Would people please comment on my 3FC blog entry, "Why won't I let myself succeed?" I'd like your feedback, but I don't know if I should copy and paste the blog entry, or if even this request might be against guidelines. Not that I'm trying to direct traffic to my blog. You can comment here in this thread, instead of on the blog, if you want to.

Thank you.

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I suspect that your DH, like mine, wanted to do something nice for you by ordering your favorite foods, especially since you are sick and have been under so much stress. Have you told him that these foods are now off-limits to you?

Rather than focusing on your food addictions, could you instead think ahead, before you eat something that you know should be off-limits, about how you will feel after you eat it? This takes practice and time. You so deserve to feel good in your body. Did that dessert pizza feel good after you ate it? Was it worth the self-recriminations and physical discomfort that came with it?

Someone told me that they binge or overeat because they don't feel they are worthy of anything better, and that they are punishing themselves. That boggled my mind. I overeat and binge at times to get that "full" feeling, and I will even say that at times my mindset is that I just don't care.

I think you should take your time with the weightloss, and try and use tools to help prevent you from going into the binge mode. As a food addict, that could be keeping your insulin consistent, not have binge or trigger foods in the house, always having a back-up food nearby, not letting yourself get too hungry, etc.

Just realize that you are an important person and you have your own free will and you don't have to do anything for anyone else, or because anyone else says to do something, or guilts you into doing it. You are your own, individual, and unique person, and staying healthy and happy is one of the most important things in your life.

Thanks to you ladies.

I struggle in similar ways. As you said, I don't think your husband was sabotaging you. It's just so hard to say no! I agree it's an addiction. So, like you said, you've got to get back on the wagon and start over. That's what I try to do, too! Hang in there!