Losing Control
 

:cry: I feel so awful... I just ate a pint of Moose Tracks ice cream, a Little Debbie brownie, and almost a whole bag of gummi bears. Why?? Because I allowed hurtful words my mother said to me, get to me. I lost all self control. All I could think of was finding a way to stop the hurting. To find some comfort. And for a few minutes I found it in the food. Now that the food is gone, there is no comfort, there is only the empty containers, a sick stomach, a hurting heart, and so much guilt. I have been trying so hard to stop this cycle. I was doing better... not great, but better... and suddenly I feel like I will never be able to stop this. I feel so out of control. I feel like I will never be strong enough to not turn to food for comfort, I feel like I will never be able to live normally. I feel disgusted with myself. I knew... KNEW... that I would feel this way afterwards. KNEW that doing this would ruin the good day I was having. And most of all I KNEW that the food wouldn't bring me real comfort... But still I did it...

How do I stop this? What will it take to forgive myself, to learn to find a new way to handle my emotions? Can it even be done?? I don't know...:?:

Sweet curves,Sorry to hear your having a bad day. Thank God tomarrow will come and we can start over. Dont beat yourself up. One day at a time and some days we can only take a minute at a time.

Thank you. :hug:

the food only makes you feel better for a while then you feel like crap again. i don't have a specific way i handle emotions either. i just kind of ride it out till it passes. hope you have a better day tomorrow. p.s.- me and my mom don't have a great relationship either. i'm slowly learning how to just let her negativity go in one ear and out the other. not always easy but i try.

sweet, to the best of my knowledge a binge has never solved anything for anybody - the fleeting pleasure of food in the mouth NEVER stays for the long haul. What has been proven to calm the mind, however, is exercise. Get the **** out and go for a long, hard walk. Dig a big hole. Beat the snot out of a punching bag. Take the anger and hurt out on weeds in the flowerbeds. Run if you want to. But get your heart pumping - it will help purge the feelings - as if the emotions flow out with the sweat. Not only will you feel calmer when you're done, you'll be energized with pride in your strength! :hug:

Wishing, you are so right. A binge has never sloved any problems. They just make things worse. That is really great advice, the next time I feel that need to try and comfort myself with food, I am going to go jump on my trampoline :trampo: I think that would be a great way to let out all the pent up stuff. Thank you. :hug:

Thank you all. :hug:

Oh dear :hug:

Everyone falls off the wagon now and then. Pick yourself back up and remember that tomorrow will be a better day. Don't let it get to you, you have done soo great already!

I'm right there with ya, I screwed up and binged the past several days. Not good =o( But tomorrow is a new day.. =) hope you had a good day today and that a better one will come tomorrow!