Day 14! Two weeks, I'm so excited. I don't think I've gone this long without a binge in the past two years!

I'm trying to decide if yesterday constituted a binge or not. Did I eat too much? Yes I did. Was I out of control? No. Well. Not really. It was more like mindless eating and when I realized I was eating for no real reason I quit. I'm hoping that isn't a binge because I want to say I made it to day two of a binge free week. What do you guys think? I have to warn you I have been accused of being the queen of rationalization. I suppose all addicts have that ability.

Oh boy........

I feel a binge coming on!

I FEEL it - I feel the internal restlessness and unhappiness

Miriam...You can feel it, so you can prevent it, right? Busy that internal restlessness with something else. Read a book that you enjoy, or put on some fun music and dance around with a hairbrush as your microphone. Or do something that will occupy your mind AND your hands (I feel that the hands are the most important!)

Good luck, I know you can stop yourself!

Didn't mess up.

Took food and measured it and ate slowly while trying not to focus on the source of anxiety.

Awesome miriam:D you were even able to eat rationally..nice going..

Thanks, mongoose and paris.

And writermom - you bet - we are the absolute uncontested queens of rationalization!!!!

Good morning all! Day 26.

Hi, kittycat! Hope you are having a good day.

Paris: day 14! :bravo: I recommend a small reward to celebrate :)

writermom- what you describe doesn't sound like a binge- since you managed to stop your behavior.

WTG Miriam! I think it is so important that you can tell when a binge is coming.

We head out of town tomorrow . . . to the land of fun, but fattening food choices :lol: I am not sure I will be able to post while I am gone, so I may not touch base with all of you until Tuesday! That will feel very strange!

I too, am extremely good at rationalization.
Writermom, I don't think it was a binge. For me binge feels out of control, compulsive and secretive. Yes, I overeat too and that can turn into a binge. But , the binge monster has a way different feel than garden variety overeating.
Miriam-- very nice... very nice indeed.
Loveliam, enjoy the vaca. We'll be away with you-- no posts for me either.
Paris, good tips. I'll keep them in mind (I hope ;))

Today will be a challenge for me. My mother is coming and her views on food and eating are extremely screwy. She gave me diet pills when I was 11 years old (prescription!) We have an agreement that she cannot talk about my or my kids weight or eating. Of course, she cannot control herself, but she tries.

MANY buttons are pushed during her visits.

guard remains-- red alert.

Kittycat40--good luck with having your mom there. I understand how hard it is to have family around and still eat the way you need to. We'll be rooting for you.

Loveliam, yes I am from Sweden. (:
And miriam101, great job!! I wish I would have done the same yesterday (it's in the confession thread)... yes. I'm back on day one.

SHe's gone, left candy here-- but it's pretty yucky and a kind of small amount and in little baggies for the kids-- so it's safe from me!!

It was actually a good visit. She is so inappropriate tho... she gestures with her hands in our sitter's direction-- and says, very dramatically, would you look at this?? (pointing/gesturing at our sitter).. how slender and lovely (or something liike that). Our sitter could stand to lose about 30ish pounds and has been trying to get fit. Our sitter smiled, looked a bit uncomfortable and I rolled my eyes at my mother, privately. Then after our sitter had walked out I mentioned to my mother that I know she is trying to be complimentary but it is not appropriate to talk like that. How about, " Samantha you are looking great today" Not making such a big deal and having the one you are complimenting feel uncomfortable. (and she does this repeatedly with everyone and anyone)

As mentioned earlier she is obsessed with weight and food.-- yes, I've had lots of therapy. And I still struggle.

And I refer as the chicks at 3fc "24/7 therapy and support". Thanks for listening....and for being so supportive..... :)
I'm thinking this day will end well.:)

Wow Kitty - that must have been tough... How often does your mother come?

Mine lives next door from me and is always critical about EVERYTHING, can't stand it. Major binge-trigger, haha

Tristan - good luck on day 1! Always the hardest....

I'm PO'd at my scale - been sOOOO goood - Sunday I was 152.2 - and thins morning I was up to 154.6!! WTH?Q??!?@!@?!?!~

I am on day 18. I'll be on plan today, but tomorrow ... well, we'll see.

Good job, kitty!

Tristan, hang in there. It does get easier.

Miriram, my mother tries to come weekly. But with long breaks for vacations and theatre. SHe'll be in your neck of the woods in the fall. Ususally I am at work on the days she is here and she hangs with my little ones. This started when I had infant twins and a two year old. It didn't feel safe or right to leave all those little peolple with one babysitter. But, I am on vacation right now.
I purposely live in a different state, but still close enough... b/c I needed that distance, physical and mental.

binge guard lowering to orange. high alert but danger diminished.

have a good weekend chickies!!