Perhaps someone can relate to how I've been feeling. In December I met a man - he's fantastic, sweet, honest, super good looking and get this, he likes me for me the way I am right now. We've been pretty inseparable since we've met, but I can't shake the feeling that I need to eat. I've always thought that my bingeing was a result of being alone and feeling lonely, but at the other end of the spectrum, being with someone who seems to genuinely want me for me is triggering also. It's like I can't believe that he really wants to be with me and I'm sabotaging myself.
I pretty much binged in secret for all of January. When he left my house after locking the door behind him, my next stop was the refrigerator.
WHY?
On a positive note, I've gotten myself together and am Day 7 binge free. He doesn't know about my issues, but I really want to tell him at some point. I also don't want to fall into that binge cycle again, because when I binge I feel like crap and my self esteem takes a major blow. That in itself is enough to ruin a great start to a potentially very long term relationship