After work, I headed over to some friends' house where a bunch of us get together one night a week so the guys can play cards and we all visit. My DH was already there, and the games were in full swing. Having just got off work, I was starving, so I was taking advantage of the fact that they had a veggie tray out, trying to be as minimalistic with the dip as humanly possible. Well, a couple hours, a few celery sticks and multiple declines for soda offered to me later, they decided to order pizza.
You see...a lot of pizza, I can easily pass up on. But, no. They were ordering from my favorite pizza place in this whole city. And, since I'm a vegetarian, they always want to order a special one just for me. Which I would usually eat most of - all by myself - by the end of the night. And, this was supposed to be a workout night for me, too...not a stay out all evening and pig out night! Lol.
This is the very situation that has always made it so easy for me to shrug off any health plan I may have started in the past, and chalk it up to a free fun night out with friends. I would always promise myself it would be all salads for the next few days, but I would always get so discouraged when I would inevitably see weight gains and start to get lazy about it all...then, I would give up or put it off for a "fresh start" for the following week or the 1st of the next month. This has always been a vicious cycle of mine.
But, you know what I did tonight? I sucked it up, put on my metaphorical "big girl panties" as people say, and excused myself for the evening instead. It was getting a little late anyways, but I let them know that I was going to go home and fit in my workout for the night before it was too close to my going to bed and thanked them for the nice time. DH has a ride home from a couple friends that live in the same apartments, and he's free to play cards and eat all the pizza he wants. I just knew that I wouldn't be able to resist if I stayed. My (previously almost non-existent) willpower is growing, but it's still much weaker than where I'd like it to be. Soon, I will be able to sit there and enjoy my celery while everyone around me is eating warm, delicious, cheesy (did I already mention this was my favorite place in town? Oi!) pizza all around me...but, tonight was not that night. It was not even going to be a "go ahead and indulge in one piece, then stop" night.
Basically, what I'm getting at here is....thank you. Thank you 3FC for helping me strengthen my resolve for this lifestyle change I've recently made. Your stories, struggles and victories are the main source of continued inspiration helping me keep my diet and choices in check. I am so happy I have found this site, and all of you who are going through or have already gone through all the same trials I'm facing with my health. And, thank you for letting me post this wayyy too long-winded post for something that may seem a little trivial. I just needed to tell someone that might understand the subtle importance of finally being able to make choices like these.
So, here I am...at home, about to do my workout even though my whole body is sore from doing it yesterday, and I've already planned out a much more nutritious meal for tonight. (Lots of veggies, some plant-based lean protein, and a little cottage cheese on the side + tons of water!)
SCORE:
Me - 1
Pizza - 0
