often!

I'm going to continue reading it today if I have some time.

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Danzingurl - You absolutely made strides over the past few days with regard to your binge free streak... keep going! I know that things fell off for you a bit, but you're right; finish 2012 strong! You have proven that when you choose to fight the urges, you can!

missunshine - Resisting the seasonal goodies is NOT easy, and as much as I miss my mom being around I'm glad that I don't have the added temptations. Truthfully my mom was never much of a baker and not at all a food pusher, but my Grandmother would seriously start baking MONTHS before the holidays and freezing it all in preparation; fudge, divinity, cookies galore... not even mentioning all the pies and dinners! I can care less about meat and potatoes, bring on the baked goods! :)

Hey guys - still standing strong and it is actually easy right now. I got so many techniques that actually help me. I feel that the mind is the most important thing to change. If I can shut up my mind I am fine. Once I start playing the "well you could have a pint of B&J and just have a shake for dinner" game I am done. I go crazy and eat all day - of course I not just have the shake for dinner and I am usually continuing this for a couple days until I get back on track.

The most important thing I got from the "Eating Less" book is that I have choices and I can eat what/how much and whenever I like, I just have to live with the consequences (feeling like crap, weight gain etc.). Weight is not my problem also, it is the eating that is my problem. I need to find more pleasure in controlling my eating than in losing weight, then losing weight will just happen as a result...

danzigurl-- yeah i've been looking for that book for a while now but it's impossible to get it where i live :/ i was trying to download it but i can't find any link. maybe i'll order it from amazon or ebay...i did read an excerpt of the book and it didn+t really convince me, like jossfit mentioned, it's not a big revelation for me either, i know why i binge and what my choices are, the problem is i'm always gonna choose the easy way and momentary satifsaction ( does that term even exists??)

jossfit-woow you're gonna reach one month...that's so awesome girl ;)

freebie- i'm so glad you found your way of dealing with it.don't even mention the mind game-that happens to all of us i think, it has to be all or nothing for me.

i didn't binge today but i did overeat a bit and my mom keeps sneaking chocolate candies into my room. she got them for her birthday and saved them all for me °_°

I liked brain over binge, but it was not enough information for me. It pretty much said "stop bingeing" and "don´t fight your urges". But I never understood HOW I do that. With "Eating Less" it is like finally somebody turned on the light at the end of the tunnel...I am still overeating and scared of bingeing, but I know how I can fight the urges and overcome them. I guess both books together and some of bethenny frankells advices in Naturally thin made the difference...

Big thank you to everyone for the support!! As far as "brain over binge" goes, I always knew I could say no- but I always felt like my binges were justified somehow- I had a bad day and "deserved" it, or I needed to focus my energy on fixing stressors before I could focus on stopping bingeing- so BOB was kind of a kick in the tush for me I guess. There is no justifying binge-eating.

I have a hard time separating myself. It did not work for me. It always feels like I truly want to binge. I don´t play the separating thing anymore, I set different goals now, take every urge as an opportunity to make progress. So urges to binge are good for me - they mean I get another shot on moving on.

With every urge I tell myself "I can give in if I want to, but right now I don´t feel like it. Maybe next week...". As soon as I play the "I will NEVER binge again" game all I want is binge. I postpone my binges right now and it works wonders. I don´t plan them, I don´t look forward to them, but I can be binge free this week. Next week? I don´t know, but it also isn´t important right this moment. What is important is that I say NO and move on with my day.

Just checking in to see how everyone is doing so far in December! If there is a hard month for binges this is probably it huh?

I'm still doing well; a glance at my food journal shows this is my 27th day on plan. I tend to have binge-y periods and totally binge-free periods, so I hope I'm settling into a nice long binge-free one! I'm definitely excited for my planned days off from counting (Christmas, maybe NYE?) so I can get some of the seasonal goodies, but I haven't had any real desire to binge. I am definitely feeling snacky and could kill some sweets but that's probably because I have been in a calorie deficit the last 27 days trying to shed a bit of fat.

Freebie - I feel the same way. To me, the idea of blaming an "animal brain" is sort of silly. I want to do the eating... it's me! LOL I can make the choice whether or not I will, and each time I have binged in the past it has been a conscious choice to do so. At times I have felt sort of 'out of control' and like I was outside of myself, but I still know I could have prevented or stopped any binge at any time.

I also tell myself to wait, or that I'll eat XYZ later as one of my coping strategies. Lately I've just been able to simply envision my weekly weigh-in and how disappointed I'll be if I deviate from my plan and see a gain or no loss for the week.

Danzingurl - I too have rationalized binges by saying that "I deserve it" because I lost more weight than I wanted, hadn't had a good day, etc. You know what? In some cases I probably DID need more calories, but it would have been much kinder to my body to space the calories out over a week or so... haha.

How are things going?

missunshine - I find it odd that your mom has been "sneaking" chocolates into your room. Why not just be open and offer them to you?


Hope everyone else is doing well! :hug:

Jossfit- 27 days, that's great! And you're right, December is tough with all the goodies EVERYWHERE!

I am having in here- felt like I wanted to binge last night and ate a whole carton of arctic zero over my calories but didnt really binge, so I'm counting it as a cixtory. This week has been extra hard because ya the last week of school- and my students (gotta love them) have been bringing me treats all week! I appreciate the gesture, but there are mountains of Christmas foods around my house that I don't really know what do do with!

haha jossfitt - i didn't express myself well...she isn't sneaking them without me knowing it, she brings them to me when i'm there. and she did it again this evening...a huge rice krispies chocolate which my sister who visited us yesterday brought to her.
my family is gone bananas. everyone is on the losing weight wagon... they used to tease me two years ago when i was losing weight and now when they're going trough what i went to i think they finally realize what it's like. my brother in law is drinking some shake supplements, something like quick trim. he did lose some weight but i told him that it won't be ok on the long haul because he gains as soon as he stops drinking them. then my other sister who is now pregnant and overweight has a pregnanancy diabetes and needs to follow a special diet but hasn't got a clue what she's doing. and her husband is also losing weight. they used to laugh at me for eating oatmeal for breakfast and now they do the same thing. it's so surreal for me and i know that they will probably gain back because they already plan what will they pig out on when they reach their goal. i tried warning them about all the bumps on the road and how to change their lifestyle but we'll se if they remain consistent. i feel so much more comfortable around them because they aren't focused on me and my regainment but they talk about their struggles and i try to help them because knowledge is power. :)
i've been binge free for three days and i feel so much more in control for now.

December 20 and still hanging in there...if I get thru the rest of the day (which I will!) I will be binge-free for 25 days in a row.

I left for vacation yesterday and am happy to report that, unlike all of my previous vacations and business trips, I have stayed on the bandwagon and haven't broken down and eaten everything in sight. Still early days, but I think this treatment program stuff is really helping me change my mindset so far. They were very supportive in helping to do everything they could to ensure my success on this trip.

I feel quite proud right now. I am doing my best with this moderation thing, but it has helped a lot. I am enjoying the foods I want but managing to stop eating at a reasonable point. I hope I can keep that going. After all, I still have 10 more vacation days to go...

But I feel very pleased with myself right now!

^^kitty congrats on 25 days,enjoy your vacation :)

for me today will be 5 days without binging. but i did overeat at brunch. when i woke up i had oatmeal, then some cookies and two leftover pieces of pizza that my mom made last night. i just did come calorie counting and i had more than 1000 cal and it's only 2 am. but whatewa, i'm going shopping now and i'll be busy all day so i'll be home just in time for dinner. i already went down 4 pounds since monday, guess i'm retaining a lot of water :/

Kittykatfan- great job!! I hope you are having a blast on vacation!

Missunshine- 5 days will be great! :) I'm sure you can make it!

Today will be 6 days for me, 1/2 way to my "mini-goal"

I definitely overate holiday goodies yesterday, but I didn't binge. I had waaaaayyy too much sugar... haha, but I stopped when I was satisfied and continued on with my evening. Success!

Jossfit- that is seriously a dream of mine- to be able to have a few treats without going insane on them! Keep up the good work!

Today will be 7 days for me! Next week might be tough because I will have so much time to kill-- school and dance classes are out until the 2nd! But I'm going to get through the entire break without one binge!

today is day 6 for me woop woop
it's also been one of the hard to believe days for me and my family. my sister, who i don't get along very well, called me in the morning if i could go shopping for a dress for my cousin's wedding with her and at first i couldn't believe she was calling me but i said yes and it was quite ok. we behaved as if there were never problems between us and she was very happy that i went with her. that is for me bigger progress than the one i have about my food issues. i hope i'll be able to built our relationship more now, the only problem is that i get along with her great when we are alone, but when all the family is around we tend to bicker a lot among us that's why i hate family reunions. ok that's out of my chest now, so i can focus on my weight problems. i'm planning to bake some muffins tomorrow, and usually i binge on foood i bake but this time my family is home so i won't get the chance to do it. and it will be a huge test for me. i keep telling myself that i have no reasons to binge, i'm free, i can read a stack of books that i have prepared and just relax and focus on myself. ;)

Missunshine- good luck with your sister! I know how hard family dynamics can be sometimes, it's a tough spot to be in. Great job on the 6 days! How did baking your muffins go? I'm sending you good thoughts!

Today will make day 8 for me! :-) I'm really feeling good- two long stretches in a row without bingeing is a huge step for me... Usually if I go 10+ days I'll follow it with several days of bingeing or only 4 or 5 days in between binges, so I'm really feeling good! :-)

I'm jumping in!
I've been struggling so much to relose all of the weight I've gained back.
Today will be another Day 1. I hope things will be different this time. I feel like I'm developing better relationships with food. I can do this.

Good luck to everyone over the holidays!

day 7 finished.
hehe danzigurl it went great, there are plenty left and now i just have to make sure i don't get crazy about them tomorrow. :)
for now i'm strong and determined not to binge while i'm home because i don't want to wake up bloated and i have to attend many parties and must be able to get into my clothes without sucking in my stomach all the time lol
thank you very much for your words of encouragement and i'm sure your positive thoughts helped me today. ;) i'm so happy for you and your progress this month. i know november hit us all hard. lets hope that january will be even better.

paintedponies- welcome aboard. i'm also re-losing the weight and it's much harder than the first time around. good luck and keep us posted with your progress

Paintedponies- welcome! :-) I hope this thread gives you the help and support you are looking for!!

Missunshine- glad to hear you stayed strong against those muffins!! ;-) a little better every month is all we can ask for!

Overate a little again today, but didnt explode into a full-on binge, which is my main goal. I've got to eat bingeing under control before I tackle these 5-6 pounds that have snuck on to my bottom in the last few months of bingeing. So- I still feel like I'm making progress. Even though my weight has stayed pretty stable.

Thanks for the welcomes :)
Unfortunately, things got really messy after dinner. Part of me has this "it's the holidays, screw it" attitude, which i hate. Just because it's Christmas doesn't mean I need to eat enough chocolate and cookies to make me nauseas.
I'll keep trying. And everytime I fall, i feel like I get a little stronger.

day 8 finished.

paintedponies- that's a great attitude :)

danzigurl- i think that's a big plus for being in control!

Paintedponies- good luck through the rest of the holidays! They can be rough on all of us!

Missunshine- congratulations on day 8!

I just made day 9. I think I may actually be figuring out what hungry and satisfied actually feel like. For way too long I have never found the happy place between starving and bursting full. The last few days, some I have had more an some less- but I've been tuning in to my hunger cues and lo and behold- I CAN decipher my hunger feelings. It's a Christmas miracle ;-)

Happy holidays to everyone!!

i was so hungry today and i just keep munching on stuff. it's not a mindless eating and i'm probably re-feeding a bit. i'm way over my calories but i don't care, i've been cleaning and sweating all day. :)

merry christmas to all of you who celebrate it today :)

missunshine- Those snacking days where you run around and do all of these chores are great :)
And happy holidays everyone!

I overate today. But it's okay, because I didn't binge, it's Christmas, and I am so excited to start fresh tomorrow. Intuitive eating, lots of fruit, and exercuse! And a generous scoop of motivation :)

Today was a success.
I did enjoy a couple of cookies and some peppermint bark, but I didn't lose control. :)
I'm not sure if I ate at a significant deficit or not. I didn't work out today (it's snowy/icy out, so my parents didn't want to drive), but I did get in some walking.

I'm so happy- I wanted to finish what's left of the peppermint bark, make granola bars (even though we have tooonns of cookies), have more leftovers, and other urges, but I didn't give in to any.
And tomorrow will be day 2!

^^^ peppermint bark- you are stronger than me to resist that!!

I ate a ton of food on Christmas but it was just because I wanted to- not because I "had" to... It wasn't sneaky and I don't feel guilty at all about it. Definitely binge-level calories, but not really a binge mindset.

I'm back on track today though :-)

I ate way too much of it the day I made it, so maybe that's why? :p

I definitely know that not-sneaky feeling. It's oddly empowering to openly indulge in food.

Today has been a little bit harder for me. I had a bowl of cereal for breakfast and some pumpkin pudding. For lunch, I had zucchini noodles and steamed kale (low cal but high volume food), then a pear and a kiwi, tons of popcorn (no butter, tiny amount of oil, too much salt), some chocolate chips, a cookie, dried cranberries, and 1/2 slice of bread with some earth balance vegan butter. I think that puts me around 1500-1800 calories.
It's okay, because I had such a strong urge to binge, but I satisfied it with 2 or 3 Tbsp of chocolate chips and one cookie (the last one that was left- thank goodness).
I walked for about an hour and a half, will go to the gym later on, and probably walk my dog, so I'm not too worried about the extra calories.

If I can get through today binge free, then I'll be happy. And I'll be visiting family for the next 3 days, so I'll have no time for binging.

i've been partying and eating way too much these past few days. my daily routine hac comepletely turned around...i wake up around 2 pm and have a breakfast, then dinner and usually when i get home in the middle of the night i get hungry and eat and go to bed. it's just a mess because of the holidays and i spend a lot of time with friends before i leave. i'm not going out tonight and tomorrow so i'm hoping to establish a new sleeping schedule after new year. today is day 2 since my last binge, but i'm not sure if it even was a binge, i was so hungry and i ate a huge rice krispies chocolate.

Paintedponies- how is your family visit? Famy visits are hard for me! I hope you have been able to enjoy your family and not stress about food!

Missunshine- how's that sleep schedule? I wouldn't count that as a binge- but, it's the feeling more than the quantity of food.

Today will be day 15 without a binge!! I ABSOLUTELY over ate on Christmas, but I wasn't an out of control freak, so I'm not counting it. I have had only 5 days out of my calorie range this month, it's a miracle! ;-)