Made it through Day 1 yesterday by the skin of my teeth. Was quite scared actually as it's the hardest it's been yet to get back on plan after binging...
But I did it and am down a couple of lbs on the scale this morning, just hope it keeps coming down now til I get back in range.
Onto Day 2 which hopefully won't be as much of a white knuckle ride.
Day 9 today. I'm proud because I was pretty hungry when I got off work yesterday and my boyfriend got out of work late. We planned bratwursts for dinner and he makes them better than me so I was stuck waiting on him to even get them started. I was at the grocery store purchasing some cream cheese and kept thinking, gee, I could just go home and eat half this tub. I really considered it. I have no idea what kept me from doing it!
Day 2 but I am so scared I am going to lose the battle tonight. I have a concrete plan but the urge to binge has been with me all afternoon. I just have to remember to think my eating through - really really think it through. Maybe that will help me make it through another day binge free. I am concentrating on the way I will feel when I go to bed. If I binge I will probably be crying, angry or depressed. If I don't binge I will go to bed feeling grateful, peaceful and healthy. Seems like an easy choice but the food is still calling me. Right now my head is telling me that its ok to eat all my afternoon and evening food now, and that I just wont eat the rest of the day. Fat chance! (pun intended) It's only 2:30. I don't feel that having my planned food would be bingeing but I think its very likely that if I don't eat between now and when I get home at 9 I will binge then.
Whew, ok. Taking it a minute at a time right now. I am going to put off my next snack till 3:15.
Erin, I do the same thing about thinking about how I will feel when I am going to bed! I absolutely HATE the way I feel at the end of a binge day. So, I do the same thing alllllllll day pretty much--just think about that grateful feeling at the end of a non-binge day. It has worked out so far, hope you continue to do well too!!
day 10. i figured that if i eat whole wheat flakes and yougurt and coffe in the morning then i'm not so hungry during the day. and i have it as a snack too. i know i probably have too many carbs but i feel full and i if i eat fruit for snack it only makes me more hungry. so today i had about 700 cal left because i wasn't hungry, i had a nap and it took my hunger away but i still ate a little even if i wasn't hungry because i don't want to deprive myself too much.but i can't wait till breakfast. and i had a fight with my evil sister who called me fat again over a piece of bread. she is crazy psycho. but it really hurt me, i was angry and i wanted to binge a little. but i had to study so i didn't want to waste any time plus i was alone and still didn't binge. yay me. i have a feeling that after this exam on friday i will give in as always but i will try my best not to. probably i will splurge a little and afford myself a pizza or an apple pie from a near bakery.damn now i'm hungry and usually when i go to bed a little hungry then in the morning i feel so great and not hungry at all.
Been hungry today..but have managed on carrot stick snack..and supper not too far away now so I think I will make it. One thing that seems to help me is to make some good dessert, in separate serving dishes so I can indulge my sweet tooth in a managed way. I think I am hungry today because I ran out and did not have any prepared for lunch. So far it has been very successful! Separate dishes are really important so I do not exceed serving size, straighten edges etc...you know al theyways we end up taking more than we should!
Day 2- alot of stress around here today, I did think of trying to take my anger away with food, I will not let anyone or anything sabotage me this time!
Everyone above reading this...hang in there. Don't do it. Find the strength to hold off. The urge will pass. The feeling of staying on track is so much better than giving in.
Binged this afternoon. Lately I haven't even been able to hang on for more than a day - usually my binges are much farther apart. Oh well. Try, try again.
Day 3 coming to a close. I'm still on vaca so I'm way off plan with my food, but not binging so I really don't care. Once I'm home I know I'll sink back into my routine and then we'll see how my theory goes on allowing some overeating/indulging of some of plan items goes as far as my weekend binges are concerned.
I've been exercising really well on my vacation so that's awesome and been really fun. Anyway at this point I'm just not even thinking about the weekend to come or the challenged it will bring. I'm just living in this moment and looking forward to getting back to my routine and lowering my weekday cals as a contingency for the weekends. I know that's technically "restriction" but it worked when I first started maintenance. It only stopped working when I started questioning it. Anyway, regardless, 3 days!
Holy **** I'm craving sugar so badly right now!! I have been binging for days so I finally decided today I'm going to take a break from sugar/carbs, just eat very clean for one day to get back on track. I keep telling myself it's just one day...I just want to break the sugar/ binge cycle. But holy **** I want sugar so badly! I feel insane. I'm gonna try to go to bed and hopefully not lie awake fantasizing about food!
but i still ate a little even if i wasn't hungry because i don't want to deprive myself too much.but i can't wait till breakfast. and i had a fight with my evil sister who called me fat again over a piece of bread. she is crazy psycho. but it really hurt me, i was angry and i wanted to binge a little. but i had to study so i didn't want to waste any time plus i was alone and still didn't binge. yay me. i have a feeling that after this exam on friday i will give in as always but i will try my best not to. probably i will splurge a little and afford myself a pizza or an apple pie from a near bakery.damn now i'm hungry 
