Day 13 here! Woot! almost 2 weeks

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Completed day 9 and working on day 10 :broc: All is going well for me now. I'm getting in my exercise and doing all that I need to do to lose weight. Yesterday was my rest day from the FIRM but I did a 3.5 mile walk. Got up this morning and did my FIRM rotation before heading in to work. I may still do a walk today too.

Have a great day everyone and stay strong!!!

Working on Day 9!

Happytobe, my last couple of binges consisted of half a dozen of Tim's donuts and then more junk food piled on top of that. I hope never to do that again and that the next time I buy half dozen, it's actually to share with other people. Thank goodness Krispy Kreme isn't around here, otherwise I would go insane.

Congrats to everyone, whether it's Day 1 or Day 100.

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Day 32

Hey guys! You all are doing great! Hang in there!

Myself, however, is a different story.... I was on call last night, and needed to buy dinner from the hospital cafeteria and went a little hogwild. I had a super grilled cheese (cheese, bacon, ham on sourdough) with italian wedding soup with six crackers... if that wasn't enough I went back to the cafeteria an hour later (I was not hungry -- just bored!!) and ate a pudding sundae with oreo cookies... yes. It's as bad as it sounds.

This morning I just wanted to say "screw it" and buy a hamburger/fries/milkshake/cupcakes/everything on my drive home... but I drove right by and went home instead :smug: I ate some egg beaters on one piece of toast with low-fat cheese.

I think I'm starting to realize that achieving weightloss, for me, is a series of small battles instead of one large war. How do you perceive the struggle for yourselves?

lata - thanks... it is nice to know tim hortons is not just my issue :) i had to buy donuts on monday for a colleague that was leaving - so i gave the money to someon else to buy them and managed to avoid them. did you know that timbits have 60-90 calories EACH!!! you're better off eating a full donut at 300 cal than snacking on 'a few' timbits!!

shelflife - i TOTALLY agree that it is little battles... daily, sometimes hourly! way to go ...pat yourself on the back for recognizing what you did, why you did it and for making a healthy choice at home!!!

so as i was typing the post above, i was eating sugar free werther's ... about 200 cal worth... that is no small feet! they are about 7 cal each so that is a lot!! my tummy is wicked upset now... not from calorie overload but... YUCK! i am soooo friggin tired and now my belly hurts and i soooo dont want to exercise in a little more than an hour... i have not wanted to 'fall off the wagon' this badly in a really long time! and i am even at work where it is normally soooo easy to get through the day.... i need strength.. and am not sure i am going to find it within myself today .... why do i feel like crying? eating? is it just that i am that tired? or ???? yesterday was amazing... great food, wicked exercise, huge accomplishments...and today... this.... guess i need to focus on yesterday and make today just as positive... i'll try to 'rinse' out the werthers with some water and warm tea and hopefully feel okay to spin in an hour... sorry for the rant ... super unimpressed with myself right now!

I was feeling incredibly bingey after my first post. I practiced some anti-binge eating techniques, but no matter how much I asked myself "am I hungry?" and insisted "no" , that part of my brain yelling "fries! fries! fries! fries!" would not quit!

So asked myself what else could be wrong. I was on call last night, and got about 5 hours of sleep, so clearly I was tired. I tried to appease the voice at first with alternate foods: an orange, wasa crispbread with laughing cow, and finally a Smart Ones meal. When, after this, I felt like I needed another microwave meal and was still fighting with myself about driving down the road and pigging out on fries, I finally listened to myself. I took a nap.

I just woke up after a couple of hours, and guess what? I've stopped thinking about fries :)

happytobe...you may be unimpressed with yourself, but I am TOTALLY impressed with you. You've just hit a rough patch and I know you'll be able to make it through today. Think of this way...you may feel super anxious and sad and wanted to just eat right now, but if you give in to that, won't you still feel anxious and sad? The only difference will be the added (bad!) feelings that accompany a binge. Things WILL get better. You just have to wait it out!

shelflife -- isn't it funny how our bodies know what we need, but we deny it? For what? I am horrible about eating according to time and not according to what my hunger levels are. I'm trying to get better at that so I can get better at listening to my body for all kinds of other things...like needing sleep!

Congrats to all you binge-free chickies! We are an awesome group! I'm on Day 21 and I'm feeling a little better about my calorie splurge the other night. I've also down super well today, even though it hasn't been a routine day! Hope everyone finishes out this day strong (I know you will!)

Day 20 for me, did good today. No cravings at all!

Day 65!!:D

Fruitlady, I'm so happy you made it to day 20! You made my day. :D

Blairsey, excellent job! We're making this happen. :carrot:

Happytobe, I think you're doing an awesome job!:bravo:

Foxxylady, Keep up the great work! :cp:

jdonato, just wanted to say hi. You're doing a great job, too! Good luck with your exams. :coffee2: :goodluck:

shelflife, congrats to you for realizing you were tired. Keep going. Forget it and move on. The fact that you're here trying is super! (I know what you're going through...I've been there, done that.) I'm thinking good thoughts for you. I know you can make it!

Paris, congrats to you making it to Day 32!

Let's stay strong, everyone!

Tyla

Day 1...boo! :(

Originally Posted by tyla:
Day 65!!:D

Blairsey, excellent job! We're making this happen. :carrot:

Yes we are!:broc:

I am on day 10! Double digits! Right now for me it's TOM and I am craving a binge big-time. Doesn't mean I'm going to give in to it, but I just wanted to write that I'm struggling a little right now. For now I'm chewing gum and trying to distract myself.

WOW you ladies really really rock!!! I cannot thank you enough for the encouragement... I am feeling much better today ... yesterday I went down to the gym and did my own spinning for 45+min and at the end i felt like i had accomplished something and the urge to eat was gone. i then took my oldest son to a movie and snuck in all our own food to avoid the temptations... then home and had my evening snack... feeling very good today for sure!

lets all knock today off!!!! thank you!!!!!!!

Good Morning Ladies,

I completed day 10 and am working on day 11 now. I'm also doing good with my exercise. I'm following my FIRM rotation to the tee and I'm doing some additional walking.

Skyra - I hope you made it through last night. Stay strong.

Duqs - I agree with you on the all or nothing mentally, I'm working on that too, I'm trying to allow myself to have some of the things I want (in moderation). I've read that binge eaters should not deprive themselves of anything.

Have a great day everyone. We can do it!

i started jan 2007 and said NO treats and stuck to it until about easter last year. When i say no treats i mean nothing - no birthday cake, no fries, no nothing!

well, when i did 'cave in' last spring and decided it was okay to allow myself some of these treats, i went crazy and binged nearly every day from easter last year until dec (there was nearly 60 days that i was binge free but the binges after that were legendary)

so all that to say - i dont deprive myself anymore - nothing is off limits... i just ask myself "is this 100 calorie worth another 1km run?" (because that is about my burn rate 100 for 1 ... scary eh!? that is a lot of running for a tbls of peanut butter or handful of crackers!)

EVERYTHING in life should be in moderation!

Warning: sad pity party ahead.

I've been feeling like crap this week. Just feeling fat and bloated in general even though I've been exercising every day, staying within my points, and drinking all my water. Then I had that uncontrolled eating the other night, which even though I stopped it and tracked it and even though it didn't put me over my weekly points, still made me feel like a failure. Today was weigh-in day and I was up two pounds. At first I heard her wrong and thought she said I was down two pounds...then I looked in my little book and saw the truth. Ugh. Maybe it's TOM, kind of feels like it, but I don't really know because (and this may be TMI, haha, sorry) I haven't been having regular TOMs.

I'm just looking for a reason for feeling this crappy! I've been drinking one diet soda a day...is that a part of it? I haven't been sleeping well...maybe that's part of it too. Maybe the soda and the sleeping are related. But, really, two pounds?! How?! And why, when I really have been eating right, not binging, and exercising, do I still feel fat, tired, and just plain icky in general?! Okay, the more I type it out and think about it, the more it sounds like TOM, haha. But I have no "proof" if that makes sense, lol. I just feel so defeated...like, why am I even trying?

/pity party

I hope everyone else has a great day! I suppose it's Day 22 for me and I should feel positive about that. Hope everyone else is having a better day than I am!

I'm having a bad day:( no binges, just a bad day!

including someone saying something to me about what i was eating for lunch...someone thatalways has something to say. YES imeating some salad annddd a lean cuisine.

I don't like being around pol who make me feel like I'm doing something wrong by eating. It always just makes me binge and start eating in secrecy. :(

I didn't need his help and advice to lose the first 73 lbs and I think illness okay the rest of my journey without it.

Ugh, rant over and now looking forward to putting another day binge free tonight :)

--and I think I'll be okay without it--

emily - i totally understand that feeling and my TOM is wicked irregular so i never know if i can blame it on that or not!!! i understand you are disappointed about the 'gain'. Perhaps it is water weight, perhaps it is an alien implanting tiny ball-bearing in your bellybutton at night? maybe you have a huge, heavy tap-worm? (these are all things I used to think!!!)

sorry, just trying to lighten it up a bit :)

seriously - 2lbs is nothing... my trainer once joked that she weighed herself before and after a poo and lost a pound! (and she is about 120lbs!) so it could be lack of sleep, it could be stressing over weight loss, it could be hundreds of things (like the scale being out of calibration or different than the last one used!)

if you are up again next time, then you could relook at the factors and see what it might be. One very slight increase is nothing to get too panicy about...

(says the lady that has weighed herself 4 or 5 times a day in the past!)

big hugs!!! try to find one positive thing about today and hold onto it!!

Day 66! Plus I finally, and I do mean finally, broke my plateau. I've been the same weight for weeks!! (Which is enough to make anyone want to say to H**** with it!) But thank God for this group!

Foxxy, you are so right. It is the cola that made you gain. Not only does it have toxins, but a ton of salt. You are retaining. Stay strong! I'm sending you good wishes and will power dust. :dust: :dust: :dust: Plus the lack of sleep makes your body lose serotonin, which causes us to be irritable and cranky. (I've been reading up on this stuff for motivation, because I couldn't understand why I wasn't losing fast enough.) :)

chels, you're doing great! Some people are just idiots! I hate that, when they think they know it all. It just means that they have no control in their life, so to make themselves feel better, they tell someone else what to do. I wish they would just mind their own business.;) Stay strong! We're making this happen together! :hug:

Blairsey, thank you for putting my post up again. That gave me the extra boost I needed today. We're going to reach our goals this time. :carrot:

Good luck to all of us. We are so worth it!

Tyla

Hi everyone, thanks to those who always encourage me to keep going! I think of your comments when I get the urge to binge. It helps so much!

As for me, I am 21 days binge free. I was so angry at my mom this morning that I just wanted to sit down, relax and pig out on natural peanut butter and f.f. chocolate marshmallow frozen yogurt(my favorites) thank goodness I don't buy any of these trigger foods anymore. I would have blew it! My plan was to walk to the market to get a few things along with my favorite foods so I could binge. On the way to the market, I talked myself out of buying any binge foods. I thought to myself, it isn't worth the 3 lbs I will gain if I binge, I am not sabotaging myself because of her stupidity, she is not going to do this to me, I won't let her. This may sound harsh towards my mom, but if you had to live with a person like her you would go insane. I'm gettin there myself! lol At the market I bought fruit and greek yogurt, no trigger foods, I wasn't even tempted. It felt really good!

Thanks for the support girls!

Happytobe...your suggestions as to what the gain could be from made me laugh, thanks! And I know it could be hundreds of things and that it can't possibly be real weight gain. It's just so disappointing! Why am I affected so much by a stupid number! I think if felt good, the number wouldn't bother me as much, but since I feel like crap too, that stupid number only makes it worse.

Tyla -- Thanks for the will power dust and the info! I'm going to try and cut back on the soda this week. It's going to be hard, but you're right...I'm probably better off without it. Tomorrow will be Day 1 of no soda!!

Chels -- I HATE when people comment on what I'm eating! Or when they look at it and wrinkle their nose or make some snide remark. Only advice I can offer is to ignore them! If you don't respond to their comments...they'll eventually stop making them, right?

fruitlady -- AWESOME job at the grocery store! It's always great to realize a binge is not worth it before you actually binge!

Almost binged again today and probably would have if it wasn't for DH who wasn't really feeling like going out! I made a quick dinner... phew.

tyla-- thanks so much! its always nice to come on here knowing someone will be able to relate!!!!!

foxxy-- i wish i could have ignored but day after day of genious advice, well quite frankly it got old. yday he said i wasn't supposed to use salt. i kindly expressed to him that i drink 120 oz of water a day and that i thought i could handle a dash of salt on my veggies. so today i was rather frank with him and said yes i was gonna eat the lean cuisine and salad and if i was still hungry i would eat something else. he didn't talk to me the rest of the day ;)


and another day binge free :))

duqserb - good luck at Olive Garden! I went to O.G. tonight with my friend. I didn't want to choose something "super heathy" because then I would be jealous of ppl who were eating what they REALLY wanted. So I ordered what I really wanted - spaghetti with marinaria & meat sauce. I asked for a lunch portion, which they accommodated. I still took some home with me. limited myself to one and and a half breadsticks. I felt myself starting to get a little bingey... and then stopped. :-)
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day 15 here. :-) I've overeated many times this week, to keep with the trend... but ahven't binged. So no binge = another day added to the streak.

Sad to say but I am back at working to Day 1 today. :(

Congrats to everyone that tacked off another day.

Good Morning All,

I now have 11 days of no binging and eating right. I'm doing good with my exercise too! I don't see any major hurdles for the weekend so I'm hoping to tack more binge free days on.

I hope everyone else has a great weekend and stay in control :cb:

I'm on day 34--and feeling quite weak. I really wanted to binge yesterday. I was conciously debating it in my head--how sick is that? I kept trying to remind myself about how crappy it makes me feel physically, and it just wasn't working.

I was able to not binge, but I still feel like crap!

Working on Day 23. Feeling a little better today actually...that "feeling fat and bloated" feeling I've had the last couple of days is starting to diminish. Not gone completely, but not as strong as it has been! I hate feeling like that when I've done NOTHING to deserve it!

Chels -- at least he stopped talking to you, haha, I'd call that a win!

Lata -- good for you for picking yourself up and starting over again. It's not about perfection! It's about persistence!

Paris -- I'm sorry you feel like crap :hug: And I know I've experienced that "to binge or not to binge" debate hundreds of times, it's not as sick as it sounds. Stay strong! I just keep telling myself "one more day" (or even sometimes, "one more hour")

Have a good day everyone!

Paris - Sorry you're struggling now but don't give in. You've got over a month under your belt now. Hang on in there. You can do it!!!

Foxxy - I hope you shake that feeling soon. I hate feeling like that.

I played with fire today but I wanted to test myself. After lunch, I wanted something for dessert but didn't want a Weight Watchers 1 pt bar so I opened a mini bag of M&Ms I had in my desk drawer. I divided half of the bag out which was about 10 pcs. I ate them, enjoyed them and put the rest away for another time. To be sure I didn't go back for the rest, I went and brushed my teeth. I really want to be able to handle eating just a taste of something and not binge for days afterwards.

Have a great weekend everyone.

Thank foxxy, but I will still be working on Day 1 tomorrow. :(

Going through a tough time right now but I appreciate all the support I get here.

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I can't believe I missed posting on Day 60! I guess it's a good thing, as I only forget to post when I'm smooth sailing. When I'm struggling, this challenge thread is on my mind....which is also a good thing. :)

EVERYONE-:hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

Day 67 :D

Blairsey, congrats on day 60!

Lata, Hang in there!:hug: Good luck to you!

GettinFit, Good idea about the brushing your teeth!

Foxxy, Glad that bloated feeling is leaving. I hate that feeling!Congrats on day 23!

Paris, 34 days! It's over a month! Woo Hoo!

chels, Cherish the fact he isn't talking to you! :D

TGIF, EVERYONE!
Tyla

Day 22 for me. I wanted to binge so bad yesterday, and I talked myself out of it. Today it was ok, but around 4pm I wanted to eat everything, I wasn't even hungry. If I would have had the time to sit and relax, I would have blew it. So I kept myself up and running cause I had a lot of things to do today. I still want to binge but not as bad. Oh crap, I just remembered, I have to go to the market tonight. I'll try my best not to buy anything that will tempt me.