What Do You Hate Most About Being A Binge Eater
 

I feel that we are all binge eaters to some extent. Like on Thanksgiving Im planning to eat way more than I usually eat.(Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays)
What do you hate most about being a binge eater?

It's hard for me to narrow it down to one thing. I hate it all. I hate the out of control feeling. The not knowing when I"ll finally stop. Feeling completely beyond full to the point where I'm sick. The hangover the day after. The feeling of disappointment, failure and guilt. I hate that my closet has such a range of sizes, rather than having a more concise beautiful wardrobe. I hate that I'm trashing and abusing my body. I have to work out so much to make up for the fact that I binge. If I could have a normal relationship with food, I wouldn't have to spend so much of my free time working out. I could get a lot of other things accomplished.

That despite knowing it will make me feel like crap in an hour or two (or even while still eating it), I'll still do it and no amount of intellectual reasoning works.

@lucky mommy what are somethings you would like to accomplish? and just keep working at it eventually you will overcome it, you have alot of support here :)

@popspry yea emotions beat logic anyday of the week. Sometimes I say I'm not going to eat junk food and my mind is set on doing it but whenever I past by the fast food place I just feel like it pulls me in and is completely out of my control

I hate the weight gain part the most. Because you can forget the binge, but the weight gain stays.

Originally Posted by luckymommy:
The feeling of disappointment, failure and guilt.

All of this. I also feel ashamed of myself; and the feeling of self-contempt is really horrible

Thanksgiving came early for me this last 30 days, Seems like I ate everything around me. :( For me, I hate not having the control that I usually have in other areas of my life. I have how guilty I feel during the actual act, and not having the power to tell my self to stop.

Originally Posted by popspry:
That despite knowing it will make me feel like crap in an hour or two (or even while still eating it), I'll still do it and no amount of intellectual reasoning works.

This, exactly! And the 'out of control' feeling. Knowing that what I'm doing is only hurting myself but doing it anyway, and feeling that I NEED to eat it! And {at the time} feeling good about eating it because I CAN even thought I know I shouldn't.

Sloan, I agree with you. I feel like I have greater control over other areas of my life, but when it comes to eating I feel like I have no control {even when I do}. But even that's a cop out, I have control even if I dont' want to admit it.

The feeling of guilt after a binge, that and the toooo full feeling followed by the purging and emptiness

I hate the indigestion I get overnight and how it affects my sleep. I also hate the shame and trying to hide it.

Maybe I'm the only one who does this but I easily hide the amount that I eat from family and friends. No one noticed the first 12 reese's cups, 2 cupcakes, and 3 servings of salsa con queso I ate at our halloween party because I have been hiding binges since I was little! (and I had all of that within an hour) The only thing anyone really saw me eat was some fruit and veggies from the "healthy" tray of food...one of our friends even commented about how dedicated I was to weight loss...I completely felt like crap after that because I knew it was all a ruse!

For the past two weeks I have been carrying around a notepad in my back pocket so that when I feel like I'm going to fall off the wagon and eat a TON of unhealthy stuff (not just a snack here and there but a true binge) I write out everything I want to eat and the calories and carbs...thankfully this reasoning works for me otherwise I don't think I'd ever be able to stop myself.

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For the past two weeks I have been carrying around a notepad in my back pocket so that when I feel like I'm going to fall off the wagon and eat a TON of unhealthy stuff (not just a snack here and there but a true binge) I write out everything I want to eat and the calories and carbs...thankfully this reasoning works for me otherwise I don't think I'd ever be able to stop myself.

I think this is a great idea tavvy! I write down what I eat and of course get mad at myself when I realize how many calories I have wasted on unhealthy "food". I think I will try to write in in advance the calories I would consume if I feel like eating unhealthy stuff, and hopefully it shocks me into either not having any at all or at least makes me have a smaller amount.

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That despite knowing it will make me feel like crap in an hour or two (or even while still eating it), I'll still do it and no amount of intellectual reasoning works.

I am guilty of this as well, the best thing i can do is not buy the unhealthy stuff but other people in my house do and they have no problem with portion control. I think I will have to ask that they hide the stuff.

i hate that out of control feeling and then the guilt feeelng after:(

Originally Posted by sexychick:
What do you hate most about being a binge eater?

I hate knowing how much time I have wasted because of my binges (all of mine have been isolating/secretive).

All the planning, hoarding, eating, ect.--all that time I could have spent being with people I loved or doing more productive things instead of running away from it all an anesthetizing myself.

I have hurt a lot of people in many ways because of my binging behavior, not just myself.

Originally Posted by luckymommy:
It's hard for me to narrow it down to one thing. I hate it all. I hate the out of control feeling. The not knowing when I"ll finally stop. Feeling completely beyond full to the point where I'm sick. The hangover the day after. The feeling of disappointment, failure and guilt. I hate that my closet has such a range of sizes, rather than having a more concise beautiful wardrobe. I hate that I'm trashing and abusing my body. I have to work out so much to make up for the fact that I binge. If I could have a normal relationship with food, I wouldn't have to spend so much of my free time working out. I could get a lot of other things accomplished.

During and immediately after a binge I feel so lonely, I can't imagine there's another person on the planet that understands what it feels like to deal with binge eating...

Luckymommy, you said it perfectly. This is the struggle.