in the middle of a binge.
 

Ok... maybe I should say "at the end of a binge" because i sat down to post here and get some help and get away from the food...

I've been sticking to my diet (calorie counting 1200-1500 calories per day) very well for about 2 weeks now... but today I caved... I had a healthy breakfast, but I skipped lunch (huge mistake)... so i ended up having hot wings with ranch (at least i baked them instead of fried). Then I had two peanut butter cups. And a pepsi.

And then tonight...after (healthy) dinner... i just ate the rest of the hot wings that I didn't eat earlier with a ton of ranch... And there's things in the fridge calling my name. I DON'T WANT IT!! I've worked sooooo hard today!! I did my 30 day shred and everything... why do I feel like I need to eat? I know I am not "hungry" but at the same time my brain is RAVENOUS for food!! I went and looked in the fridge and there are... pudding cups (for my kids), apples, sauce for eggplant parmesan.. everything i need to make a delicous omelette... or quesadilla... or...e tc... etc... but if i don't stop i know i am going to eat the equivalent of like 5 meals tonight... even if they are "healthy" meals... anyway... hopped on here to get away from the kitchen... even if the dishes aren't done...

The healthy me says "NO, stop, enough calories today" but the old me says "YES... have a pudding cup... and a banana...and a pepsi... and this, that, the other thing, etc" oh I just need some support... part of me feels like I am fat anyway, so what does it matter? :(

You have worked so hard to lose the weight you've lost! It's working! Stay on here and read the posts in the forum. :hug:

Get back up on the horse and ride! Do you know how great you are going to look at 135 pounds?! You are my height and we have the same weight goal and if I can do it at the age of 60 you can too!!! So you go, girl!

Thanks so much for your supportive posts.... I had a glass of water and am reading the forum.... and staying out of the kitchen!!!