I'm so glad you're going so well! You're very inspirational at the moment. I just need to get through one day without binging at this point. Having a $20 in your pocket, I probably would have given in haha.

Thanks, Amy!

I'm actually struggling quite a bit currently. Not with actually binging now, but with thinking about binging during the week! I feel myself slipping towards wanting to do it, and I can't quite pinpoint why.... I also have to confess here -- I booked myself a private room to use for binging forthe week after this coming one. This was exactly the enabling I'm trying to stop, not even focusing on not binging at all, but just on not making it so easy on myself. But I just can't bring myself to undo the reservation!!

I'm going to try to analyze related thoughts and argue against myself. Hope that doesn't make me sound too strange, talking back to myself! haha

"I've been on track doing well for so long, so it won't make much difference if I binge once or so now, and plus, I deserve a treat!"

......It's true I've been doing well and getting in better shape this week, and it's also true that one day of binging can't technically add more than a couple pounds. But, it will make a difference, because every time I give in, that's reinforcing the behavior and making it harder to resist the next time. And of course I deserve a treat, but not because of losing weight. II deserve to be kind to myself always, and I also deserve to give myself a real treat, something that's going to make me healthier and happier, not a binge which I know logically will only make me feel good temporarily and will likely cause disappointment and frustration later on.

"I don't really believe that I can give up binging forever. I'm going to give in at some point, so it doesn't matter if I do it this week. Might as well just do my best to incorporate it into my routine so that it doesn't mess with the rest of my life too much."

........It's not really relevant whether I think I can quit binging for the rest of my life. What's most important is the time now and whether or not I binge. Also, I can't actually predict how I'll feel and act in the future, because as I get further on the path of recovering from binge eating, my feelings about it will change and I'll be getting even stronger at resisting. So actually, even if I can't imagine it now, it's totally possible that in the future I'll feel differently and will be able to not even want to binge any more.