wow as if I didn't even last a whole day...
binged again like crazy and now I wanna crawl in a hole and die :(
ughhh I feel like a monster, my binges haven't been this bad in quite a while and now I'm back where I started...

Day 9- Went good , we went to a farmer's market & I was surrounded by all types of food. The candy & baked goods are always my only weakness, I never crave greasy, fried, fast food. My hubby bought candy he liked, I said no candy for me. I don't want it in the house, can't wait til he eats it all. I'm not crazy about the kind he bought, so it's not even worth eating. I've been eating clean for 9 days, that's how I lost 65lbs. 16mo. ago. I don't even crave junk like I used to. A clean diet really helps me, I love the food I eat & am quite satisfied with living this way forever. Did any of you ever try it?

mk1014- I just wanted to say welcome & you can stop this. Start now, it's never too late. I found that control was my problem, so I just stopped buying my trigger foods. If it's not here, I can't eat it. I haven't had a real binge( 5000 calories) in 3 mo, which made me so sick, i passed out on my bathroom floor. I've been working on not over eating( usually 2700 calories) now. I guess it's a gradual thing for me. But, there is hope and you can stop, it just takes time. You can do it!!!!

fruitlady - hey there, well my problem is that my mom keeps bringing in all these tempting foods and even though no one forces me to eat them, it's extremely hard for me to control myself. especially when i've already binged for 4 days, making today the 5th and feeling angry and stressed about it which triggers it more. I know that if I can go atleast 3 days binge-free again, I can have my control back but starting again is the most difficult thing in the world and i'm crying my eyes out as I write this because I haven't felt so out of control in such a long time. I know i've had bumps in the road in the past and gotten over them but this time I really feel hopeless and pathetic. I just really wish I can get myself to believe that I am strong enough to get back on track but it seems impossible :(