Thank God For my Dog!
 

Okay! So me an my boyfriend are having some problems right now because of my jealousy...Well I felt like I wasnt good enough for him and yada yada yada..Well I got hungry and I made spaghetti, I even made garlic bread! I MADE A HUGE BOWL FOR MYSELF! There was enough for 2 people in my bowl! Plus the piece of garlic bread! I was literaly feeling guilty every bite I took of it! Thinking how bad it was guna be if I ate it all! I was thinking I was going to say screw it and eat the whole entire thing, but I stopped hurried and called my dog in the room set the bowl on the floor and let her eat the rest of it! It actualy made me feel better seeing her scarf it down cuz I knew it wasnt me! BUT it could have been me! ME scarfing that bowl of food to cover my emotions! I feel down on myself but I also feel relieved that I didnt eat it like I thought I was going to! Right now I am full, but not uncomfortably full! SO IM HAPPY abt that. I just feel ashamed that I was actualy going to eat all of it! Im going to go fill my bottle of water up and sip on that for awhile to make sure I dont go back for 2nds! I just cant believe I did that! I hope Im not the only one thats gone overly overboard! I just ask myself why?? Why would you let yourself go like that? Why would you think it was okay to do that? Would you do that in front of your friends? Your boyfriend? A stranger? Sometimes I feel so helpless! I dont understand why I treat myself this way..I think Im guna go take my dog for a walk, even though its cold an raining, I just need to feel free and not care for awhile! And also need to burn off some of this spaghetti..lol and My dog needs to as well! Right now shes laying on the bed behind me looking very fufilled and has her head on the pillow! I wonder if food does the same thing to her as it does to me? Sorry If this post is far off any topic of discussion but I just felt I needed to vent and let it all out! :?:

How great that you caught yourself in the middle of a binge that was brought on by emotional distress. You are wising up to yourself! I call this "revenge" eating, but the revenge ends up hurting only ourselves.
I would think that this was a true learning moment for you, so be proud of yourself and know that you can conquer this!

the first step in dealing with the overeating is recognizing when we are eating out of emotions or out of true hunger. I would say that your doggie knows what you were feeling, and a new doggie toy is in order. :)

LoL! Thats so funny you said that because she just got a new toy today, forgot it in my moms car so we took a walk over to get it! And a bone!! :P I guess she was just spoiled rotten today! But I love her, she never says no to a walk! ;) go figure.

dont beat yourself up, those people you would never want to emotional eat in front of have done it one time or another. Food is a hug we try to buy. just ask the walmart greeter next time and then you can get back in your car!!was trying to be funny there, my husband said i should quit trying. hopefully it worked though

LOL! ariana419 thats too funny! I am definately going to think about that next time I go there!

Good for you for stopping. It took me years before I was able to do so! Sounds like a nice long walk for both you and pooch are in order ~ to celebrate! What kind of dog do you have? I'd love to get one but we live in a flat in the middle of a busy city, not big-dog friendly.. oh well, for now I have my kiddo to take for walks :dizzy:

zibsca-It was hard but I just basicly said IM NOT DOING THIS! And calling my dog in the room was the fastest way to make the food disapear without me eating it!! My dog is a black lab/rottweiler mix. But looks mostly like a black lab with some brindle on her legs. Her name is "Haze"

Hero dog
 

Would love to see a photo of your doggie! Ha, now he's going to start a thread about "mom" overfeeding him -- and get his own support group lol.

Im not sure If I can post a pic of her yet since I havent been a member for 25 days yet...but I will try. And I hope not. I dont usualy giv her people food, this time was just a desperate occasion!! :)

yea I just tried and it doesnt work, I will post the pic up as soon as i can!

OT - Wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday pink1gloss

thanks so much for the birthday wish...but im not realy happy right now. i screwed up ROYALLY i literaly went on a 3 day binge! i ate whatever however much i wanted i feel disgusting and out of control! sometimes i just wish i wasnt even here..i feel so low.

Hmm... sounds like my past few days! We can feel disgusting together. My dog is my inspiration too! Sometimes when I'm binging she'll look at me and it almost feels like she's shaming me (although I know she's just begging, but still ;))
If anything, I'm more anal about my dog's diet than my own! I don't let her eat anything greasy...and if she gets table scraps it has to be something not-so-junky. This girl has several different veggies and fine cheeses in her foody repertoire. What a way to inspire healthy eating: If I don't want to feed it to my dog, I shouldn't eat it myself.

I understand you completely TeslaGirl!! I know better but its like I cant control myself! Once I let go, I cant stop! :( I just hope that I will have the strength to realy change..not just for a week or to, but forever..Because right now, I feel hopeless. I want to look forward to something...anything.

We all have bad days- me included. I find that as you persevere and focus on healthy eating that you will be preparing a meal and something in your head will click and you'll be like "I don't need that" or "that's too much" and you will be better able to control bingeing and overeating. It's going to take time, bt I know you'll get there. Take it a day at a time. Good luck.

:queen: Dhani :queen:

I'm feeling down today too. There are a bunch of emotions and thoughts I can't seem to sort out, and all I want is to go and eat and eat and eat! Aargh! Let me know if you figure things out! I need help myself!

You know, dhanicauldwell, i think thats something i never tried was talking to myself and telling myself "thats to much, or i dont need that"...usualy when im scooping food the thoughts that go through my head are "is that going to be enough? mmm, i could totaly eat more then that"...but at the end, im usualy stuffed..sad thing is i usualy go back for 2nds anyway! if theres food left out more then likely i will eat it! sad but true! but i think im going to try those comments and try to kind of do a reverse effect on myself.."thats to much, you dont need all that, put a few spoonfulls back.." ..literaly i feel so greedy when it comes to food. like i killed it myself and im protecting it. i use to get mad when my sister would ask for a bite of my food. i feel so embarassed about that..i mean seriously? i couldnt spare a bite? i should share my food more often then maybe i would eat so much.. all i know is right now i just got to keep reminding myself what it is that i want. I wana look good feel good and be happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! is that to much to ask??

Lily22, dont worry, your not alone! we are in the same boat, and not just us, our boat is full of people like us!!! so full that we are about to sink!! Something that has helped me in the past is like making a "binge day" on a certain day of the week like since today is Wednesday Id say okay i cant binge til Sunday..but by sunday if you havent binged, you probably wont feel like binging on sunday! its just making it that far. or setting a rule where you cant eat after a certain time..like say 8pm?? for me thats to early i need like a piece of fruit or something before i goto bed or else i will not goto sleep i will drive myself insane laying in bed thinking about food til i go out to the kitchen and eat it and normaly if i do that i will binge binge binge! but just remember make small changes, and usualy it all adds up to a big change in the end.

Come join us at The Binge-Free Challenge. The first day is the hardest, at least it was for me. But once you get momentum going it does get better.

Whenever I want to overeat (which used to lead to a crazy binge and self-loathing, but now am 184 days binge-free), I have to actually stop, get away from the food area and ask myself what is really bothering me? It can be any trigger...stress, harsh words from someone, betrayal, hurt, lonliness, boredom, procrastination over something I don't want to do, financial problems, worry, my mother, how I was treated as a child, getting on the scale and seeing that I didn't lose when I worked really hard, feeling sorry for myself for having to diet, etc., etc. Name an emotion and that could be a trigger. LOL Then I go do something nice for myself.

Congrats to you for stopping in the middle of a binge. That's amazing! I know the guilt you felt before and while eating. That's all too familiar, a feeling I hate. I used to hate going into a grocery store with that "I'm going to do something bad feeling", because I knew I was going to buy binge food and feel terrible afterward. And it always happened that whever I bought extra junk food, the grocery store clerk would need a price check or something, while I waited there in guilt. I haven't had the feeling of binge guilt in 6 months now, and it is so liberating.

I'm so glad you don't overfeed your dog. I was truly feeling sad about that, thinking that she had to overeat what you give here and develop some disease. Good to know you take care of her. Labs are so great! I'm happy that you have a good friend nearby.

Congrats on your weight loss so far. I wish you continued success!

Hope to see you at the Binge-Free Challenge thread.

Tyla

Totally off topic.. but IMPORTANT to your dogs health... Spaghetti can be unsafe for dogs. It usually is made with onions or onion powder, both which can be toxic to dogs. (Along with garlic/garlic bred.) It can make the dog anemic and could cause death. Just a side note to others before handing off your meals to your dogs. lol

Onions (in all forms... dried, powdered, raw, cooked), grapes, raisins, chocolate (especially bakers and dark) and macadamia nuts are just a few toxic foods for dogs (and cats).

Sorry.. the vet tech in me couldn't help it. :) Continue... and good luck!

Okay Im not trying to kill my dog. She rarely ever gets table scraps because I love her and I dont want to kill her. Just an fyi because I keep getting comments about it. I guess its safer to shove it down my food pipe.

That's awesome! You can't beat yourself up for slipping every now and again. It's especially hard to stay on track when something stressful like that happens. The most important thing is that you realized that you weren't eating out of hunger and stopped yourself from eating the entire bowl- I think that's a huge achievement.

I do the same thing with my dog sometimes. I call him over to finish off a snack so I don't eat the whole thing. He doesn't seem to mind too much to help me with my diet- what a trooper. :)

Haven't seen you at the Binge-free challenge thread. Does that mean you have things under control? Hope all is well. :hug:

Hug your dog for me.

Tyla
203 days binge-free and in calorie range

It amazes me that I check in here and first click someone puts emotion to exactly what I was feeling last night. Thank you. Thank you for understanding and letting me know that I am not alone, I am not the only one. Yesterday, I had eaten really well, actually, a little under ate, (which I dont believe in) but I had held up the fight and passed by fast food etc. waiting to eat a healthy dinner of fish and spinach. It was great and I had watermelon for dessert. Ok , the water melon was ice cold and sweet and good. Had a second piece (hindsight says here is the point, I should have stopped. One piece was enough, it wasn't going anywhere) And then magically, before I thought it out, recognized it or battled it there was a bowl of strawberry shortcake w/ extra whipped cream in my hand and I am munching away. Also didn't stop when I reached the pause point ( I am learning that there is a natural pause point in the rhythm of the meal when you really don't need more, you just eat more - I am learning how to listen to that pause) or even when I felt full.

Silly, but I am thrilled even if I did over eat. I am becoming more aware and as other voices have said on here, that is half the battle.

Thanks guys!:hug:

Oh I don't think you were trying to kill your dog at all.. I just thought it would be important to mention the onion thing because many people are not aware it is toxic in all forms. Sorry.... vet tech here... couldn't resist. It's vital to know that because onion toxicity may not show itself for several days afterwards, and you wonder, "Why is my dog so sick?!".