My Michelle: That's what I'm hoping for. Overeating I can eventually deal with. It doesn't really cause me psychological pain, and I'm hoping once the binges can be managed, the overeating won't be an issue. The binging however, really does harm me psychologically, physically, emotional, everything. Thanks for your input/experience!! :)
fruitlady: Great job avoiding a disaster!!!! That is a huge victory! :)
1HauteMama: Welcome, great job on your success so far!
bonnie2009: It's all about figuring out whatever strategies are helpful for YOU. Great job! Good luck!
KoriHallelujah: Welcome!!! You know you can do it!

Ughh I'm having a "fat day" right now. I realize it's just my brain telling me this. I also think it has a lot to do with the antibiotic I'm on right now.. can that cause SEVERE abdominal bloating and just general bloating? I should look that up. My pants were super hard to zip this morning and now I'm muffintopping a lot. Anyway it's making me feel sorry for myself. To which my brain answers, eat a nice enormous warm bowl of oatmeal that's 10X too large to be considered a healthy portion, then eat everything else in the house.

Phew! Anyway, that won't be happening. Today is Day 9. It will be ok. I had some days where I felt really good about my body last week, so even if I overate, I need to rationally know that I didn't gain enough weight to go from where I was to where I think I am now. It just has to be the medication or something!

julia - i have issues when i am sick or on antibiotics as well...they are awful for my mind and body... i hope you pulled through!!!

kori - welcome! it is great that you came here and told us and now want to improve!

that is what struck me today - this is just about improving, not about a goal post or finish line but about improving how we think and feel about ourselves ... it will never end... it will never be over... it will never be out of my mind... but you know what... i am OK with that!!! it is a journey right?!?!

my journey started decades ago... my journey to improve myself started 1 jan 2007 and look at me now! more than 140lbs lighter, healthier, happier than i've ever been... life is good!!!!

lets push through this tues and become stronger !

Day 260! :carrot::carrot:

1HauteMama, welcome! Congrats on day 4!

Bonnie, I've had many days like you're describing. It does take planning. I know you can do it.

Kori, welcome!

jk, meds do it to me, too. You'll be off them soon. keep up the good work!

Happy, I agree with you. Let's get stronger!

Tyla :dust:

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Hello again.

Day 4 going great. Feeling the urges to eat naughty things but so far have said NO. :carrot:

How is everyone elses Tuesday going?

Hi everyone! Thanks for the support. Update: So I think I'm having a full blown allergic reaction to the antibiotics. This morning is when it started. I had extreme tightness in my chest, couldn't breathe at all, threw up etc. I've been like that all day and I can't believe I made it through ALL of the stuff I had to do today, it was foolish but the stuff had to get done. I haven't thought about food ALL day. I just ate for the first time today; saltines. Hubby got them for me, I wasn't going to have any but they really helped. Anyway, I see no binges for today, unless I want to end up in the ER. That's it for Day 9, I guess.

I'm off the meds now. I just hope that it really is a reaction to the meds, otherwise, maybe its something else and the meds would have eventually help once they kicked in. Who knows...

Keep up all of the great work, everyone!!! I'll post more when I can, I'm going to try and sleep it off some more.

jkinboston- i hope your feeling better soon, please go to the E.R if you are having trouble breathing, that's nothing to mess around with.

Day 7! wanted chocolate again, chewed gum instead. I always say to myself, that I have choices, and what's the better choice? I always seem to choose the better choice(something healthy) Yay!

Today was a fairly good day. I am going to do some meal planning and search for things to do at night. I know some things I just need to get them down on paper and organized.

Everyone have a wonderful Wednesday!

jkinboston89, I hope you are feeling better allergic reactions can make you feel really, really bad. Feel Better soon!

fruitlady: It's so great to be in a state of mind in which you can think rationally. You can choose what's healthy, what's not, what's worth it, what's not etc. That's really a great victory! Great job! :)

Bonnie: Having those ideas down on paper will be really helpful! I know it is for me. If it's just in my head, in the "heat of the moment" I just can't think of all of my great ideas. Having them on paper allows you to see how many other options you have! Good luck!

I'm feeling much, much better! Thank you for all of the well wishes! So today is Day 10. It's the longest I've made it in a while. The thing is, I'm eating over my calorie range. It's soooooo great not dealing with binges, don't get me wrong. However, I think after I get more used to the idea of eating in a range as opposed to up to a number (this was part of what I changed), I'll try to eat at the lower end of the range and leave some extra room for just in case type stuff. Before, I wouldn't leave any room, eat something a little over, and binge. Lately, I've just taken the pressure off and allowed myself to eat over, telling myself it's ok.. that has TOTALLY helped the binges. Now when I eat over, I don't feel that need to eat everything else because I CAN eat it, it isn't forbidden. Still though, I really need to get back to losing a bit, so hopefully I can rein it in a little!

Have a great day everyone!!!! :)

wooo hooo ! my second anniversary with a trainer at goodlife fitness and the scales are happy and i am even happier!!!!

when i started with my trainer i was 256lbs... this morning, 2 years later, i am 173.4lbs and just went for a 6km run like it was 'no big thing' :)

way to kill this week ladies! lets keep it rollin'!!!

Great job, everyone! people seem to be doing so well!

I'm earning day 4. I've been over-eating and I'm up a lb this week, but I'm feeling newly-focused today. I still think I can hit my goal of ten lbs down by Thanksgiving!

Keep up the good work, ladies! :)

Oh, and my co-worker just plopped a big box of good-looking Halloween candy on my desk, but I'm saying NO! I could fit one or two pieces into my plan, but I know that allowing myself even one is a one-way ticket to binge town.

I'm staying strong :D

Hi Everyone.

Day 16 here and doing great. No binges. I am feeling strong!!! Way to rock it everyone!

Well, I'm on day 3. Last night was a major accomplishment for me. I still dug out some monster cookies from the fridge and ate two of them (ugh), but it wasn't out of control and it was definitely NOT a binge.

I worked until almost 3am and was exhausted. Yet another trigger for me - thinking about everything that needed to get done & how it seemed the world was on my shoulders.

My son called for me around the time that cookie #2 was 75% done. I threw the rest in the garbage (including all the others that had been in the freezer) and ran upstairs to take care of him. So ended the food...I then went to bed.

So, not perfect. But an accomplishment nonetheless.

Have a wonderful day everyone. Way to stay strong, ladies! You fuel my motivations. Thanks.

Great control with cookies! I dont know that I could stop at two!

I am on day 5 and feeling strong. I know if I let anything in Im going to lose it so Im avoiding all sweets today. I really feeling cravings but Im determined not to lose it. Worse yet I need to do grocery shopping today- wish me luck to put only healthy items into my cart.

Keep it up everyone!