i am honored girl
JK - for some people sugar is addictive...maybe try to just eat less sugar and see how you feel. like a trial and error thing. i am sure your host family will understand.
and i dont think that we have to be obsessed to be healthy, however, i personally need to stop associating eating with love. its not love.
the self loathing is unfckingreal. i just sit back and watch the tapes in my head sometimes and think, no one else in the world would ever talk to themselves like this.
i watch all types of people living life: going out to eat enjoying themselves, hanging out, not beating themselves up, and they seem fine. they have families and jobs and lives and they live. LIVEEE. not sit around and feel like sh*t b/c they can't put the cookies down.
ARGH.
well i hoe you ENJOY your time away. also, when i hear the word enjoy i automatically think lying down and eating cookies til i pop. there are other joys in this world, or so you would thinkg!!