I talk a good game but...
 

when it comes to my own screw ups, I really beat myself up.

I am on week three of WWs (again) and I totally screwed up this weekend. I didn't track on Friday and I made bad choices. I repeated that on Saturday. Today, knowing my weigh-in is on Wednesday, I've eaten 7 points, have a 4 point dinner planned, went to yoga, walked on the treadmill, chugged water and I am still feeling terrible guilt.

I've lost all this weight before twice and I have restarted at least a dozen (or four). I need to lose this weight before I am forty.

I am proud of myself for getting my butt back on track after only two days of bad choices but I am so mad at myself right now.

ARGH!

I was mad at myself while I was eating junk, too.

Why do I feel like I am deliberately sabotaging myself?

I am very familiar with feeling like I self sabotage. I am working very hard on the guilt aspect of things.

I once had a wise leader who said "guilt weighs a pound", trying to get us to realize that we won't be perfect WW members all the time and to accept it and let it go.
It sounds like you're back on track, which is great! :hug:

You know what?
It's not fabulous to beat yourself up about it (i know, we all do it), but the plus is that you recognized that you were making a bad choice and that is a step in itself!

At this point, you just pick yourself up and get on the horse again. Nobody ever said humans were perfect :)

My only major advice is to be careful about denying yourself points. You HAVE to eat your points for the day. Working out is a bonus but it's very important not to starve yourself. I learned the hard way that it just makes things more difficult.

How did your weigh-in go? Im assuming you've finished your meeting now :)

Thank you both. I did really well. I lost 2.8 but I did reduce my points by 10 on Sunday, Monday and Tuesday to make up for my overage on Friday and Saturday. I get so many points that it wasn't THAT difficult, but I had to eat a ton of veggies so I wouldn't be miserable.

I won't do that again!

That said, I now know how it feels to live on 20 points. UGH!