frustrated/confused.
 

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aghh. for as long as i can remember, I've had major issues with food. I realize that I have a problem. I eat way too much.

It gets to the point when I keep eating until I'm SO full, and even then I keep eating more and more. I notice that this really only happens when I'm stressed out, or sad about something. Ever since I started school, I've done terrible. I worked so hard this summer, and it feels like I undid all of it in a matter of 2 and 1/2 weeks. :'(
It's just really strange, and I feel like I'm out of control and don't realize what I'm doing. It's like I always need something no matter what it is.
I try to do things to keep myself busy/occupied, but even then, I still end up in the kitchen somehow. :/

...sorry. I really needed to rant....

rant away I have felt that way too. I have lost and gained the same 25lbs so many times and each time I tell myself I will never go back to that weight HA I am obsessed with food, cooking it, eating it, planning what I am going to eat next, when I am going to eat, how much I am going to eat..I don't know how to make the merry-go-round stop

I came to this forum for support and help and so far I am hanging on. This is about my third week here and so far I think I am coming to terms with the fact I am a food junkie no if I can find a magic cure and fix it I could make millons

Oh I'm glad I'm not the only one. I love food. Looking up new recipes is exciting for me (I can actually envision what the taste combo's would be like). Which is a good thing considering I am a chef-in-training. I've managed to stock the house with good, healthy foods that I can mix-up into yummy, healthy dishes ... until ... my hubby came home tonight with a movie, bag of chips & onion dip. He has no problem just snacking a little & then stopping - on the other hand, I have no willpower when it comes chips & dip! I now feel soooo bloated & disgusting, I actually thought of trying to puke it up (to get rid of the bloated tummy feeling) - but I quickly nixxed that idea considering I hate throwing up (I only threw up 1x when I was pregnant (I had strept throat)). Anyways .. off topic a bit - I need to remember just how I feel right now so next time he brings home "treats" & a really bad movie to-boot, that I HAVE NO WILLPOWER & WILL EAT TILL I'M SICK! Any coping tips, I welcome them. Thanks

Chubbs24, I see you originally posted a couple days ago. Welcome to 3fc, :hug:. I think your in the right place. Ditto what the other chicks said...I think about food all the time. When will I eat next and will it be just exactly what I want? I spend way too much time in the fridge and rummaging through cabinets. For me stress is a big trigger. Stress and anger.... and frustration...... and pretty much any excuse will do really. But almost always it's my emotional state that gets me going. Funny thing is it's only after the fact that I can put it together. School can be incredibly stressful. Being aware of your behavior is a great start. Maybe you could look for a couple stress relieving activities to put into your schedule....I know, easier said than done. Maybe just 5 minutes of meditation or some time to read for enjoyment. But look for ways to be kind to yourself and keep being aware of your emotional state.
Most of all stay close to 3fc and read other posts. The info here is so insightful and inspiring. Hang in there! :hug:

my mother has joined this group and loves it. i havent found the strength in me to go yet. i sappose its not for everyone, but its an option. this website is the best thing that has helped me. but this has helped my mother emensly, its person to person. http://www.oa.org/index.htm

i often feel like you, Chubbs24. when i'm stressed or frustrated or happen to pass my ex-boyfriend on campus its like something goes off in my brain and i just need to eat until i feel sick. it comforts me, but at the same time it stresses me out even more because i know i shouldn't be eating that much. its always good to rant, and thinking through things (or writing them out!) can help you deal with your stress AND help you realise that you are overeating. i know it's not that simple, but sometimes writing down the reasons that you feel you need to eat helps to put them into perspective, and may help you realise how to deal with them without turning to the easiest comfort...food!

ps you are doing amazing! congrats!