Hi all,

I'm Laura, 39 and tired of struggling with my weight. I have gone up and down for most of my life. It seems like I "mess up" right around the point that I'm really making progress. I've tried OA and parts of it I can relate to. I've been on so many diets. It's amazing how I can be so all or nothing with this food addiction of mine. When I'm eating well and exercising, I feel so good. When I'm not, I am constantly thinking about food, how fat I am and how miserable I feel. I desparately want to change my lifestyle and once and for all, just be a normal weight. I am so tired of letting food control me. I want to believe that I can do this.

Hi Laura, Geez... that sounds like my life story... I know how you feel... its such a battle... I do a lot better if I come to this site though.. It makes me feel like I'm not alone.... I've been reading and posting for just a month now and it definitely helps... Good Luck...

You CAN do this...really you can...and welcome... It is all a process and I recently did a post about the tools that I am currently employing to overcome my own issues. (Briefly, they are yoga, miracle ball method, and meditation believe it or not) Well, I was doing really well until I hit a wall on Monday with my Dad being diagnosed with a Gist. He recently had surgery to have it removed and is doing well but they got the final pathology as malignant. It through me so bad that I temporarily lost my footing on the path and reverted to old coping skills just for Tuesday...so I guess I will have a date to put to my last binge after all...4-9-08. Today was crazy with family business so I had to miss my yoga class but the eating hasn't been terrible and I am feeling strong and in control again so I will just press on from here. Welcome....

It's good to hear from others that I can do this. It does help. I am really hoping that everything with your father is ok. My prayers are with you.
Laura

I could have typed your opening post, I can so relate. I think we are all in good company here -- everyone in this forum understands EXACTLY what this feels like.

I have this conversation with a friend of mine so often: WHY IS THIS SO HARD. We would ask each other this ALL THE TIME because neither of us could believe that managing our weight should be this hard. But it is. We finally had to stop pondering the WHY and start asking different questions about how we can cope, how we can make the best of it, what is right in our lives, how we can create new, healthy habits and strategies for sticking to them.

You CAN do this, we all CAN. Will it be the easiest thing in the wrold, I highly doubt it. But that doesn't mean it isn't doable.

Same here, that is so me. I hope with my new method, I'll finally make it. Let's do this together. We're strong!!!!

I could have written those exact same words! There's a lot of really great people on the board. Rest assured, you're not alone.