Let us know what happens with the appoinetment. I'm glad your mom called, too. Good luck!!!!

Dude. I'm so feeling your frustration. First of all I'm super impressed that you made it months without bingeing, because I can barely go a week without a slip.
I don't really have brilliant advice for you, but I think for me (and sounds like for you) there may be a fear of success. I find that my slips usually happen after I've been complimented or if people are paying attention to me. It makes me uncomfortable, and somehow this triggers a drive in my brain to go backwards on my success.
At that point in time...as corny as it sounds I like to tell myself that I'm worth eating healthy things, and I'm worth taking care of myself etc. If I don't do that my mind goes to vain places like how I look in clothes or who might pay me more attention if I look a certain way and it's those thoughts that seem to drive my bingeing/anorexic tendencies.
Kinda scattered thoughts but hopefully it helps a little. I really understand how upset and frustrated you are and I'm pulling for ya! Feel better love.

Thank you that all (from all of you) makes me feel better. I think what happened with me is exactly what you described. I feel almost...embarassed about my weight loss? Not because it's happening or that I'm doing it but because I have to. I always use to say how comfortable I was with my body and now...idk.