I've gone for two months (the whole time I've been dieting) without binging, and I thought my relationship with food was substantially better than it was before. Then the Cool Whip entered the house. yesterday I bought a tub of fat-free Lite Cool Whip to put on top of some oat pancakes (yummy!) -- I had never tasted Cool Whip before, and I tried a little taste before I put it on the pancakes. It was maybe the most delicious thing I've ever tasted?
So I kept sneaking spoonfuls of it all day, and lo, I woke up early this morning and sneaked out of bed to finish the last of it with a spoon. Typical binge behavior -- exactly the same thing I used to do with cookies and crackers.
The caloric effects of this binge weren't bad (about 300 calories in the whole container, and once I realized I couldn't trust myself with it, I budgeted those into my day -- I should have just thrown it away though!), but even though this binge didn't break my diet, I'm so disappointed that I haven't lost the binging behaviors. Does it ever go away? Will I eventually start binging on carrots? Or, I can only pray, stop binging altogether?


and gain it all back. I am hoping that now that I have started a more realistic plan and have incorporated formal exercise, I will be a little more binge-proof. 

