10 months in recovery!

  • I am SO proud of 10 months of recovery. I stopped binging the day that my son was born. But I need to be honest, and I need support. In the last 2 weeks (I think), I have binged 4 times.

    I am going to take this weekend to heal my body by eating reasonable portions of good food and to heal my heart by spending time with my family.

    Thank you for reading, and thank you for being here!
  • Well done for sharing! The beginning is nice but then the road narrows, so we need to watch it better and to reconnect with people in order to make sure we are not binging any more. I am having very happy time, where food has become natural, I do not eat out of emotion or boredom but out of hunger. Weight is dropping of, bad habits dropping off, thing like that but as time goes on i start to think to myself, I am slimmer now I can eat this and I can eat that. I need to remember that my weight does not define who i am and it is a refection of bad eating habits. My weight is not to tell me you are fat you must eat less or you are thin you can eat now. My eating starts in my head and when my head starts finding excuses to eat in a way that is not good for my body for that day, then it is bad.

    Good luck! What helps me if finding the reason i eat for, the emotion, or simply the lack of willingness, because there might not be major consequences. I just hope that food will be normal and natural to me today as it was yesterday and i will decide not to be stupid and eat just because i can. Food does not give me what i thought it did! Praying for just one more day of abstinence!
  • Dreamy - CONGRATS! 10 months is great - and sounds like you are being gentle with yourself in response to your binges so kudos!

    I too am working on separating feelings from food but it's so hard. One day at a time?
  • Thanks, guys!

    Definitely one day at a time. I know that this is something I will always be dealing with. I want to model healthy eating habits for my son, and give him a chance to develop a healthy self esteem, something I never got.

    I think what set the binges off is a combination of getting cocky and eating too much junk food. I think junk food has its place, but the sugar overload set me into a tailspin. I have learned my lesson!

    Wishing you both continued recovery!